pcguru1:
Sorry Anti Spambot banned me for that comment, so what's been going on ? am really worried for you and i feel i can somehow talk you out of this feeling at least enough to give you a different perspective to be sincerce at 17 you haven't seen much in life and frankly it's really going to get uglier, I had this suicide phase too, I used to cut sometimes and mostly punched the wall so hard to feel pain so i can get off, i still do this in the office till today, but I won't throw my life on a whim, there's so many things you can be involved in that will change your life i swear, when i was severely depressed the things that kept me going were Programming, computer gaming and animes. If i were to kill myself i'd prob miss out on the console emulation scene or the latest animes or hell not getting to see Final Fantasy 7 remake on PS4 not just that, you could find your potential into something bigger, I spend most of time trying to contribute to the open source world and it makes me feel better knowing people outside this country look up to me in certain things. Your life is too important to throw away bro, any fool can commit suicide that's easy but surviving in a mad world, now that's gangsta. there's still going to be more challenges ahead after school it gets worse, not finding job is going to be so depressing, not being on the same level with your peers. am 31 and am in a position that's meant for 25 in my company most of my colleagues are Senior developers or CEO, or CTO, alot of them i see on news making waves and yet i can't even boast of 100,000k at this moment, but you see i ain't depressed or mad that's just life, it just means i got to work harder and smarter, am not sure what your battles are, but one thing i know is that it doesn't end here, there's always going to be something that will make you doubt your self and sanity, and for each battle you overcome, you become stronger and more confident, an experienced soldier hardly fears war it's the noobies that do, they know what to expect and the end game. that's just my advice, if you kill yourself today your family will mourn, your pictures will appear on newspaper, and after that you will just be a memory assuming people still remember you, the world won't stop spinning, they start to refer to you as "He used to be", "He was", you will always be remembered as someone who took the easy way out. don't be that guy bruv.

Take this stuff i wrote and think it through i typed this with one hand so expect grammatical blunders.

Sinestroo:

My parents failed me.
Apart from giving birth to me they have next to nothing.

Sinestroo:
Sorry mum; sorry dad; sorry to all my friends and family.
I am sorry I acted so selfishly and irresponsibly. I should have thought It through before deciding to take a jump into the otherside.
Suicide is not an option I always want to consider, but the bouts yesterday was just too much.
I guess I have to throw away the rope for now. I may have failed yesterday, I don't know when next these suicidal thoughts may pop up; but if they come I don't think I may be able to stop them.
I am a rational person; I didn't sign any contract with anybody to come and suffer all in the name of "living", as if being alive is a good thing. At least if I kill myself God knows He can't blame, na Him put me for this condition wey I dey.
So Mummy just comot your mind for where I dey. I am out of touch with reality. What you call your son is just a leaf dancing between life and death. I don't know if anything can push me back to reality. It could come at anytime. Be prepared.
Regards

Sinestroo:

I don't even believe in god

GAZZUZZ:



Now you believe in God?

GAZZUZZ:




Now you believe in God?

kayjasper:


My Oga... This guy is a con artist... His usernames on nairaland plenty pass river Nile.

Don't give in to his cheap blackmail. I almost fell for one of his scam.
Na money him dey chase people for up and down Nairaland. With one story or the other.


At Sinestroo.... Kill yourself fast.
Nobody will miss you useless ass.

izzou:


You can be mean, you know

kayjasper:


I know it's mean but the dude na one silly small boy trying to scam people by claiming all sort of lies. I just dey discover all his usernames one by one. Will notify the mods and get him thrown out of this forum soon.

kayjasper:


My Oga... This guy is a con artist... His usernames on nairaland plenty pass river Nile.

Don't give in to his cheap blackmail. I almost fell for one of his scam.
Na money him dey chase people for up and down Nairaland. With one story or the other.


At Sinestroo.... Kill yourself fast.
Nobody will miss you useless ass.

Acidosis:



at 17, when other kids are busy playing games with their peers, you stay put on Nairaland thinking about money and how your parents have failed you.


Even Dangote's children at 17 will not lust after money the way you do.



For every Sinestroo's moniker that commits suicide on Nairaland, additional 20 new monikers will resurrect from the same con artist, same IP address.

It would be great to see Sinestroo exit Nairaland, but knowing that more monikers will resurrect to cause greater havoc, I wouldn't want your moniker to commit suicide. The result would be devastating especially for innocent posters.


Please don't die Sinestroo, a lot of people already know your moniker and they are aware to always ignore your threads and endless PMs. Don't die please...your moniker means a whole lot.