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GRACEGLORY:Thanks boss.. I have 50usd so I'm thinking of investing on Arb and Crv.. Make me sef no miss this bull |
@GraceGlory What's Your Opinion about this article sir
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iLegendd:Thanks Boss |
iLegendd:What's the 5 Greens boss.. And what are ur best Alt coins to hodl in anticipation for the Bull Run |
Danisaint112:Must You project your reality on everyone else ![]() |
Coronavirus1:Ohh.. I was thinking your God is merciful |
Coronavirus1:there's no difference between her and ur God then.. She lied against an innocent soul. Your God killed an innocent soul. |
IbileIfe:So the Palestinian children and women killed by isreal can defend themselves? |
Ejanlaa:Abi na. When Op don dey run mad small small |
Aditkd:Thanks for your care. I'm just being Wary of stigmatization |
I don't know if it's going to be a long read but please bear with me as i would like to pour out as much as i can about an issue, a feeling that has been overwhelming me for like 2years now. I'm just concerned i might be SCHIZOPHRENIC (Schizophrenia is a mental disorder that affects how a person thinks, feels, and behaves.) To begin. i have great difficulties going outside. Why ![]() *cos I'm too handsome* lol. On a serious note, i have difficulties going out amongst people cos i feel everyone eye is always on me as I'm *Too Handsome*, although I'm a good lookinge guy, i mean.. I look Good but the obsession with how good i think i look is scary. Walking through a bunch of people is always a very hard task with a lot of emotions and consciousness invested. I almost hold my breathe walking through pple and when i finally walk through i make a sigh of relief becos I'm overwhelmed by their presence and think they would all be looking at me and probably discuss about how good i look later. I only walk at nights now and i can wait for hours before getting what i need becos i want to meet only the seller at the store. Else, every person there would be staring straight to my face(maybe just over consciousness) I started feeling this recently(like 1 month Ago and it's actually so intense now, y'll cant even fathom how i feel), but maybe it's the only piece missing so i can come to peaceful terms with my [(supposed) schizophrenic nature]. Let me share with you the remaining piece of my nature, my feeling and the thoughts of my brain that as been draining my mental health. Sometimes, i get stucked with whatever I'm doing for a few seconds. I mean Literal stucking, in which i can't move any part of my body. While my brain would be aware that i can't move any part of my body, my body would just remain helpless, trying to move😢. Another piece of me you would find fascinating is the fact that I'm always unable to express other emotions apart from *FEAR*. I don't love anyone as much as i don't hate anyone. I can Care but most of the times i don't. I have become so plain i hardly greet people nor use words like Thanks,sorry,excuse e.t.c(i use it alot online tho) I don't laugh, i can only just chuckle and go back instantly to my pale face. Even around pple close to me i don't laugh. I don't Frown as well. The only emotion i express now is *Fear* What a strange state for a Brave guy like me to be.. I was courageous and brave during my teenage and early 20's era. Only for whatever mental illness come to take that away. Don't lemme bore you much. I just needed a platform to speak and i feel nairaland as an anonymous forum is a cool place To wrap it up, i have read alot about schizophrenia and it's actually a very tough illness to cure. It almost as no cure, but perhaps someone on here might have experienced something similar or knows someone who did, if you luckily have a way you treated yours or of the pple around you, you can share I'm willing to listen. I forget things easily too so i probably have forgotten most of the things i would love to share Thanks. |
slawomir:I wonder the people who likes your post. Evidently, you are a fraudster and a druggie. What makes you better than the people you criticize often?.... Hypocrite |
jmoore:If the video no save, shey dem go recry? |
Congrats to Jagaban the president elect of the federal republic of Nigeria. The 'lovers of Nigeria' that's praying his regime fail are the ones that would suffer during his tenure. |
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