What (or Who) is my big why for living?

I want to be a Grandpa and Dad that is present in the lives of my children and their children and
live close so that I get called upon to do baby-sitting and host backyard BBQs.

You see 20 years ago I made a terrible decision to pursue a high paying job on the opposite
coast. I moved 3000 miles away and it put a chasm between me and my kids. I had chosen a
career over family after being divorced. I achieved a modest level of success but lost contact
with my family. Or rather they lost contact with me.

Five years ago I had several medical problems (bipolar) that lost me my contracting career. I just could
not keep up with the time demands in my current condition. I lived on my savings. After my
retirement was spent, I took a job in retail. It pays the bills but it won’t allow me to move and be
near my kids.

When I got sick I made it my number one task to reconnect with my two daughters. My
relationship has improved as the last five years I used phone calls and facetime to rebuild trust
and a rapport with each of my daughters. Now they want me in their lives again and I need a
way to make sure I am there for them now.

I want the freedom to move and travel whenever I want to be closer to each of my daughters.
One of my daughters is now pregnant. I want to be there but my current situation won’t allow it.
Becoming a writer will give me the income and freedom to travel and be present in their lives. It
is something I can do on my own timeframe and from anywhere in the world.

After one phone call my oldest daughter said, “It sure is nice to have a Dad again”. I wanted to
hug her but I couldn’t. That is when I decided that something had to change.


I am searching for ways I can support myself and move so I can give the hugs and be a Dad, and Grandpa that they need and love

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