From the sides, I watched you
Watched you grow, from the lines
I kept tabs on you, I had to
I spurred you on as I knew best, how could I not
I kept my distance.

You look so much like your mother
You remind me so much of her
She was my everything but you took her away from me
I couldn’t bear to look upon you at birth
Yes she did, She loved you to death.

I couldn’t forgive you, I couldn’t forget
Though not your fault, ‘Cept u were conceived,
Still I held you responsible, I gave up on you,
Shipped you off to boarding school at an early age
Because I was incapable of loving you. I was completely devoid of love, Broken.

Yet you’ve defied all odds
Without the love of your parents
You’ve boisterously excelled
Your smile, ever present
For a child, Your heart is so full of love
You took that from your mom
You cut me deeply each time I look at you
Your birthdays were my mourn-days
A reminder of that night & how much I loved her

But Child, I understand if you hate me
I was so lost in my pain and loss
That I lost out in your life too.
I was selfish but now I realise your pains too
Which I made worse
And if you will, if it’s the same to you
I’d like to start all over again
It won’t be easy for us
That much i know
But am ready to start afresh with you
If you’d let me
Should you hug me, I promise not to cringe
Should you call me Daddy, I try not to flinch
I am Amadi, and I am your Dad

Longtime Cbase

My brother... its been a while oo. how you dey na