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Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Obanai(op): 4:20pm On Jun 11, 2023

I don't think explaining my problems are of any use since even people around and those that claim to care no longer look me in the face.

How can I live this world without going through the pain of the soul exiting the body?
I've become heartless? Filled with hatred!
I don't want to see anyone around me alive.... I sometimes wish I can kill them myself.

Don't talk about my family loving me..... All of them only see me as a failure.
My friends.... I feel they hate me.
Relatives? None even reply me.
Pastor? Like I give a damn about them.

Thought of chaing religion if I'll find peace but I guess I can never find peace.

What can I do to leave this world.... Without pain.

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by HighTableVoice: 4:31pm On Jun 11, 2023

How old are you first before we start analyzing what’s going wrong and how you are experiencing existence

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Westerhoffe(m): 4:33pm On Jun 11, 2023

HighTableVoice:
How old are you first before we start analyzing what’s going wrong and how you are experiencing existence

Ask him first if he has money...
Even though depression is real, some people are not really depressed… they just need money.

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by sisisioge: 4:41pm On Jun 11, 2023*

Obanai:
I don't think explaining my problems are of any use since even people around and those that claim to care no longer look me in the face.

How can I live this world without going through the pain of the soul exiting the body?
I've become heartless? Filled with hatred!
I don't want to see anyone around me alive.... I sometimes wish I can kill them myself.

Don't talk about my family loving me..... All of them only see me as a failure.
My friends.... I feel they hate me.
Relatives? None even reply me.
Pastor? Like I give a damn about them.

Thought of chaing religion if I'll find peace but I guess I can never find peace.

What can I do to leave this world.... Without pain.

Thank goodness guns are not free for all like in the US in Nigeria. People with messed up minds like yours would have taken to the streets harming innocent people around them. It is well fa.

As for your case, try to check into a psychiatry hospital, honestly they have professionals who understand your state of mind and would help you. Alternatively you could lock yourself in your room and sleep for like 24hrs at a stretch only waking to eat at intervals....do not do beyond that timeline to avoid aggravating your condition. You may have better clarity of mind afterwards.

In this dear world, nobody owes us anything once we attain adulthood. We are our own responsibilities. Put your expectations in yourself alone. If you're not attaining those expectations, its your responsibility to fix it. So just relax with the knowledge that you are solely responsible for whatever is happening in your life and try to fix it. Only cowards look for a cheap way out by killing themselves. Be brave, you would one day look back and smile at how well you did for yourself. It is well.

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Ofemmanu1: 4:46pm On Jun 11, 2023

Aye e ti baje.

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Shalommy(f): 4:58pm On Jun 11, 2023

Op, sniper is your way out. undecided

Don't bother to thank me.

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by PapaNnamdi: 4:58pm On Jun 11, 2023

Obanai:
I don't think explaining my problems are of any use since even people around and those that claim to care no longer look me in the face.

How can I live this world without going through the pain of the soul exiting the body?
I've become heartless? Filled with hatred!
I don't want to see anyone around me alive.... I sometimes wish I can kill them myself.

Don't talk about my family loving me..... All of them only see me as a failure.
My friends.... I feel they hate me.
Relatives? None even reply me.
Pastor? Like I give a damn about them.

Thought of chaing religion if I'll find peace but I guess I can never find peace.

What can I do to leave this world.... Without pain.

it's normal to want to kill yourself,
it happens to all of us,

but why die when you can live??

when you live you have countless possibilities of outcomes, just like rolling a dice,

stay alive bro,
life's a gift

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by DAVIDMOE(m): 5:40pm On Jun 11, 2023

Obanai:
I don't think explaining my problems are of any use since even people around and those that claim to care no longer look me in the face.

How can I live this world without going through the pain of the soul exiting the body?
I've become heartless? Filled with hatred!
I don't want to see anyone around me alive.... I sometimes wish I can kill them myself.

Don't talk about my family loving me..... All of them only see me as a failure.
My friends.... I feel they hate me.
Relatives? None even reply me.
Pastor? Like I give a damn about them.

Thought of chaing religion if I'll find peace but I guess I can never find peace.

What can I do to leave this world.... Without pain.

Move out of your present location. Stop being slow to act when any type of business idea comes your mind.
It's better to be somewhere molding blocks and planning your life little-by-little than allowing this kind of thought to consume you. Even if you can't engage in hard-labour, there are plenty of softworks you can start with. An average blogger makes $250+ every month, a phone repairer makes at least 3k everyday, Electronics repairer makes at least 5k everyday, average Nigerian programmer makes $500+ per month. And many other good professions
Note: you are a man. Nobody will love you when you are broke, but immediately you start making money, people will worship you.

Stop over-thinking about your present condition.
Pick something doing. Forget about people and what they say. In about 3 years, you will look back and realize how you have improved.

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by DonEd(m): 6:22pm On Jun 11, 2023

What about if this topic is just for cruise?

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by PPIA: 6:38pm On Jun 11, 2023

Shalommy:
Op, sniper is your way out. Don't bother to thank me.

My sexy wall lizard, hope you didn't have cramps during your menses kiss

How is your goat Amos? cool

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Obanai(op): 9:02pm On Jun 11, 2023

HighTableVoice:
How old are you first before we start analyzing what’s going wrong and how you are experiencing existence

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Obanai(op): 9:03pm On Jun 11, 2023

Westerhoffe:
Ask him first if he has money...
Even though depression is real, some people are not really depressed… they just need money.

I don't really need money

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by mariahAngel(f): 9:33pm On Jun 11, 2023

Obanai:
19

At what point in your life did you start feeling the way you feel?
What happened?
You seem like one who's been through a lot way bigger than your age.

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Fluidity(m): 9:50pm On Jun 11, 2023

Obanai:
I don't think explaining my problems are of any use since even people around and those that claim to care no longer look me in the face.

How can I live this world without going through the pain of the soul exiting the body?
I've become heartless? Filled with hatred!
I don't want to see anyone around me alive.... I sometimes wish I can kill them myself.

Don't talk about my family loving me..... All of them only see me as a failure.
My friends.... I feel they hate me.
Relatives? None even reply me.
Pastor? Like I give a damn about them.

Thought of chaing religion if I'll find peace but I guess I can never find peace.

What can I do to leave this world.... Without pain.

Your post doesn't give much details though.

Learn a skill.

1. First of all you need to choose a skill - computer graphics designer, copywriting, programming, etc. The idea is to learn a skill that aligns with your temperament

2. After deciding on the skill, create a picture of what you will achieve in the next 5 years, if you build on the skill. You can get pictures from the Internet to help put the dream in front of you.

3. Pursue expertise in the skill. Focus all you've got on being the best in that dream.

NOTE: NEVER BOTHER ABOUT WHAT ANYONE THINKS ABOUT YOU ONCE YOU FOLLOW THE STEPS OUTLINED.

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by ChybuzzDD(m): 5:21am On Jun 12, 2023

Obanai:
19

At 19, what have you seen that's enough to push you into suicidal thoughts huh

Nawa for you newbies oo!

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by zelnababa(m): 6:08am On Jun 12, 2023

Obanai:
19

lolz @ 19 you re saying this rubbish, you never start life ooo

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by henrimoto(m): 6:18am On Jun 12, 2023

DAVIDMOE:
Move out of your present location. Stop being slow to act when any type of business idea comes your mind.

It's better to be somewhere molding blocks and planning your life little-by-little than allowing this kind of thought to consume you. Even if you can't engage in hard-labour, there are plenty of softworks you can start with. An average blogger makes $250+ every month, a phone repairer makes at least 3k everyday, Electronics repairer makes at least 5k everyday, average Nigerian programmer makes $500+ per month. And many other good professions

Note: you are a man. Nobody will love you when you are broke, but immediately you start making money, people will worship you.

Stop over-thinking about your present condition.
Pick something doing. Forget about people and what they say. In about 3 years, you will look back and realize how you have improved.

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Myer(m): 7:18am On Jun 12, 2023

ChybuzzDD:
At 19, what have you seen that's enough to push you into suicidal thoughts

Nawa for you newbies oo!

Are we really this insensitive?
Like suicidal thoughts respect age?
Have you not heard of primary school pupils committing suicide?
Teenagers committing suicide due to peer pressure or heartbreak or failure?

Truly, he's tol young to even contemplate such, but it happens. He simply needs more understanding.

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Myer(m): 7:28am On Jun 12, 2023

Obanai:
I don't think explaining my problems are of any use since even people around and those that claim to care no longer look me in the face.

How can I live this world without going through the pain of the soul exiting the body?
I've become heartless? Filled with hatred!
I don't want to see anyone around me alive.... I sometimes wish I can kill them myself.

Don't talk about my family loving me..... All of them only see me as a failure.
My friends.... I feel they hate me.
Relatives? None even reply me.
Pastor? Like I give a damn about them.

Thought of chaing religion if I'll find peace but I guess I can never find peace.

What can I do to leave this world.... Without pain.

Good morning.
Whatever it is you're going through, I just want you to know that- This Too Shall Pass.

Life is in Times and Seasons. Eccesiastes 3.
There's a time for everything.

There is a time where life hits you like a pack of piranhas and feels like there's no way out. Everyone has to go and grow through it.

When you understand this, you will be well prepared for it next time and it will not hit this hard again.
I pray with you that you receive the peace and comfort and support you need through this.

And I pray it leads you to know your creator better.

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Evestar200(f): 11:07am On Jun 12, 2023*

Obanai:
19

Failure at 19?

You are probably comparing your life with your mate who did fraud to become wealthy

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by ahnie: 5:41pm On Jun 12, 2023

You can clearly see he's disturbed upstair.
Their usual rants of wanting to end their lives and bittered towards innocent people offline n online

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Obanai(op): 12:00am On Jun 13, 2023

mariahAngel:
At what point in your life did you start feeling the way you feel?
What happened?
You seem like one who's been through a lot way bigger than your age.

Since when I start feeling I am not doing well. Since at the age around 14-15.
My Parent might be the cause or maybe is cause I take things Soo serious.
I see my school performance poor even though I spent alpt of time studying.
I want to help myself without disturbing others but can barely buy myself anything. I feel like am just a useless person.
Am not sure I have a dream anymore.

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Obanai(op): 12:01am On Jun 13, 2023

Evestar200:
Failure at 19?

You are probably comparing your life with your mate he did fraud to become wealthy

I don't know, but am not the only one comparing. My family do. And some people around me do

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Evestar200(f): 12:46am On Jun 13, 2023

Obanai:
I don't know, but am not the only one comparing. My family do. And some people around me do

and you are listening to them?

Your life and theirs are not the same, you are too young to tag yourself a failure, stop listening to what people are saying about you and build your life in a good and righteous way.

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by mariahAngel(f): 10:23am On Jun 13, 2023*

Obanai:
Since when I start feeling I am not doing well. Since at the age around 14-15.
My Parent might be the cause or maybe is cause I take things Soo serious.
I see my school performance poor even though I spent alpt of time studying.
I want to help myself without disturbing others but can barely buy myself anything. I feel like am just a useless person.
Am not sure I have a dream anymore.

First of all, you are not useless.
(If you were, you wouldn't be able to type properly to begin with)

You need to understand that God loves you very much, and has put something special (a skill) inside you that sets you apart from others, but you only need to discover what that is. Which in time, you will.
Don't put too much pressure on yourself.
Always remember, you are useful to God and to humanity.

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Nobody: 1:45pm On Jun 13, 2023

Evestar200:
Failure at 19?

You are probably comparing your life with your mate who did fraud to become wealthy

Dude was living my life

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Nobody: 1:46pm On Jun 13, 2023

Damn bruh

You was living my life

Holla me let me stir you comot that trenches you day

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Nobody: 1:48pm On Jun 13, 2023

ahnie:
You can clearly see he's disturbed upstair.
Their usual rants of wanting to end their lives and bittered towards innocent people offline n online

TF

You're mentally deranged mother that has a poor mentality

I weep for your kids if you're like this

If I see you irl, imma whip TF outta your skunking cerebrum

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Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by ahnie: 10:33pm On Jun 13, 2023*

Failure2019:
TF

You're mentally deranged mother that has a poor mentality

I weep for your kids if you're like this

If I see you irl, imma whip TF outta your skunking cerebrum

Keep the compliment dear resident food thief.

If your momma actually really gave you a good home training,you wouldn't have had a sordid life . ..

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Obanai(op): 11:18pm On Jun 13, 2023

Evestar200:
and you are listening to them?

Your life and theirs are not the same, you are too young to tag yourself a failure, stop listening to what people are saying about you and build your life in a good and righteous way.

I will try to stop listening. It's just Soo hard to focus with all they say.

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Obanai(op): 11:19pm On Jun 13, 2023

mariahAngel:
First of all, you are not useless.
(If you were, you wouldn't be able to type properly to begin with)

You need to understand that God loves you very much, and has put something special (a skill) inside you that sets you apart from others, but you only need to discover what that is. Which in time, you will.
Don't put too much pressure on yourself.
Always remember, you are useful to God and to humanity.

With the way things are, I wonder if I am useful to God

Re: Am Just Tired Of Existing. It's Exhausting. What Have I Done? by Nobody: 12:26am On Jun 14, 2023

ahnie:
Keep the compliment dear resident food thief.

If your momma actually really gave you a good home training,you wouldn't have had a sordid life . ..

Hehe

Madam Afo beer

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