greatme2good:

You can still learn guitar playing without having Any. Meet your instrumentalists in church, they will teach you using your church instrument. That was how I learnt. And believe me, learning that will help you a lot coz I know guys that feed from monthly salary that church pays them. Some churches pay from 15k and many of their players are students too. Even my church pays too. And if you are really good, other churches can hire you for special programs and pay you. There's no side hustle better than this.

I was young and I didn't know who to talk to or how to approach people. i looked up to the people available to me; my uncle.
But now, since i am a bit outspoken and older , recently , i was able to meet one of the instrumentalist whom i have been paying 5k monthly to teach me how to play the keyboard. I'm doing slightly well. I might have to buy a fairly used one to enhance my learning, as the art of playing good, requires constant practice , not having one is an hindrance to my learning.

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ststyreal:

Good, it's ok Mr Ernest... You will hear from me soon

Thank you ma

Shibaraba:
quote me if he does the account thing.

I'm quoting you in her stead. I've dropped my detail. Thanks sir

Coded2:
Well this story of yours is touching u have just seen a little if how life could be crude believe me I have face a lot too presently my dad and mom are alive but they can't take care of my needs I single handedly sponsor my self in the polytechnic after nd I pursue my degree at Unn but I was not financially bouyant I had to drop out of the university presently I'm still searching for work to fund my university education so bro be strong be determine it not always easy but u have to pick ur self up and tell your self it not over.
2. U need to associate your self with good friends cos loneliness kills , attend a living church.
3. Have a personal relationship with God
4. Have a side hustle to rely on u can't be demanding money from strangers on Nairaland it only 0.001% can help u on Nairaland.

Thanks sir. I actually love God, but over the years, my depressive state has dwindled me away from his presence and my love slowly waxed cold. In my prayer points, I only write about restoration and revival, I don't ask for material stuffs.

Side hustle these days isn't as easy to come by. I wanted to learn programming and other digital skills, but I didn't get the support. I don't have any skill because the ones I asked for assistance couldn't render any assistance financially. I remember the ASUU strike that occurred in my 100lvl and 200lvl, I told my uncle about programming and how industrous I could be if I was equipped with that, but he discouraged me. I was depressed because I wasted those months learning and achieving nothing.

I wanted to learn instruments from a tender age of 15, my uncle discouraged me because he didn't want to buy a guitar for me . His reasons were because I wanted to study medicine, so how would a medicine student be an instrumentalist and still focus in school?.

He quenched my desire and despised me. I knew if I had my father, he would have supported me. I wish I had something I could do really. I was thinking of raising money to get something but with every little change I raise, there keeps coming school responsibilities.

What my friends do is yahoo yahoo and credit scam ...I don't want that. I don't want to be the reason for someone's pains as I can't stand the sight of someone in pain , how much more me , being the cause and source of their pain?...kai Kai I'd rather die.

OlawaleBammie:


Lol, and what if I tel u the whole story? Am sure u will leave ur story behind and cry for me.

My brother that is ¼ of what I faced growing up, hav not told u anything at all, like u never hear anything from me at all.

What I just notice is dat it wik have effect on u, u cant cheat that, I remember my ex and my mama used to always complain about how I behave most if the tym, dey would say am
1)Nonchalant (but am helpful )
2) Not caring whatsoever
3)Doesnt appreciate things
4)Not romantic

Pls why wont I b nonchalant wen that is the hand dey use in bringing me up, wen we would b four children in d house and three of us who are from same mother and father would get the little treatment they want but I would b excluded despite the fact that the money used in buying stuffs for dem was being worked for by all of us.?

Pls why will I b caring wen we would go to farm to fetch firewood and scorpion would sting me and all I could get is "...eeyahh sorry, let be fast with the remaining wood and go home in tym so dat u can apply antidote..." and before we get home am weak already ( I tink I got stung by scorpion for another 4 or 5 tyms more and I didn't count it worthy of attention cus I had no one to lean on)
Even me am not even caring to mysef not to talk of others(but the truth of d matter is dat I cares alot about people, its only dat I wont speak it out, so people bliv dat as am not speaking it out am not caring )

How will I appreciate things wen I find it difficult to get impressed, actually my people den never shown to me that they are impressed with whatever I did back den, dey can only speak good of me wen I was not der wit dem but not to my face and by dat av tot that is how it should be. but the moment u get me impressed bliv me, u hav done beyond limit and I will always appreciate you for it.
Bro these and many more are the side effect but just knw how to control it cus it will affect u later.

Cherish urself and fend for ur sef, I even forget sef, sebi u re using smartfon to type this online?? Me was using NOKIA3110c series, I would use broomstick to press some of its lost button... lol , I bot it 1500 cus I also wanted to 2go.

Bro u re enjoying oo

My brother, it is well. Alot of persons are going though alot, people react differently, as our strength to endure is not evenly distributed ...
But things gets better , hopefully with time. I'm just hoping when and how soon enough.

OlawaleBammie:


Oga be strong, na so life be, majority of us wey dey here face even more.

I can relate with ur story only dat my papa and mama are still very much alive and I pray they live long.

I missed that tender parental care from wen I was young and now I dont know how to miss people close to me, am always nonchalant in my dealings either with people or things cuz I hardly find tins spectacular, people always miss me wen am not with dem but me I would never tell dem I missed dem cus I actually did not miss dem.

All tru a year I wouldn't get a single wear from market but my peers are changing wardrobe every now and den.

More than 2years I wouldn't step out of my town, I wouldn't even board a vehicle talk more seeing an asphaltic road in d cities.

The tym u re preparing for exam that is wen am on d street hawking.

I became less social cus wen my mate are set for outing, u see dem with gorgeous dress but me I cant go with dem cus it's either I wear my ss2 inter-house sport vest and one native trouser(up nepa cloth)

Believe me wen I tell u dat shawa fish head is too much for only me, I would hav to share it with someone

Dont lemme even talk about the spiritual effect of this scenario, that was wen I knew dat wen u re not with ur parent den u re mostly vulnerable to the spiritual world powers, Imagine losing what belongs to u to someone unworthy of it on daily/weekly/yearly basis, imagine wanting to strive and push forward but being suppressed but unknown forces

Sebi u, u re in a university abi?? And ur uncle is responsible for it even if its partial abi? Coman ask me how i survived it na, could u believe i sat for UME in 2009 (it was still ume and pace den) and I did not have ordinarily #500, I mean common #500 to check my result. Till now I have not checked the result after av wasted money which I gathered from construction labourer work for months on tutorials and materials, even on accommodation.

MY GUY EYE DON SEE OOO, U EVEN MADE ME SHED TEARS AS AM REMEMBERING ALL THESE.

Dont lemme talk about my hunger in ND1

Lemme tell u this bro, just brace yourself up like a giant, look into the mirror and tell the person u see "u love this chalenge" den press forward, dont bother about wat others are achieving, dont pressure urself, dont go into incessant prayers with having a strategy cus dis will make u tink God doesn't answer prayer in the long wen wen u realized majority of wat u prayed for are not being fulfilled.

AND ALWAYS GIVE THANKS TO GOD

Wow!! You've been through a lot sir. I can practically relate to only partly half or quarter of what you've been through. I hope you're in a better place now.

I know the only thing in my way now is ME, I'll get through this phase and I'll take my true place in Life . I will press forward ...

Thanks sir, for the story and encouragement...

frozen70:


It's time you come out of your self imposed prison

I will be blunt here so that I can drive my messages to you

You can't continue your solo life, you will get depressed with it

Being a Nigerian and staying in Nigeria is enough depression

Locate your mum and unite with her

Be grateful to your uncle and his family, they are your savings grace

Learn to be involve in anything they are doing, they are your family and siblings for now

By the time you graduate and start working or searching fir work that's when you will see the true picture of depression

Free your mind of those things you are thinking about they will deter you from moving on

One day you will be set to have a girlfriend or a wif and children , having them will make you talk as much as you are with them , if you keep your introvert nature continuously with you, your wife and children will be happy all the time and you will be the one that will be anoiyed and lonely

So tell me, what else do you think you are doing to your self if not slow and painful death

Even motherless babies and orphans are surving because they chose to mix up with people to learn or expand their scope of knowledge

Thank you dear. It's not easy for me tho. But I will try.

Chubhie:
Empower yourself with magick. Imagine a world of unlimited possibilities working/walking with spirits?

Become godlike if you like....

My loneliness drives me to God. God is enough for me.

ststyreal:
Young man spill it out, do you need financial help? I know how difficult it is for you to say it here in this forum because of people's negative reaction but if you do need financial help, kindly quote me with your account details and let see what God will do.. Hope you are honest with all you have written so far.. Above all, give your life to Jesus Christ, embrace the prince of peace and enjoy his divine fatherly love. God bless you real good

Good morning ma. Yes I do need financial help too. Thank you for being thoughtful. I know everyone has responsibilities and no one owes me anything. Nairaland is the last place I would come to beg, but I needed someone to hear me out. I will appreciate even the littlest gesture, as I don't have anyone really standing for me now. Thank you again.


Bank name: UBA
Name: I.E. Ernest
Account : 2093058195

Pubichairs:
Be strong bro'

I will. Thank you man

chival:
Your destiny is in your hands. Rise up and take it. People with a lot less than you have, have been known to make it. Determination is key. Take these steps.
1. First off rise from the bed of self pity. Leave your past in the past and don't look back. You are all you need to be happy and to succeed. Tell yourself that a hundred times a day if need be.
2. Channel your energies into developing yourself. Are there skills you possess that could stand you out? Develop them.
3. Determine what your goal is and take steps towards that.
4. Finally, if you are a Christian, pray. Develop a close relationship with God. Talk to him as you would a friend. Tell him to show you what to do and how to go about it. Consult God for every single thing. He actually answers. I know this from my own experience.
The future is waiting and it's bright. Claim it now.

Thank you Chival

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