If you contemplating suicide read this.

This is for you.
This is for the moments you’re alone with
emotion, so bold they leave you mentally frozen, cold and alone, heart open and broken, when that love’s out of sight and your hurt’s in the focus, when you’re floating in oceans of hopelessness and sulking and misery, this is for you.

This is for the moments when you feel like they
just don’t understand, they ain’t where I am,
they ain’t where I stand, they’re staring from the
outside and judging my in, they can’t relate to
this pain, they don’t feel what I feel, this is for
you.

This is for the moments when your weakness is
your cloak and the people you love most just
beat you to a pulp when they tell you’re nothing
but disgusting and unworthy of the love that you
need, of the heart that you seek, of the blood
that you bleed when you sliced open your wrists
looking for love in its slits but find nothing but
self-hate ‘cause nothing exists but all that they’ve spoken, this is for you.

When the bullies kick you and beat you,
hurt you and leave you laying on the ground like
you’re trash, like you’re only half of their equal,
when they gladly defeat you then laugh to your
face, when you feel all alone, when you’re so out-of-place, this is for you.

When your parents are too busy just to sit and listen ‘cause they’ve got other problems,
so it’s either you’re over it or they’re pissed at
the truth, when you’re begging and pleading that
they see that you’re hurting, that they don’t
disregard you, that they know that you’re fragile
and don’t purposely harm you, that when they
look at you like you’re the worst thing that’s ever
happened in their lives, like you’re the biggest
mistake in their minds, that they don’t have to
say nothing 'cause it shows in their eyes and you
want them to know that it hurts you sometimes,
this is for you.

When the girl that you love won’t even look in
your direction, when the guy that you like adds
you to his pu**y collection, when you take your
pride and throw it away for one night that means nothing just to mean something to
someone who will never see you, this is for you.

When you’re all dressed in black and they
whisper and snicker, when they make you feel
like you’re wrong for being so different,
when you try to reform and they judge you
regardless, when you can’t understand why this
world is so heartless, this is for you.

This is for everybody that knows what
it’s like to feel like you ain’t nothing but a memory that will never be relived, that distant memory that everyone forgets, the words on the tip of tongues that get swallowed with
the spit, when you feel so invisible you’re not
even sure that you exist so you cut yourself open just to see if you’re real, you numb yourself with drugs just to hide what you feel,
you drink to wash the pain in hopes of rejecting
it afterwards, you live every day wishing you
could rewind your life backwards because you
wanna figure out where the Bleep you went
wrong, ‘cause, your world ain’t been right
for so long.
I know how it feels,
I’ve been there before,
I’ve had my head in my hands and my heart on
the floor, I’ve been worthless and shattered,
I’ve been nothing to people,
I know what it’s like to have to force them to see
you.
I know how it feels to swallow some pills and
hope that you die or hope that you’re killed.
I know what it’s like to sit and to write the letter
that will change everyone’s life, ‘cause I knew in
my mind if they didn’t care now, they would
when I was gone, and every-bleeping-body
would feel what I felt in my bones.
They’d feel the earth shake and rattle from the
ground underneath.
They’d view me with grief, they’d give me the
peace they could have given to me when I was
right in their face.
It’ll take some waking them up,
but I’ll do whatever it takes, they just need to see
that I’m something.
I’m somebody,
I’m a heart,
I’m a mind,
I’m a soul,
I’m a body,
I’m not disposable garbage, I’m not disgusting
and wrong, but maybe they’ll see that when I’m
finally gone.
But see, I learned the mistake that I made was
allowing other people to change the way that I
saw myself. Now I see myself, I see me so clearly I could cry, everytime I look myself in the eye it’s because I know what you’re going through,
I know who you are.
I’ve traveled that road, I’ve just taken it further,
so this is for you.
If you’re thinking it now,
if you’re wanting to die,
if you’re thinking it out,
you are so much more than you are in this moment,
please don’t give up.
Please stay strong, ‘cause there’s always a
rainbow after every storm.
Don’t do what they’re expecting of you.
Don’t let go.
Don’t give up on you.
You’ll never know how great you can be.
Don’t give up on you.
I didn’t give up on me.
I did not give up on me.
-Angel Haze

Excellent piece,thanks it really helps.

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