It all started this way , mom left Dad when I was still a toddler, she went to her mom's land Delta state because 3 of her child actually died when she was still with my biological father, after moving to Delta state she got married to my step dad and gave step dad another 4kids, mom died when I was about writing my primary 6 leaving certificate, before she died she told step dad not to let go of me , step dad held to that and we moved to his first wife's house, I started living with my step mom and step dad, from primary to secondary my step dad took care of my education, after 0level (weac) I told step dad I wanna go study law but step dad said there is no money , like every other child I entered town to search for what to do , I worked with a particular company for 2years, started working till I was kicked out of my step parents house , this where all tragedy began. started hanging out with friends, told biological father I wanna return to my father's land , biological father said I should not return , I was shocked, I felt rejected by my own biological people. Now step dad can't continue with my education nobody actually cares.
I have tried too many things since I wrote waec and I haven't for once finish any or stick to it.
After waec few years later I wrote jamb and got admission to study business, Life was too tough I had to leave school, then I started working just to make ends meet.
Raised few money and decide to learn coding because I did webmastering when I was still in secondary school, I cloned apps , edit scripts and run a pbnl website so I felt I need to attend a coding bootcamp, went to Lagos for it and still did not finish, same thing happened , lost interest. I even sold my laptop along the line.
Then I took another step , I started learning how to fix nails , lashes and micro blading, after that I said am gonna add makeup to it , I still didn't finish , lost interest, our only girl(my half sister) said she love the job and I passed everything to her to continue with it, she is doing nothing and now step dad can't even afford 2square meal.
Now I am in the village, my biological home town precisely in Anambra state learning how to fix cars, will join them there till January, now thinking about going to (auto medics) in Lagos for the professional apprenticeship training next year.
Don't even know if i will live to see 2023.
I will be 26 this Nov and still nothing I can boost of , been feeling suicidal for the past years now I have been holding on if things will fall in place and things is actually getting worst and worst.
Right now life seem meaningless to me.
I feel like ending it all , 26 years old nothing I have interest in ,no skill , no degree � if I develop interest , I will hate every bit of it along the way.
The rate in which I am feeling suicidal I can't overcome it.
I don't know what I want , I feel I have no purpose. I wanna become successful but where actually will I start from. My heart is actually bleeding.
All am thinking now is how to end it all.

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I read all you wrote and I must say you have been through a lot.
In as much as various thoughts are clouding your head, try and think them through.
Your mom won't have wanted you to end it all.

My mom is also late so I know she would have wished you to succeed and become great.

I know it can be frustrating but all these are history you would tell in future. Keep trying your best, you can acquire little skills and get yourself, you can attend a bible believing church and work there, probably relate your story to the pastor.
I believe they would assist you.

All will be well. A lot of distractions in our world. Try to be more social, it’ll help keep your dreams or goals alive.

You are an unserious person and will go nowhere in life if you sustain your attitude towards life.

You can't be on a journey and be changing direction constantly. This life only yields to you when you show consistency and patience.

Comparing yourself to others is foolish. You should be glad and grateful that you are alive and healthy. All the rubbish earthly things you lack, there are people that achieved it and are no longer here to even enjoy them.

Instead of being ungrateful to life, you better change and also make a decision to do something today that you will be content doing in another 10 years.

You are living in a place where depression is there way of everyday life ,big you don't have money in igbo land you are a cripple , head to lagos and locate ladipo, fit in as good as u can , try and get a little to pick a room, if at all a mud house , start all over again and work smart , be loyal ans be straight Forward, be swift and intelligent, coding Mercedes-Benz cars which uses AGL (automotive grade Linux ) will mae you become something you never imagined, most of the dead engines and gear boxes will come back to life and never teach anyone your trade secret or you are done for

Your problem is simple , you are headed for greatness but you don’t know .
I learnt many skills over the years, I learnt even barbing but lost interest at a point when I was already barbing and making money off it but I just lost interest and stopped.
Don’t settle till your mind finds peace in what you are doing , I can say it anywhere that quitting barbing is one of the best decision I ever made .
I look at myself in the mirror and say “Omo imagine say you be barber now “

Then I took another step , I started learning how to fix nails , lashes and micro blading
My brother u see the above work ehn...if u know anyone in lagos.. go n start the business...u go make am

ghettochild:
Then I took another step , I started learning how to fix nails , lashes and micro blading
My brother u see the above work ehn...if u know anyone in lagos.. go n start the business...u go make am

Hmm

godofuck231:
You are living in a place where depression is there way of everyday life ,big you don't have money in igbo land you are a cripple , head to lagos and locate ladipo, fit in as good as u can , try and get a little to pick a room, if at all a mud house , start all over again and work smart , be loyal ans be straight Forward, be swift and intelligent, coding Mercedes-Benz cars which uses AGL (automotive grade Linux ) will mae you become something you never imagined, most of the dead engines and gear boxes will come back to life and never teach anyone your trade secret or you are done for

Thinking

Makosa1:

Thinking

don't think act or be the fool

Wrote jamb last year and a friend of mine has been pressuring me to follow up with school, but not financially stable now and biological dad still not financially stable but still pushing me to follow it up