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I appreciate the comments above. It really took me a lot of courage to be able to post this. I'm a very secretive person and I keep things to my self even when it affects my well being

missjo:
Oh my lord
Please you've got to try getting your happiness from deep within yourself, it won't be easy but please try. Your mental health is your responsibility and no one else's.

Thanks but these days I think I'm loosing my insanity. My heart tremble each time i think about my family. It's like I'm in a race. Like something is chasing me and I need to keep on making money for my family. I feel i will never be accepted or loved if I eventually go broke... Never thought life would be like this.

Hi all
I've been on nairaland since 2012 and I just felt like sharing this today.

I'm sorry to say this but I think I don't like my mom and I feel she don't like me too.
I'm 21 years old and I reside in one of the southern states in Nigeria.
I lost my dad 15 years ago and I was barely 6 years old then... To just go straight to the point I don't think my mom like me. Since I was young she've never liked me or supported me in anyway. She barely attend my end of year parties or any school activities back then. she never bought me cloths or care about my life at all. She never gave me money or support my dreams and whenever I ask her for financial help, she shouts at me and say all manner of evil words towards me. At age 10, I started hustling for my self selling pure water, doing conductor registering sims and pushing wheel barrow just to help my self. Then at 13 I started working as a laborer molding blocks, filling uncomplicated houses, distributing drinks with wheelbarrow just to make ends meet and what ever amount I'm paid monthly or weekly I always make sure I give her a large purportion from it just to support her. I've traveled most states in Nigeria while I was 15 to hustle and whatever profit i make I always give her atleast 70% of it. Fast forward to when I was 18, I was introduced to a new kind of hustle (bitcoin). I started making a good amount of money and I even made my first million then. I gained admission into a federal university over here. I basically paid for my tuition, acceptance fee, books, hostel and all sort of fee and even had to feed my self Single-handedly for the past 3 years with no support or whatever from my family. She never called to ask me how I did it or even prayed for me. The only time she will call me is when she needs money for her self and even whenever I decline giving her the money she will instantly become rude and abruptly hang the phone on my hear.. This is so terrible and so disheartening that sometimes I just feel like drinking sniper and just end it all. I kept on giving her atleast 20k weekly.. This woman never called me one day to check up on me or pray for me. Then it got to a point whereby I told her I don't want her to do her current business again because she always complain about low profit and rheumatism. So I called her and ask her which business she feels like doing and she told me she wants to buy food stuff from the village and sell them over here in the city. I said FINE and I withdrew 300k from my account and I gave her. Note I was still 18 at that time and one of the main reason I gave her that money was so that should could start up a business and get profit to atleast take good care of my younger siblings while I focus on my hustle, school and take care of my self. Then she collected the money, constructed a wooden shade and started the business, bought her self some things( I really don't know what she spent a huge chunk of the money on). It wasn't up to a month when she stopped the new business and then went back to her former business and then she began the habit of asking me money again while I'm in school. I had a hard time concentrating in my studies and my course was brain tasking (medical laboratory science) I still kept on giving her money on a weekly basis . Then again I gave her 250k to start up another business. She squandered the money and she didn't do anything. Asked her what she used the money for and she started laughing a very devilish laugh and said "things for market dey cost anyhow ". She resumed the habit again of asking me money weekly again and I give her all the time and I Got so tired to the point that I was so broke and this woman will never believe me when I say I don't have it. I'm just 18 and my mom is already depending on me like I'm 40 years old. She continued this habit of not checking up on me and asking me for money always till I'm 19,20 and 21 and whenever I don't give her she literally insult me and she don't to me for months . Sometimes I go broke and if she ask me and I don't give her she insults me on the phone and make false accusation that I'm spending all my money on girls. She never ask about my education. She never ask how I manage to survive in school, she never prayed for me or ask me if I'm sick or healthy. All she knows how to do is ask for money and when I don't she insults me and hang up. Damn. From my first year till this very moment, I'm so depressed. I also have other things going on in my life that I always have to take some anti depressants to make me forget my worries and sleep.. I'm just 21 and I'm stressing like I'm above 40. Just yesterday my siblings called me and asked for 2k for church harvest. I gave them and Immidiately, she called me back and requested for some money. I turned her down instantly and she shouted at me and hanged up the phone. This is someone who calls her self my mom and I barely hear from her in months. She never supports me in whatever I do. There was a time in secondary school when someone threw a stone straight to my eyes and it blinded me partially. All I could see was black and white. She never showed no concern or even ginger (atleast the way other mom do na) she never followed me to school. The family of the guy who did it came to my houses and they gave her 1500 naira and that was the end of the case. She bought eye drop of 250 for me and she never bothered asking again. Right till this moment I'm partially blind because I see more clearly and brighter on one eye than my other eye. She has really did me a whole lot and neglected me all my life and did me some things that I can't even remember. I see other people being proud of their mom but deeply in my heart, I know I dislike her and I wish she wasn't my mom. So nairalanders please advise me what to do. I'm so depressed and suicidal all the time. I'm the first son from my mom and I sincerely want the best for my family but my mom is really making life so difficult for me

Elelfa:
Withdrawal Syndrome symptoms no be here shaa...clean, ain't going back to dah shii

Bro even me too. The withdrawal symptoms na die. Even right now, I'm on tramadol because I can't bear the withdrawal symptoms. I don't know how to stop I'm slowly getting addicted to this drug. Although it gives me euphora, i tend to be kind and care for people when I'm high on it, I don't cum quickly, I become bold, Like I can give speech and talk for hours and I can even mend police man or top people but Immiately it wears off, you are back to an even worser mood. You become agitated, restless, muscle pain, drug craving and you don't want to even socialize with anybody. I swear I've tried to stop it but I can't, expecially when it's cheap and I stay close to a dealer

I need someone who can create a very good website for me. I have a business idea and it's going to be online base and kinda like a betting... If u can create a very nice website. Just drop your number... Business partners are also needed

Jackofall:
Very soon the hot slap won't be enough, and you would have to use more aggressive punishment until you finally kill the dog.

Ur papa. Mumu, Goat. People day suffer for ur family u not go help dem. Na dog u day mumu for

Now she's quite fearful and Hardly misbehave

Lhasa too stubborn. I day play my own with hot slap everyday

generationz:
how do you go about the business of buying and selling it.

Still trying to get more details about the business. But it's very lucrative,i must confess and it's not congested like other businessess

Planning on opening a barbing saloon. I'm not going to barb, because i don't know how to. I'm just scouting for two very good barbers to have a conversation with and plan to open a very lucrative barbing saloon in benin city. If you are interested just send me ur whatsapp number

generationz:
what's PVC?

Poly vinyl chloride

Can u work in benin and how much will it cost for a standard parlour, dinning and varander

How about buying pvc at cheap amount and sell in developing areas

One month after my 18th birthday

3m?

I'll pay 1.6. I like dis car

Na Season of mad people to get money be this

2m

Person wen nor day exist nai day patience and merciful Una go wait tire

Saw the iphone X and fell in love with it

I have both Iphone 7plus and S8 for swap with iphone X. Both phone are clean and faultless. Both phone was sent to me.from the USA. I've been using both for less than a year now. I'm open to swap both for an iPhone X around benin city or auchi or ekpoma area. Add me on whatsapp for pictures 07064268725( zero seven zero six four two six eight seven two five

People will always deny what they've not seen.. I'm young and now I'm old. I've never seen a real miracle... Fake fake fake

I haven't seen such ignoramus in my life before. This is a lady that lives with me and cry everytime it's her period because it's another month and still not pregnant. She always envy her friend who always get pregnant but abort it because she's not yet ready to settle down

kimbraa:
So the agreement is that you'll marry her after she gets pregnant or what 'cause I don't get why you want your gf to get pregnant by all means?

You see how ignorant you are.. She has dated three of us and she hasn't took in at least once, even if it was aborted and u want me to marry her

This has been bothering me for a while and i decided to let it out today.

My girlfriend and I have been dating for 2years and few months and she is definitely the girl i want to marry. We've been having unprotected sex all these while and she haven't gotten pregnant even for once even when she see her monthly flow regularly. She has dated two guys in the past and the relationship with them was also serious. She has had unprotected sex with them too and she didn't get pregnant. This is really bothering us as we've visit doctors and all they could do is prescribe some bunch of medicine for us with no improvement. I don't think the problem is with me either because I've had one child in the past

IVORY2009:
lolzzz Epaa' Doromo' ooo, Koyor' I once lived in that area too, ICC was my school....

Dem done sell icc give onyibo

IVORY2009:
lolzzz U once lived in that region? Niger college and Maria Goritti lane....

My area. I attended Niger college. One of the most stubbornness school in benin

Rip Emma. I know this guy in obalende

100k. Negotiable

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