it all started on a cold harmattan in the outskirts of nigeria,way out south, in a school, something like a military school setting, they had fresh men,2nd year,3rd year,4th year,an d a bunch of military personnel to intimidate its students,this was a school like any other school,courses ,low quality education, lecturers teaching half way thru the semester,it was like a secret set up where the people there behaved like animals and during graduation were shipped off to some criminal money making firm like shipping companies run by illiterates ,government agency,back into the system,self indulgence basically it was not the most inspiring school for somebody like me,on my first day i had no idea what was happening,at this point you did not have to be the smartest girl to know it was brainless,mindless violence,very devastating you might say,apart from the mental people's children coming into you allocated room for report,i have no idea what a report is,after my head on the ground,running up and down and singing some useless song like what mad people sing on chrismas and they just had day old ice cream,however i just wanted to sleep for a whole year and one idiot whose father is a drunkard and probably a gay drug addict,why do i say gay,you get some exposey into that a later on,anyway he had slipped into the school somehow and sane people are very ignorant of the fact that they are in your new golden school your father had pressurized you and exalted the school for you to just break and take his word for,money turns people to animals,so basically if i had said anything i would be outspoken and dismissed to a stranded position,somehow you didnt say anythiing and just closed your eyes waiting for a bulb i hate this school because it is not academy based.....anyway that was a brief introduction to a more strange secret. anyway midway in my second year,a little bit relieved about school like lets just finish this thing and forget about it, i mistook wolves for sheep,i was a boy with no problems with anybody but somehow some people sort out to destroy me,and they seem to use the phrase i hate you more than a devil worshipper talking to their enemies, at first i thought it was just mindless jokes among older children but it was way more than that and clearly these were not children, my own religion had not allowed me to fully retaliate at an enormous amount of insult daily and at chance even,and by doing nothing i was very wicked somehow most people around me found this amusing i did my best to stay off their radar but it was very had to do,and i had been keeping out of training, as they would like to call it, activities,as i had alot of convincing and the first week seemed to work perfectly,i was still the top 20 out of 300 people,but if i were found out this would not matter,one time i was strangled for using borrowed vessel,all this while confused by this inapprioprate behaviour from my fellow man, i managed to ask out why? i got the ans i dont know why i just hate you, i always tot this would pass away from me without a scratch till one vivid memory of mine,i had relationship problems and was not at my best concentration,i went out that evening to get bread and got caught up with a senior student that i mistook him for his twin brother,this man,who is walking with him dismissed me because they were having a conversation, sitting in my room oneday after strenous school activities the same man shows up in my room asking for a hug,i was in shock and could not say anything basically inconclusive,somehow when i did not answer him went away,i told my roomates that there was an ogre that came to meet me i think he is a gay,i need help,i had not seen a gay in my life,they agreed to help,feeling relieved that oh this boys are not so bad,they are going to help me,let him come,later that night this man comes in his boxer and reading i look at my back and he had this passionate smile on his face,i was disgusted, i ignore him waiting for my helpers to strike,but nothing,instead i make the most disdain discovery the man starts saying we are friends and the only thing that remains is to move into his room,I MAKE THE MOST DIGUSTED FACE,LIKE WHAT IS HAPPENING,THE MAN SAYS HE LIKES THE WAY I AM DOING MY FACE,HE PUTS HIS FINGER ON MY CHEST,AAARGH I SUMMON COURAGE TO DRIVE HIM AWAY THIS IS NO LONGER FUNNY SO CALLED HELPERS GO OGA CARRY HIM HE IS A VIRGIN WHICH I WAS,HE DOES NOT KNOW ANYTHING,MY HANDS ARE ON MY HEAD,ABOUT 4 OF THEM IN THE ROOM THEY SEEM TO BE AMUSED AND ARE LAUGHING AT THE TOP OF THEIR VOICE,THE MAN STARTS LAUGHING WITH A GIRL VOICE,I FEEL ASHAMED,SHIT I NO BE "GAY",I HATE THE WORD I DONT WANT TO SAY IT,THEY LET HIM GET AWAY,later that night i explained to other senior that their mate was a gay still very amusing,because they were friends of many seniors and spoke freely saying i was a useless person,making up teasing stories i could not relate with,i could feel my inside like i was going to die,i had lost control,all those years of intimidation from seniors now my mates,the feeling was a hideous panic feeling,some of them told me to go back and ask him,some said he is not gay,some said that gays are very agressive and he was going to Bleep my ass,one of those boys actually say in thhese exact words"hahaha let the man Bleep him"infact i am going to call him, you dont know that man,see you,you go suffer all this in the middle of the night,i started to shiver, i tried to keep quiet,somehow it was as if anything i say he was at the window listening,everybody went to sleep,i was paranoid,it was as if something broke inside me,i could not call anybody,i supposed to have died that day and gone to hell,i stayed awake all night confused like i was in the evil forest and the devil wanted to Bleep my ass with the iron dick so i would scream like a girl,NEVER!!!!! FROM THAT DAY ON i had this cold feeling in my heart as if it stopped as i had never felt anything like this before i thought it would pass away,i started to manage my self hiding away from the world till this evil face passed away i felt alone and could not fully explain myself,finally i finished that year,trying to be a hard man,the truth was i tried to make my self believe he was not gay but everyday he started stalking me,i thought to myself how does somebody become a homo,AN IGBO PERSON this guy wants to Bleep me like those girls i have heard people say they want to Bleep,Bleep me harder,faster,faster,harder,god i Bleep that girl ehhn,she forget her pant,i rape that girl,doggystyle, i feel like dying,i should have died untimely before that day,it would have been easy to forgive,i took drugs to Bleep for hours,agressive,i could not relax,it started to mess with my sex drive,i could not feel emotionally,i would sit at a horror movie and it was feeling less,how do i forgive this kind of people i channel myself into horror movie,massacring immaginations terminator i felt this people were responsible and i should go after them,i try to commit suicide but hell pose a greater threat always feeling im going to hell started to preach any chance i get,i read the bible morning and night trying to figure something, i read forgive ,i forgave it did not go away hello still sufffering started to actually say out loud still nothing what da Bleep am i going to do, presently i no longer sleep in the night only in light, i stopped praying for myself i pray for other people like that justin beiber song i closed my eyes and i could see a brighter day, for me nothing worked no relief,it is probably working for you but not for me,I STARTED TO SEE THINGS THEY PUT ME IN CHAINS SOMEHOW I BELIEVE JESUS DIED FOR ME, AT NIGHT I WOULD START TO HEAR VOICES OF THE EVIL WITHIN THE HEART OF MEN,I WOULD START TO SHOUT THAT THEY WANTED TO KILL MY MOTHER,THEY WANTED TO RAPE MY SISTER,I WILL NOT ALLOW THEM I SHOUTING FOR THEM TO COME OUT THAT I WANTED TO SEE THEM,I SAW CULTISTS GATHERING TO KILL MY FAMILY,I SAW SIGNS IN THE MOON,I SAW EXORCISM OF THE OCCULT,GAY MEN HAVING SEX AGRESSIVELY,PASSIONATELY AS IF THEY WANTED TO GIVE BIRTH,MEN IN HIGH PLACES CALLING THEMSELVES PASTORS WOLVES IN SNAKE CLOTHING,GAYS OPENLY EXPRESSING WITH NO REGARD TO GOOD AND EVIL,FORNICATION RAMPANT,CHILD PORNOGRAPHY,ANIMAL SEX......I SOLD MY SOUL TO THE DEVIL,I MUST ANNIHILATE ALL okay well since nothing work i start to hate looking for vengeance planning with my last breath i was diagnose with heart cloggin diseases this affects immune system finally i must make my point in the worst ways before my useless exit,like the world made me,i tried to GO back to the start of apirations OF CHILDHOOD but am left with WAR,PAIN, AND HATE and am justified,the innocent blood has been shed.I NEVER WANT ANYONE TO GO THROUGH WHAT I DID,A WAR IS COMING AND YOU NEED TO TAKE SIDES,EVERYBODY WILL STAND ALONE ON THE JUDGEMENT DAY THIS JUST HALF OF THE STORY,Bleep ILLUMINATI !!!!!!!

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Seun, can you see what you've done to NL?

Story makes no sense to me. What the hell is s/he talking about?

Cannabis na b@stard o!

pDude: Cannabis na b@stard o!

My brother from another mother how nah. Merry x-mas to u and madam

chillbabe:

My brother from another mother how nah. Merry x-mas to u and madam

Chei! I don miss you ooooo! E be like say ur bb no dey work again o. I don ping you taya.