BeLookingIDIOT:
My level of aversion to homosexuality seems to be appearance based.For quite a while now I've noticed I only find homosexuality disgusting amongst ugly to average looking guys and even amongst your typical handsome ones...but somehow this repulsion greatly deadens with them extremely fine(cute) men.And this happens to the extent that I could sometimes entertain,cursorily,thoughts of a sexual nature about them( of course,I'm not gay).
I surmised that the reason for this dissonance about these "beautiful" men could be due to the closer proximity of their appearance to the feminine look,hence my subconscious mind somewhat translates these close but conflicting features as one
Please be sincere with your response...Just how normal is this please? Does it ever happen to you?
Something tells me this is nothing out of the ordinary.
Being the quintessential homophobe,I'd greatly be pleased to know if I've been compromised.
Thanks.

Sounds like HomosexualOCD...sexual thoughts that repulse you. If you were cool with it, you would not be repulsed. I am a psychology student and I googled this. Homosexual is an action not a thought. You are not your thoughts. This could be whispers from shaytan. Pls google HOCD. Most people experience occasional same sex attraction, and are repulsed. OCD people are as straight as them, but can't shake the image or even attraction, but in reality, if same sex was in your bed, you would not do anything and may become violent if approached by same sex. You would never act on the thoughts. nor would you rob a bank or kill someone though the thought may have crossed your mind. A thought you enjoy does not repulse you. You may even feel arousal but if you attempt to act on it, you will be as repulsed as eating poop. It is a fantasy, like if you were exposed to pornography at a young age, your wires got crossed or if you associate heterosexual sex with orgies or homo porn, that starts the rocket, but you know for sure only the opposite sex can handle the mission, so don't worry. Don't give it energy and don't judge yourself and the thoughts will go away. Your sexual choice is an inside job. Not one person can say what your internal preference is, until you act on it. Remember, the action, not the thought, determines the outcome.