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 Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 5:08pm On Jan 16, 2012 |
freecocoa:aah no oh i was preparing/typing your own but this thing dey slow gan. Thanks Ifyalways and freecocoa (nice 1). peckssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss i have always loved music. when i was healthy, i even used to have music on in the bathroom when bathing or kitchen when cooking but things don change drastically. good old days. Baba God dey. this is for all those that are feeling down one way or the other . . .In each tear, There's a lesson, Makes you wiser than before Makes you stronger than you know. In each tear Brings you closer to your dreams, No mistake, no heartbreak Can take away what you're meant to be We can't change the things, That we done that's in the past. But fighting won't get us anywhere. So if you want, Here's my hand Every night there is one thing I do, I bow my head and pray for you And the last thing that I want, Is for you to fall apart Your future will get clearer, I want you to remember. . . You're much more than the struggle that you go through You're not defined by your pain, so let it go. . . You' re not a victim, you're more like a winner And you're not in defeat, you're more like a queen*/king* No no we can't be held down, No no oh noo I I I can't held down You you you can't be held down, We we we can't be held down. . . MARY J BLIGE LYRICS "Each Tear" |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 4:17pm On Jan 16, 2012 |
^^^u are right. Thanks Idowu. how body na? guess jolly jolly because of the way you are here hope you are the same or even better in real life Mrs. half and half (someone called u that not me oh). lol thanks again r231 for the call and all |
| Nairaland General › Re: Nairaland Charity Organisation- E-Helpers Network by perx(f): 3:52pm On Jan 16, 2012 |
chelseabmw:thank u Freiburger:i sent it to NL email some days ago. r231:Please do, and thank you for calling and everything else that you guys are doing. God bless you all |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 12:53pm On Jan 15, 2012 |
Ivy and Idowu, una too funny. thanks sha and have a blessed day |
| Nairaland General › Re: Nairaland Charity Organisation- E-Helpers Network by perx(f): 12:44pm On Jan 15, 2012 |
Gboliwe:awww. . . thank you. |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 5:26pm On Jan 14, 2012 |
Idowuogbo: I was crying too but now you made me laugh. laugh and tears at d same time, na wa ohhhh. miss you loadssss too, thanks only forehead? no no no. no way, it must be all over or nothing  lolGod bless you plenty plenty plenty muchooooooo https://www.nairaland.com/nigeria?topic=802184.msg9963918#msg9963918 |
| Nairaland General › Re: Nairaland Charity Organisation- E-Helpers Network by perx(f): 5:18pm On Jan 14, 2012 |
I got a call from ifyalways. Thank you all. My physiotherapist brought my right femur x-ray today but nowhere to scan it yet - most places/shops are closed. The pics my bro took of it did not come out fine or good but i still emailed you guys the pic, more x-rays, some of my pics (before and after/now or past and present), medication, receipts, etc. I sent you a picture of the pop on my right leg. Although they put it on my right ankle, I was made to believe that they put it there not because the ankle is affected but to prevent me from moving the leg and bones for healing to take place. That did not work and the place I took my last x-ray said I should not take it off because it is completely broken in the femur and needs surgery by fixing a pin or rod in there (it cannot heal on it's own without surgery). My physiotherapist is still trying to see if UBTH will admit and treat me, he had to rush somewhere but he said he would be back later to explain further. I was up from 3am taking pix (what was requested in the email I got from NL) in bed with laptop on my chest, nobody to help. i have been enough burden, i didn't want to wake anyone at 3am and get on their nerves. painful and stressful but I'm glad I was able to do the best I can but mtn nite data plan was so slow attaching files and I had till 6am to send them (9pm to 6am plan) My bro's/cousin's glo comes in handy at times in the day time or night time when he isn't using it but only has mb not gb so I can't send or browse much with that. NL have acknowledged seeing my emails and attachments of my pics and documents. Thanks all God bless you all https://www.nairaland.com/nigeria?topic=826801.msg9963805#msg9963805 https://www.nairaland.com/nigeria?topic=826801.msg9963845#msg9963845 |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 5:10pm On Jan 14, 2012 |
^^^ YES, you have been all that and more to me (you all know who you are) ANOTHER. . . You and I must make a pact, We must bring salvation back, Where there is love, I'll be there I'll reach out my hand to you, I'll have faith in all you do, Just call my name and I'll be there (I'll be there) I'll be there to comfort you, Build my world of dreams around you, I'm so glad that I found you, I'll be there with a love that's strong I'll be your strength, I'll keep holding on (Holding on, holding on, holding on) Yes I will, yes I will Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter, Togetherness, well that's all I'm after, Whenever you need me, I'll be there I'll be there to protect you, With an unselfish love I respect you, Just call my name and I'll be there (I'll be there) If you should ever find someone new, I know he'd better be good to you 'Cause if he doesn't, I'll be there Don't you know, baby, yeah yeah I'll be there, I'll be there, just call my name, I'll be there Just look over your shoulders, honey, ooh I'll be there, I'll be there, whenever you need me, I'll be there I'll Be There Lyrics by Michael Jackson |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 5:03pm On Jan 14, 2012 |
I dedicate this to all that have shown me love, care, support, made me smile and laugh, etc, here, there and since the beginning of my illness. No matter how it ends, I cannot thank you enough. God bless you all abundantly! I can see it's hurting you, I can feel your pain, It's hard to see the sunshine through the rain I know sometimes it seems as if It's never gonna end, But you'll get through it, Just don't give in 'cause you can Count on me through thick and thin, A friendship that will never end, When you are weak I will be strong, Helping you to carry on, Call on me, I will be there, Don't be afraid, Please believe me when I say, Count on me I know sometimes it seems as if, We're standing all alone, But we'll get through it, Cos love won't let us fall. . . There's a place inside all of us, Where our faith in love begins, You should reach to find the truth in love The answers' there within, oh I know that life can make you feel It's much harder than it really is, But we'll get through it, Just don't give in. . . Count On Me Lyrics by Whitney Houston and Cece |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 3:16pm On Jan 13, 2012 |
maclatunji: OK. I just did. 2 or 3 email messages sent to you and one to NL email I wanna take a break |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 1:59pm On Jan 13, 2012 |
thank you freecocoa IDOWUOGBO, IDOWUOGBO, IDOWUOGBO. how many times i shout your name? lmao. peck u? peck peck peck, all d pecks in d world to you nothing do u, U ROCK! which tribe u be sef  let me go and send them d email requested for on the other thread |
| Nairaland General › Re: Nairaland Charity Organisation- E-Helpers Network by perx(f): 1:42pm On Jan 13, 2012 |
No I have not heard of lagoon hospital before maclatunji has my email already but I will still email you guys yes LUTH was in 2008 but I have other ones. My condition was not as bad as this so all they said I needed back then was only physio which I explained on NL before how can/will you fly without local operation?[/b]if I understand you correctly, it would be difficult and painful but I think a good bus will do by occupying more seats to get to d airport that is if both legs are still broken and not fixed in Nigeria. I was able to travel on bus and local plane (once from lagos to Edo) when only my left leg was affected but someone went with me. i used to occupy only 1 seat, front seat preferably but I think it is harrrrrd to do that now flight/airplane would be telling them before hand that I am a wheelchair user with an escort or attendant. I have a wheelchair but I would like to fix something extra on it especially for my right leg. I think the airlines know what to do with people in similar or worse conditions. [b]Do you have people in Lagos, Ife or Enugu? no i don't have any in Ife or Enugu but i do have some in Lagos. why did you ask? I think I have listed the things I need/want/I am using at the moment, etc, if not all. internet service, medication, upkeep, hospitals, doctors, surgery, Rsd/Crsp, charity org, funds, etc. Oh I need a helper/support worker/home nurse (although I am from a big family but a polygamous home, my baby brother is doing all the work, God bless him IJN, AMEN!). I did state that NL can please do anything they can to help. Nothing is too small or too big. I thought all that was enough for whoever is responsible to choose from the list Okay Let me email you. naijababe and Jay bee, Thank you and God bless you all |
| Nairaland General › Re: Nairaland Charity Organisation- E-Helpers Network by perx(f): 12:49pm On Jan 13, 2012 |
Ifyalways, Yamakuza - will send the email now. thank u all for your contributions and support. God bless |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 12:22pm On Jan 13, 2012 |
Lao, thank God for you and thanks for your story, though a bit vague (not clear what the main problem was) but I get it thanks for the songs/lyrics too I would love to look back one day like some folks here and say, i went through hell for so and so years, depressed, suicidal, etc but I AM BLESSED WITH GOOD HEALTH AND A GOOD LIFE NOW. HALLELUYAH! Ivynwa, really anyway na so i see am oh - great song/lyrics by 2 of the best musicians or singers in the world |
| Nairaland General › Re: Nairaland Charity Organisation- E-Helpers Network by perx(f): 5:57am On Jan 13, 2012 |
a little better now. thank God my posts/replies have been posted alot went on after I left. thanks to all "Ketamine treatment is available at Orthopaedic Hospital, Enugu and Dept of Medical Rehab, OAU so she might not need to travel out every 6 months after her surgery". really? wonderful but I hope they know what they are doing sha. Please help with their email or phone number in India the fees I got for hip surgery was between 7,500 to 9,500 dollars. just for that alone. all tests. MRI, scans, accommodation, etc are not included. that was why I put $15,000 (India) - $50,000 (U.S.A) minus other things like visa fee, etc in some of my posts. one doctor here suggested AIMS and Apollo hospitals in India as the best but I emailed others too. The others said U.K, Europe or America. I haven't emailed abroad about my right femur because I pray that I can at least do that here and not pay for two surgeries abroad. If not for lack of funds, etc, I like to have plan A, B, C. sighsssssssss If they can do both legs in Nigeria and RSD/CRSP/Ketamin, it would be far cheaper and affordable, I think. I will be so glad. when I went to LUTH, no bones were broken yet, just stiffness in my left leg, little jerking, it felt like something was moving inside my foot which was so painful (they later discovered that it was my restless veins), spasms, lots of pains, loss of appetite, no sleep (cried throughout the night, valium wasn't even working in my system back then but it does help with other meds now). using cotton wool to touch my left leg then was so painful (as light as a cotton wool). I went for MRI only which cost over 80,000 naira. IMO they did not do a good job which I explained in the suicide thread. I did not go back after that, which was 2008 three of the best orthopedics here (they have their private clinics but 2 works in public/federal hospitals too) refused to do my hip because of my symptoms which I stated above. there is a teaching hospital here too but the strikes and fuel crisis dey disturb sha[b] when anyone is ready to come over to see me, my doctors, physiotherapists, medical report, etc, just let me know. there is an edo forum on NL. someone there maybe close by. like Ify stated: "and of course NOT to be displayed online/general consumption". did I miss or leave out anything else?[/b] oh and about d dedicated thread and clutter, i have RSD/CRSP thread, maybe we can use that, but people hardly came there to post or comment. i will put link soon or the suicide thread is there too. you prefer to open another? |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 5:04am On Jan 13, 2012 |
Many nights we pray with no proof anyone could hear And our heart's a hopeful song we barely understood. Now we are not afraid although we know there's much to fear, We were moving mountains long before we knew we could Oh yes, there can be miracles when you believe, Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill. Who knows what miracle you can achieve, when you believe Somehow you will, you will when you believe In this time of fear when prayer so often proves in vain, Hope seems like the summer birds, too swiftly flown away. And now I am standing here, my heart's so full I can't explain, Seeking faith and speaking words, I never thought I'd say. . . They don't always happen when you ask, And it's easy to give in to your fear, But when you're blinded by your pain, Can't see your way safe through the rain, Thought of a still resilient voice, says love is very near. . . When You Believe Lyrics Whitney Houston and Mariah |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 4:54am On Jan 13, 2012 |
Idowuogbo, just woke up and saw that you are at it again. nice one  maclatunji, okay. I got it after a while but needed to rest, it was exhausting and frustrating but I am a little better now. thank you freecocoa, thank You! |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 6:03pm On Jan 12, 2012 |
perx2 has also been banned temporarily. my posts hidden. i don tire kpata kpata i'm out of here  |
| Family › Re: Please Post Your Complaints In Here : Please Get It Off Your Chest by perx(f): 6:00pm On Jan 12, 2012 |
perx2 has also been banned temporarily. please help and put my posts on the thread thanks |
| Nairaland General › Re: Nairaland Charity Organisation- E-Helpers Network by perx(f): 5:53pm On Jan 12, 2012 |
@yamakuza, yes perx2 banned too [color=#000099]Shola, kindly do as yamakuza suggested. I am exhausted already and stressed with these spam bot and typing over here and there over and over again but my posts/replies are banned and not published but hdden in my profiles. i need to chillax, my spasms are getting worse at the moment. thanks all |
| Nairaland General › Re: Nairaland Charity Organisation- E-Helpers Network by perx(f): 4:36pm On Jan 12, 2012 |
yamakuza: yamakuza:i do not know about the above stated by you but I got this since 2010: Drexel University College of Medicine. Department of Neurology. 1) 5 Day In-Patient Ketamine Protocol - approximate cost $30,000 to $50,000 2) 10 Day Out-Patient Ketamine Protocol - approximate cost is $5,000 ($500/day) recently increased from $3,000. cost of the initial evaluation with Dr. Schwartzman is approximately $476.00. Neuropsychiatric Evaluation and Cardiac clearance are extra fee. they said that they are permitted to use Ketamine, "off-label", to provide relief from CRPS/RSD under the definition of "compassionate care". Although, the coma protocol is not approved in the US, Dr. Schwartzman uses Ketamine in lower doses, in two different settings above to help these patients. |
| Nairaland General › Re: Nairaland Charity Organisation- E-Helpers Network by perx(f): 4:06pm On Jan 12, 2012 |
ceasyc: ceasyc:thanks. yes that is most of it I am here now so anything else? kindly let me know or ask |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 4:00pm On Jan 12, 2012 |
maclatunji: okay, thanks. i'll be there. i thought I emailed you and left it here too. freecocoa (very niceeee), Idowuogbo (i sabi the song, i be proper naija gal oh, lol), Ivynwa , etc, thank you all |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 5:04pm On Jan 11, 2012 |
When your day is long, And the night, the night is yours alone When you're sure you've had enough, Of this life, well hang on Don't let yourself go, 'Cause everybody cries And everybody hurts sometimes Sometimes everything is wrong, Now it's time to sing along When your day is night alone (Hold on, hold on) If you feel like letting go (Hold on), If you think you've had too much Of this life, well hang on Everybody hurts, Take comfort in your friends Everybody hurts, Don't throw your hand, oh no Don't throw your hand, If you feel like you're alone No, no, no, you are not alone If you're on your own in this life. The days and nights are long When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on Well, everybody hurts sometimes, Everybody cries Everybody hurts sometimes, And everybody hurts sometimes So hold on, hold on, Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on Everybody hurts "Everybody Hurts" by R.E.M |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 4:55pm On Jan 11, 2012 |
IDOWUOGBO! I had to shout it oh see as u dey make me laugh forget my pain and sorrow  u are a star. thanks! @Ivy and Mac, una too much! God bless you all |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 7:09am On Jan 11, 2012 |
^^^ true true. Hi everyone. I have emailed some hospitals in south Africa, waiting for their response. thanks 9ija na waoh with this strike and fuel crisis. such a shame how many miles/pains/shame/frustration, etc to go? ". . .she was running low on faith. . . It'd been a long hard year She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention she was going way too fast, Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass She saw both their lives flash before her eyes, She didn't even have time to cry She was so scared, She threw her hands up in the air Jesus take the wheel, Take it from my hands Cause I can't do this on my own, I'm letting go So give me one more chance, To save me from this road I'm on Jesus take the wheel . . .And for the first time in a long time, She bowed her head to pray She said I'm sorry for the way, I've been living my life I know I've got to change, So from now on tonight Jesus take the wheel, Take it from my hands Cause I can't do this on my own, I'm letting go So give me one more chance, To save me from this road I'm on Jesus take the wheel" CARRIE UNDERWOOD LYRICS "Jesus Take The Wheel" |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 12:37pm On Jan 07, 2012 |
^^^ i am on it. thanks. my monthly night mtn internet subscription ended a few days ago. it gave me GPRS for a whole month, it was so slow and frustrating. even to send a short email was impossible sometimes. 2,500naira 3gb monthly wasnt bad but d slow thing gets on my nerves i used to have WDCMA/HSDPA or whatever it is called and it was so fast but i dont know what happened i did not want to go on mtn anymore so i am looking for another cheaper one but a fast one. glo goes off and on when u put it on WDCMA (the fast one) but it stays steady on Gsm only (edge). Glo is expensive sha, the one i am using now is 200mb for 1,000 naira. better than nothing sha God bless you |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 11:54am On Jan 07, 2012 |
Idowuogbo: thank you. email address is (mod). i did not want to give it out before because of d negative vibes and things that were said and done here well i'm hanging in there. my physiotherapist is still looking for a doc to do my right leg surgery but no luck so far because of the christmas and new year season and the fuel crisis, they might go on strike. i'm tired of this P.O.P and staying in bed for more than 2 months now lying on my back only. we want to try a teaching hospital 1st before going to a private one. I live in Edo state i hope they can fix my right leg in nigeria because surgery on 2 legs abroad would be financially crazy and if it is really RSD/CRPS i have then that is more money but cheaper than surgery. i did not want to come back here but thanks to those who encouraged me and cleaning up d thread. i am compiling my pix and xrays, mri, test, etc, and also waiting for this right leg surgery in Nigeria, so that/before i can start my blog. i loved taking pix before but i hardly take pix of my affected legs since i got ill, my fam does not want pix or videos of my legs or condition even when i ask. i cannot take the pics myself but i think i can get a couple or more i pray this wont cause more stiffness in my right leg (no exercise or movement). i was exercising and massaging it before the fracture but i cant do that now. when my left leg got affected since 2007, my right leg was my support when using crutches or walking aids and now it is broken. oh well. . . |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 11:24am On Jan 07, 2012 |
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary; When troubles come and my heart burdened be; Then, I am still and wait here in the silence, Until you come and sit awhile with me. You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains; You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas; I am strong, when I am on your shoulders; You raise me up, To more than I can be. There is no life - no life without its hunger; Each restless heart beats so imperfectly; But when you come and I am filled with wonder, Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity. . . You raise me up, To more than I can be. JOSH GROBAN LYRICS "You Raise Me Up" |
| Properties › Re: A Nairalander Referred Abroad For Treatment Needs Contact Info Of Charity Orgs. by perx(f): 11:15am On Jan 07, 2012 |
Ivynwa: maclatunji: Ivynwa: thank you all. i'm hanging in there. my physiotherapist is still looking for a doc to do my right leg surgery but no luck so far because of the christmas and new year season and the fuel crisis, they might go on strike. i'm tired of this P.O.P and staying in bed for more than 2 months now lying on my back only. i pray this wont cause more stiffness in my right leg. i was exercising and massaging it before the fracture but i cant do that now. when my left leg got affected since 2007, my right leg was my support when using crutches or walking aids and now it is broken. oh well. . . |
| Family › Re: Are You Feeling Suicidal? Come Here First! by perx(f): 10:12am On Jan 07, 2012 |
*sigh*. thank you all |
| Romance › Re: A Nairalander Referred Abroad For Treatment Needs Contact Info Of Charity Orgs. by perx(f): 10:09am On Jan 07, 2012 |
thanks |
