My story is gonna be a long one so please don't mind any typographical errors I make.

Life as they say is a like a wave, you never know where it's gonna take you, I am the only boy out of a family of four siblings and I can say I was very intelligent while growing up, I passed through primary and secondary school with flying colours to the extent that I had a scholarship and was given double promotion while I was in secondary school.

I gained admission to the higher institution to read a medical course in one of the prestigious universities in the South west and this was where my problems started, I was doing well in my first year because I had a GPA of 4.58 in my second semester .Then I started having this strange dreams where I was shot, or I'd be seeing strange animals or mad people chasing me in the dream ,I woke up drenched in sweat and muttered a quick prayer not knowing it was the beginning of the end for me.

I can't explain it but in 200L I found myself not going to school anymore , I lost interest in school totally and would just leave the house to hang around anywhere I deem fit, my life was a mess at this point cos my mates were already writing semester exams and when they called me to ask after me I lied that I gained admission to another school, this went on for 2years and in 2017 I came back to my senses. I went back to school to appeal to them to take me back and what I heard from my H.O.D shocked me to the bone.

The H.O.D told me that I wrote the 1st and 2nd semester exams in 200L and also both semester exams in 300L and I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw my results. It was unbelievable because I didnt sit for the exams and I don't understand how I was seeing a ton of F's in my result sheet....I was even shown where I signed indicating that I sat for the exams.

I stay with my elder sis and mom and they were devastated when they learnt that I was no longer a student at the University, I wept and cried bitterly because I couldn't understand the direction my life was going.

The evil dreams continued to plague me and I decided to surrender to Jesus but it's been so difficult because I hardly pray and study my Bible , I became a porn addict and feeling of depression has threatened to wreck my life in pieces...I managed to get a job through one of our church members as a dishwasher in Wema bank catering , and I was shocked when I saw one of my secondary school seniors walk through the door to eat at the canteen, I tried to hide my face from her but it was too late cos she had already seen me.

She asked what I was doing serving food at a canteen in WEMA bank and I couldn't utter a word. I got home that night and wept bitterly. I don't understand why my life is turning out this way , it's like everything i do ends up failing.My dad's senior brother who was a banker in 1986 disappeared into thin air and hasn't been found till date.

Please nairalanders I just need help on how to stop pornography so I can concentrate on fighting the ancestral demons plaguing my life. Am so depressed right now because it's been 9years since I finished secondary school and I have nothing to show for it.....no skills learnt nothing tangible has been achieved in the last 9years...

2nd FTC today

Quiting porn is very difficult and I mean very difficult if you started at a tender age. Just pray to God, Avoid any unnecessary site that reveals nudity

If you hear other people's stories you go know say ur own the learn work. Organize yourself and be hopeful my friend. Na so suicide the start, so you better keep yourself busy. Hausa say, aiki banza ya fi zaman banza.

Use your data to connect to nsppd live on YouTube from 8am for prayers

Maybe na wetin worry ur dad senior brother, dey worry u too. Talk to ur family, make them go wash ur head. Remember say delay dey dangerous.

Goto prayer city or redemption camp for serious prayers...thank me later

KYS.

My brother, have you a smart phone? Go to YouTube and start learning a skill. You think you have problem? I finished serving since 2014 and haven't gotten anything tangible other than a teaching job. Make I shock you? I was advising my students today telling them that they can never be bigger than their teachers no matter what they think they are and one student stood up and said "uncle,if the student has money than the teacher,then he is bigger than the teacher". I nearly weep.

Hmm...it is well.

Life is not fair to anyone...So deal with it

Be prayerful and courageous

Surrender your life to Jesus Christ. Look for a Bible believing church around you.
God will help you out.

This your story is really touching!!

Op, pray hard to God directly, not Through any spiritual father or clergy.



empty your mind and always picture yourself as a success..




No one has it all figured out!!!

You need to talk to someone or see a psychologist.

You need to tell whoever you'll be seeing everything. From the pornography to leaving school and all that.