When you realise you are alone in this cruel world, at the rock bottom, when neither sex, drug, alcohol nothing can reanimate you. you pick a bible and pray.

Who is fooling who? Halleluyah!

God is not a man that he shall be mocked neither is he blind To the fact that you turned him into your pain reliever.
Listen to me NL "Christians" God is not your aphrodisiac, God is not a pillule for your ordeals, he is not a haven for closure, you have to be consistent in leading a holy lifestyle (If there is anything like that ) If you really want To serve him.
Other than that,
You are all alone in the world, nobody gives a damn about you nor me. Grow up, face ur problems and leave skyDaddy alone.!