its being five years since I came down here ,and i honestly still don't know what am doing here . they say it's okey to be lost , but i have being lost for so long , the road now feels like home .
i wake , eat , go to class , read , sleep ; then repeat the whole routine the next day. my life is more of a cliché, trapped in a little box .
school make's me feel dumb, but when i write a feel different. with just a pen i could create a whole new world , go back in time , then to the future , express myself in my own words. it's hard to not feel lonely in a world always faced down on a screen. A thousand friends online but no one you really feel safe to talk to; scrolling and stalking each other all day waiting for moments to type " happy birthday or R.I.P.
writing brings me out of all that . it makes me feel like i have a friend and a true connection with that person at the end of my note pad (cause this is where i pour out all emotions).
to escape being tagged boring & introverted , i occasionally jump on trends ,try to go out more , sometimes get so wasted i can't remember the night before , just to check the cool box . But if am honest with you that shit still makes no difference, cause i still see that look in their eyes .the look that says"he's not worth it ","he has nothing upstairs". i can't blame them though. society has set a standard where you judge intellect by academic grade ; which is not in my favour. but writing. it brings me out of that box . writing feels more like my Therapy . it gives some an insight to who i really am , it makes you see what you missed at first glance .
my craft may be getting out of date , it might not be that popular but it has the healing power i need . so am just going to keep on writing

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its being five years since I came down here ,and i honestly still don't know what am doing here . they say it's okey to be lost , but i have being lost for so long , the road now feels like home .
i wake , eat , go to class , read , sleep ; then repeat the whole routine the next day. my life is more of a cliché, trapped in a little box .
school make's me feel dumb, but when i write a feel different. with just a pen i could create a whole new world , go back in time , then to the future , express myself in my own words. it's hard to not feel lonely in a world always faced down on a screen. A thousand friends online but no one you really feel safe to talk to; scrolling and stalking each other all day waiting for moments to type " happy birthday or R.I.P.
writing brings me out of all that . it makes me feel like i have a friend and a true connection with that person at the end of my note pad (cause this is where i pour out all emotions).
to escape being tagged boring & introverted , i occasionally jump on trends ,try to go out more , sometimes get so wasted i can't remember the night before , just to check the cool box . But if am honest with you that shit still makes no difference, cause i still see that look in their eyes .the look that says"he's not worth it ","he has nothing upstairs". i can't blame them though. society has set a standard where you judge intellect by academic grade ; which is not in my favour. but writing. it brings me out of that box . writing feels more like my Therapy . it gives some an insight to who i really am , it makes you see what you missed at first glance .
my craft may be getting out of date , it might not be that popular but it has the healing power i need . so am just going to keep on writing

You are afraid of people's opinion

sedutrice:

You are afraid of people's opinion

How ?