diamondtutu:
My names is Desmond,am from delta state,25 yrs old,today I write this article to all with joy and regrets to what I have lost in these past years I have lost to a very bad habit. MASTURBATION.
How it all began.
I was only seven years old,we were five in the family,i am the 3rd child. I had two elder brothers above me. My eldest brother,who happen to be a lecturer now was more of a problem child,then he was very stubborn,he stole,from my parents and even from my neighbours,it was so bad that then. My parents tried their best but to no avail.
One afternoon,he came home when my parents wasn't around as usual,he took me to the parlour and ask me to watch him. He then brought out his penis and masturbated,i saw sperm for the first time. I never knew anything about sex,because I was just seven. After he left,i was still wondering"what is the meaning of what he did". Now I believe that demons can multiply in a man. We all knew then that he steals,but now he has added mastubation.
Two days after,i decided to try it. I did.(tears) it felt good. I continued,everyday,later 3 times a day,before I knew,it became a strong habit,it was like I was under some spiritual influence. It got so bad that whenver the urge comes,anywere I am,even in the church,i wud look for a corner to please myself and masturbate.
I masturbated from my early primary school till I finish tertiary,there was no dat I didn't masturbate at least 8-10 times daily. I hated girls,hated relatinships,infact then when I see any girl I like,i ll just go home,imagine her face,and masturbate.to me I have slept with her. I could masturbate even in a cab,on benches in the farm,mum's shop etc.
Everyone saw me growing up,as an innocent boy,but no one knew what I was passing through. As I grew older,i started making enquiries about it. I discovered it was a sin before God,and it was harmful to my health,my eyes went blur,i loose so much weight,even when am weak,i masturbate.
Later in my teens,it bacame a form of cure to depression,wenever am depressed,i masturbates,then slept off. I was a very active brother in the choir,i was made the choir director twice. Everyone loved me,but I was dying slowly. During the year 2000,i swore never to do it anymore,but wen the urge comes,it overcomes me,and I yeild.
Later in life whenver I do it(masturbates) I felll guilt afterwards,i felt dirty. Then I knew I had to change... To be continued |
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