Durentt:
be wise guy, don't be explicitly honest if you feel stuff like this. People would bash you to cover up their own insecurities.
Let's all pretend all Nigerian men are 100% heterosexuals and keep living that way.
Don't open your secrets to the world like this, you are endangering your reputation!

Ok...buh It's a faceless forum.I have nothing to be scared of typing this here.

BeLookingIDIOT:

Ok...buh It's a faceless forum.I have nothing to be scared of typing this here.

not as faceless as you think.

UyiIredia:
Well the thing about being gay is you have to have a SEXUAL ATTRACTION. So if you're not thinking about handsome men in a way sexually lustful, okay.

But if you are then you know what my guess is.

Yeah...but this seems different.Even among handsome guys there's no sexual attraction...it only faintly happens with the exceedingly good looking ones and this is so because somehow my brain sees them as feminine

BeLookingIDIOT:

Yeah...but this seems different.Even among handsome guys there's no sexual attraction...it only faintly happens with the exceedingly good looking ones and this is so because somehow my brain sees them as feminine

It's kinda gay sha though it's really not gay. The problem though is that you see really fine guys as feminine. I'm supposed to ask why but these things happen.

ok

BeLookingIDIOT:
My level of aversion to homosexuality seems to be appearance based.For quite a while now I've noticed I only find homosexuality disgusting amongst ugly to average looking guys and even amongst your typical handsome ones...but somehow this repulsion greatly deadens with them extremely fine(cute) men.And this happens to the extent that I could sometimes entertain,cursorily,thoughts of a sexual nature about them( of course,I'm not gay).
I surmised that the reason for this dissonance about these "beautiful" men could be due to the closer proximity of their appearance to the feminine look,hence my subconscious mind somewhat translates these close but conflicting features as one
Please be sincere with your response...Just how normal is this please? Does it ever happen to you?
Something tells me this is nothing out of the ordinary.
Being the quintessential homophobe,I'd greatly be pleased to know if I've been compromised.
Thanks.

Sounds like HomosexualOCD...sexual thoughts that repulse you. If you were cool with it, you would not be repulsed. I am a psychology student and I googled this. Homosexual is an action not a thought. You are not your thoughts. This could be whispers from shaytan. Pls google HOCD. Most people experience occasional same sex attraction, and are repulsed. OCD people are as straight as them, but can't shake the image or even attraction, but in reality, if same sex was in your bed, you would not do anything and may become violent if approached by same sex. You would never act on the thoughts. nor would you rob a bank or kill someone though the thought may have crossed your mind. A thought you enjoy does not repulse you. You may even feel arousal but if you attempt to act on it, you will be as repulsed as eating poop. It is a fantasy, like if you were exposed to pornography at a young age, your wires got crossed or if you associate heterosexual sex with orgies or homo porn, that starts the rocket, but you know for sure only the opposite sex can handle the mission, so don't worry. Don't give it energy and don't judge yourself and the thoughts will go away. Your sexual choice is an inside job. Not one person can say what your internal preference is, until you act on it. Remember, the action, not the thought, determines the outcome.

BeLookingIDIOT:

Ok...buh It's a faceless forum.I have nothing to be scared of typing this here.

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