Op, never mind d insults. a lot of people have lots of evil intents but never voice it out which usually make them to carry it out. Now that u've bared ur mind, is better.Just bear in mind that ur ex is not available for you again except on evil ground which is committing adultry. Begin to see ur husband excellent qualities and develop geniune love for him. Most importantly, pray to fight d devil who may want to use such feelings to destroy ur marriage especially when ur ex thought comes into your mind. With time, he will fade forever away from ur mind. REMEMBER, He is not as perfect as ur mind is creating him to be!!

your experience is almost like mine.
coping was not with how others coped but how you realized u can cope through trial and error(I mean when this fails to woek, u try that).

The best thing that helped me is the joy of being a mother one day. But by God's grace, it gradually fade away with time before i finished my second trimester.

But try nomatter what, to eat to norish ur precious baby(very important)