Hello Nairalanders, have been contemplating killing myself for the past few weeks but it's difficult, I have alot of pain I can't even cry anymore.

From the day I was born I have never had a rest, I have been fighting but at this point I think earth won..

I want to go home but it's difficult to do it myself, how do I mentally prepare for this and can I go by thinking about it?

Please don't pity me, no one will understand what I have gone through or what I am going through.

Well, just a note of warning. Someone who died and miraculously came back after some time, said that people on the other side would give ANYTHING to experience your worst day here. Probably they're all waiting around for a body, and some are quite angry and in bad mood because they lost their bodies prematurely - like you're very bored and there's an extremely exciting game but you can't participate because you don't have money (healthy body).
If you must go, don't forget some would pay millions for your organs and body parts - arrange the money for your relatives

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Hello Nairalanders, have been contemplating killing myself for the past few weeks but it's difficult, I have alot of pain I can't even cry anymore.

From the day I was born I have never had a rest, I have been fighting but at this point I think earth won..

I want to go home but it's difficult to do it myself, how do I mentally prepare for this and can I go by thinking about it?

Lol
Muh muh
You want to go home?
Who told you that you're going home after you kill yourself?
Instead of you to use your brain, give up on some things, hustle and make yourself proud, you're thinking of suicide. Suicide kee you there muh muh.