Growing up as the last my siblings always don't wanna hang with me, the would rather be with their friends and tell me to get lost. I am grown now they wanna talk with me but I don't even know how to act around them or even know what to talk about while with them. It's like we are trying to force it but nothing most times I spend and express myself amongst outsiders than to then.
I learned to do things on my own, I only seek help when it's so bad, I don't even know how to ask them for help when I need, I just keep going till am stuck (being too judgy is part of why I just keep to myself and bear my cross and while at it I blame no one but sometimes it gets so heavy.
I just want to unwind here.
At some point I felt so isolated

What is the age difference?

Nawa oo! Different issues of life everyday.
Well I don't blame the Op at all because the way you treat someone below you is how he will relate towards you.
That's why we see cases of siblings where the younger despises the older so much and keeps his or her distance from them.
Things like the Op's issue often brings such situations.

Different situations or circumstances...

Really affect different people in different ways!

I cant relate to it because i'm the first born. I can sense some intense or sense discomfort catching up with my sibling especially younger ones. But why? We dont kill. Ur prblm is dat u dnt be ur self around them.

It ain't easy I cant tell you i understand it all , but be brave to say what on your mind without being disrespectful maybe with time they will understand

Guess you are an introvert?

mine is similar with yours ,apart from small chit chat o don't relate with my elder siblings like that,due them isolating me when I was younger,no bad blood though but it is what it is.

You’re upgrading your relationship with them. Endure the discomfort, it will soon ease.

Discomfort with change is a normal human behavior.

papikushz:
Growing up as the last my siblings always don't wanna hang with me, the would rather be with their friends and tell me to get lost. I am grown now they wanna talk with me but I don't even know how to act around them or even know what to talk about while with them. It's like we are trying to force it but nothing most times I spend and express myself amongst outsiders than to then.
I learned to do things on my own, I only seek help when it's so bad, I don't even know how to ask them for help when I need, I just keep going till am stuck (being too judgy is part of why I just keep to myself and bear my cross and while at it I blame no one but sometimes it gets so heavy.
I just want to unwind here.
At some point I felt so isolated

Uhmm

Mine is 9 years difference... It is bad

If I discuss serious matter with him, he won't even encourage me, nothing

Very annoying...

I don't even say anything anymore.... I've gone COLD
He face his family and I face my single life

My advice to you is that ... You shouldn't have any bad blood ... Family is always family and siblings are always going to be part of you for life...
They'll always come through for you only when you're at your lowest...

My brother can not leave me to die but that's only when he see that I'm dying. LOL

So OP, whenever you need help let them know, they will always come through big time

Abegi; I sell fabulous Ankara fabric

Awww

Same shoes that time.

I used my time alone to be reading, educating my mind and acquiring skills.

Today, it helps

You don't know much about the abilities of a lone ranger. Let them be.

blazingyou:
Uhmm

Mine is 9 years difference... It is bad

If I discuss serious matter with him, he won't even encourage me, nothing

Very annoying...

I don't even say anything anymore.... I've gone COLD
He face his family and I face my single life

My advice to you is that ... You shouldn't have any bad blood ... Family is always family and siblings are always going to be part of you for life...
They'll always come through for you only when you're at your lowest...

My brother can not leave me to die but that's only when he see that I'm dying. LOL

So OP, whenever you need help let them know, they will always come through big time

Abegi; I sell fabulous Ankara fabric

You are lucky.

Mine are praying and wishing.that i die.

But God disappoints them and through God, i love living to disappoint and annoy them.

papikushz:
Growing up as the last my siblings always don't wanna hang with me, the would rather be with their friends and tell me to get lost. I am grown now they wanna talk with me but I don't even know how to act around them or even know what to talk about while with them. It's like we are trying to force it but nothing most times I spend and express myself amongst outsiders than to then.
I learned to do things on my own, I only seek help when it's so bad, I don't even know how to ask them for help when I need, I just keep going till am stuck (being too judgy is part of why I just keep to myself and bear my cross and while at it I blame no one but sometimes it gets so heavy.
I just want to unwind here.
At some point I felt so isolated

ItBomb has spoken my mind. Turn that isolation to your profit and leave those people in their places.

Relate with them only if you have to and die alone if you have to. That is how the world has become.

StillDtruth:


You are lucky.

Mine are praying and wishing.that i die.

But God disappoints them and through God, i love living to disappoint and annoy them.

I don't know you but I will tell you one thing....

Pray for the spirit of love in your family... Tell God you want Him to come in and dwell in your family...

God is love and that's why He sent His only son Jesus so, that we can be able to give out love through the power of the holy spirit...

If there's love among yourselves, there will be care, understanding and support...
That's what family is all about.

Just try to see them as part of you.. Visit them and always communicate with them.. I have a brother who is an introvert. He will never call or text you,to go reach parent o. So I kept calling even when he doesn’t care to call back.. At some point I stopped calling him.. I was shocked he started calling to check how I was when he saw that I stopped. Just try blend with them..

Communication among siblings is important.

papikushz:
Growing up as the last my siblings always don't wanna hang with me, the would rather be with their friends and tell me to get lost. I am grown now they wanna talk with me but I don't even know how to act around them or even know what to talk about while with them. It's like we are trying to force it but nothing most times I spend and express myself amongst outsiders than to then.
I learned to do things on my own, I only seek help when it's so bad, I don't even know how to ask them for help when I need, I just keep going till am stuck (being too judgy is part of why I just keep to myself and bear my cross and while at it I blame no one but sometimes it gets so heavy.
I just want to unwind here.
At some point I felt so isolated

What about friends? Do you have any?
If you do, how do you relate with them?

From what I've observed so far, the issue might be mainly from you, and not your siblings.
You seem so withdrawn. Into your shell.

I mean, check it, you can't even engage people on the post YOU created (answer questions), much less...
What do you make of that?

blazingyou:


I don't know you but I will tell you one thing....

Pray for the spirit of love in your family... Tell God you want Him to come in and dwell in your family...

God is love and that's why He sent His only son Jesus so, that we can be able to give out love through the power of the holy spirit...

If there's love among yourselves, there will be care, understanding and support...
That's what family is all about.

There is love amongst themselves, its just me they kick out.

StillDtruth:


There is love amongst themselves, its just me they kick out.

Sometimes, people don't understand why they act the way they do, they just felt it normal.

Do you know if you're the Joseph among your siblings...

It is well

blazingyou:


Sometimes, people don't understand why they act the way they do, they just felt it normal.

Do you know if you're the Joseph among your siblings...

It is well

Tsk! Thanks anyway. We all know what is right to do nonetheless, The Law rules us and it bids me to stay in my lawful place, so i have learnt to stay there and enjoy my stay there, so i am not complaining but the op is and i just wanted to say my N20 that he should learn to enjoy his own company.