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lereinter:
Likewise some few American hip pop ladies

NewManFred:
Day three of my journey. I still haven't watched any violent porn or browsed for it online, and also I haven't masturbated. 24 more hours and I will smash my 4 day record of abstinence.

The urges are ever so strong, so strong that last night I dreamed that Liv Aguilera was doing a private custom murder video for me.

Keep praying for me guys and keep the words of encouragement coming.

AndroidAI:
You are just another creative writer on Nairaland

NewManFred:
A brief Overview

As I made the decision to quit this sort of pornography, I tried to make sure my last masturbation was going to be with one of my favorite videos. So I got out my hard drive, connected it to my PC and began to peruse through my folders. That was my first mistake.

I am OCD and I like to keep things arranged nicely. As a consequence, I have all my violent porn arranged in folders based on the company names. Again, believe it or not, there are over 30 different companies producing this sort of stuff, and each company tailors its videos and models to different interests.

For instance, there are companies like N-MAX and 2kill4 that only feature Chinese girls. Their videos involve murder and simulated sex or ragdoll play with the corpse, but there is zero nudity. I don't even think you can even consider this pornography. What I like about Asian actresses is how well they can play dead. They are by far the best at keeping death stares(perhaps its the anatomy of their eyes) but they are the absolute worst at any pre-death acting. For pre-death acting, the award goes to the white women, particularly the American models.

There are companies like DarkRooms that only feature Russian girls and usually involve gunshot and stabbing type murder amongst the models, that is, girls killing girls, which I like a lot, but they speak Russian 95% of the time which throws me off, and when they try to speak English to appeal to their English market, the accent is so heavy lol

There are companies like Velvet Fantasies that feature girl on girl stuff, but in a less realistic way, usually involving spies and clones. For instance the clones of a spy are hunted and killed by neck breaks and obviously fake gunshots without the blood. They also do some chloroform and knockout stuff at times. Not a fan of these though.
I like this company because the models are all hot and also because the owner of the company is the absolutely gorgeous, thick Jacquelyn velvets who started off working as a model for Annabelle's Fantasy many years ago and then Bluestones Silk before creating her own company.

Jacquelyn has been annoying lately cos she goes to sites where I usually download her videos for free and requests that all videos from her company be taken down. She expects everyone to purchase her videos from her online store. Lol. Imagine purchasing a 20 minute video for $25. Something I will download for free with 100mb.

Then there are companies like Psycho-thrillers, Peachy keen Films and Chris corner productions that do hyper-realistic videos mostly involving male on female violence, that if you stumbled on it for the first time, you'd think were real. My favorite videos are from these companies by the way. Not something I am proud of though.

NewManFred:
Creative writer? Lol. After all the verifiable information that I've shared, including my violent porn folder on my PC along with the videos inside?

Oshodi Sherlock Holmes..

Mordson:
This man did not come to tell us how he wants to stop violent p0rn and masturbation. He came to lure a lot of people into it.

It's very clear to see.

I really pity you cos you are not normal anymore. You've obviously never had sex all your life. You've only masturbated with these evil videos. Your brain has adjusted to it and will never let go. You will never be able to have normal sex with a normal lady.

NewManFred:
My Final Masturbation

So back to my final jerk off two days ago. I had just downloaded a video of Coco being killed and raped post death from motherless and the erection I had watching it was so strong, I could hammer a nail into wood with it. If I was to name a woman that was wonderfully made, Coco is definitely the one. And I am not referring to just models or pornstars, like even celebrities and basically any woman you meet.

Coco's body is perfect; no fake boobs, no fake ass, everything natural. Not too big and not too small. It's funny Coco is the only name she goes by, perhaps to protect her privacy and personal info, and the only way you would find her is to go to sites like motherless and type "Coco strangle" or "Coco snuff" or "Coco necro"

What I like most about her though is the level of passion she puts into her acting. Girl can act, especially during the killing and afterwards. To be honest, I think girls like her have the reverse of my fetish, meaning they enjoy pretending to be killed and pretending to be dead. She has done over 30 different videos for 3 different companies, which is probably the most I have seen any model do, and she has been doing this for over 10 years. She is certainly not doing it for just the money. She really likes her job. I have seen other pornstars like Darla Crane, Liv Aguilera and Sadie Santana admit to enjoying acting these roles where they are strangled and killed. The aforementioned women are into the highest level of violent pornography and work exclusively with Psycho-thrillers; the Oga-Patapata

Anyway, the video of Coco wasn't saved to any folder yet cos I had just downloaded it. So I decided to check out some other videos first before coming back to hers, just as a warm up. Newer videos tend to be more arousing compared to the ones I had previously watched many times, or so I thought.

I entered the Folder titled PKF. This was another mistake. PKF or Peachy Keen Films are obsessed with making their videos as realistic as they can, and this can be quite off-putting for people who aren't into hardcore realistic stuff, but very enticing for people who want their videos as realistic as possible, eg yours truly. Their actresses are always handpicked and their makeup artistes probably work for hollywood because the gunshots, blood, skin decomposition features and strangle marks always look real. And the models always give believable performances. I have never seen any actress blink while playing dead with her eyes open.

All I did was click on the first video in the folder and I couldn't exit it. I betrayed my desire to use the newly downloaded Coco video and instead used some one-time actress who I didn't even know her name all because her murder scene looked so real and her acting look quite believable. The rest is history. I came in seconds.

NewManFred:
Sent To The Trashbin

You must be wondering if I deleted all the videos from my hard drive? The answer to that question is Yes. I just did. I know I might not be feeling the regret now, but soon it will hit me like a bus and I will probably cry cos it took me years to find and store these videos. It's almost like a life time's work and it is the only kind of pornography that I enjoy. But to overcome this addiction, the videos had to go.

Although some of these videos do not exist on the internet anymore, or have been taken down by the companies for piracy, many of them are still on motherless, but I will fight any yearning to go to the site and watch or download them.

NewManFred:
Day Two

Today is day two of my journey to leave violent pornography for good. I'm already starting to miss my videos. They were like my kids. They were the one asset I actually cherished because of how personal they were and how they've been with me since I was a teenager.

The problem now is that I don't have an alternative to violent pornography. I can't spend 15 seconds watching normal porn. It's so boring.

The longest I've ever gone without watching violent pornography is four days and I swear those were one of the worst four days of my life because I began to picture every woman I saw as if she was being killed. The porn helps me remain sane and it keeps my fetish under check.

Another alternative would be hiring a prostitute to lie down on the bed and pretend like she was dead with her eyes open, while I touched her and then bleeped her. But I doubt any Nigerian ashawo would be open to this. They'd probably think it is some money ritual thing lol.

Black women in general are very skeptical towards this subject and are generally not "sexually open-minded" for lack of a better phrase. I don't know if it's how God created them but the owner of Psycho-thrillers, one of the companies that do hard core murder pornography was actually a black guy, and when he was alive, he used to complain about how hard it was to convince his fellow black women to feature in his snuff videos.

This explains why the market for violent pornography is like only 5% black women which is very annoying for me because I prefer masturbating to a Black girl being killed than a white, Latino or Asian girl.

The most popular black girl in this industry is Jada Fire. She's done 6 videos for Psycho thrillers where she was killed and her acting was commendable. Sadie Santana and Kymora Lee are black women that also feature for psycho-thrillers. Sadie is half Indian and Kymora is half Asian so I don't know if I can actually classify them as fully black, but their skin tone is black sha so that helps.

Chris corner productions has a black girl named Freya who I like a lot, and Peachy keen films has three black girls working for them. There are few other black girls that work for lesser known companies but majority of the models are White women, followed closely by Latino women and then Asian women. Indian and Arab women are virtually non-existent in this terrain.

Maysdevices:
You say you are normal but you actually aren’t. Do the ladies around you a favor and go to therapy.

Necrophiliacs are serial killers in the making.

NewManFred:
Boring. Same old spiel. I'm in my late 20s and I've not harmed anyone. I've even told few girls I've slept with about my fetishes and they were cool with it. Some of them even played dead for me. So rest. You might even be more "dangerous" than I am.

NewManFred:
Boring. Same old spiel. I'm in my late 20s and I've not harmed anyone. I've even told few girls I've slept with about my fetishes and they were cool with it. Some of them even played dead for me. So rest. You might even be more "dangerous" than I am.

Executer:
Lies upon lies
You're very sick in the head and this is you trying to promote and glory this satanic behaviour.
Why will a normal human want to sleep with dead people?
This is beyond a fetish,this is a psycho behaviour

Executer:
Lies upon lies
You're very sick in the head and this is you trying to promote and glory this satanic behaviour.
Why will a normal human want to sleep with dead people?
This is beyond a fetish,this is a psycho behaviour

Foodqueen:
Are you really sober or u want more audience to follow.

What u are sharing here; av never heard of it before.

If truely u need help, I pray you find peace within you to stop whatever it is you are into.

What do u do presently. Are you a student, employed, or just there....

You need to get busy

Jesterinjay:
Focus. You decided to quit follow it to the end. If you relapse it becomes harder to stop. I'm rooting for you bro

Princerichi0:
That mf is promoting porn. He's doesn't need help. He's the dev¡l

NewManFred:
I've actually had sex a number of times. I won't say I enjoyed every moment of it; I think sex is too much work especially considering the fact that I'm not really enjoying it. The parts I enjoy is the pre-intimacy, pressing breast and maybe the kissing part, but I hate the penetration. Waste of my time. I'd rather just masturbate to her playing dead.

NewManFred:
I'd never sleep with a dead body. I might touch her body, caress her breasts and kiss her lips, but I ain't sticking my diçk in the pussy of a dead woman. And if I perceive any foul smell, I'm done.

You guys overrate sex. For me it's not the sex that matters. It's the time spent with her. When I was young I used to enjoy watching women sleep. The feeling is better than your overrated sex.

gozzlin:
You masturbated to the sight of sleeping women when you were young?! Oh Lawd!