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liveyourlife007:
So I have been a member here for many years ,you can check. This write-up will not have full stop except the first one so you should follow me as fast as possible I have a problem and I noticed I have a problem So Upper case means the beginning of a sentence.
I am scared of responsibilities. I'm 34 years old, bsc international relations and history , o.a.u ife. My name is Dracula, pseudonym, And I think I'm failing in Life.
No source of income, no skill, no girlfriend, In bad terms with almost all members of the family. Everyone is now looking at me as the black sheep. Black sheep would have been the title of my diary but for some reason I chose to be low key

My Light used to shine very bright 🕯️🕯️🕯️
But one thing led to the other. My light got quenched. I'm writing to you with an open spirit without the light.

Sexual intercourse is beyond this physical world. It's a connection between two souls I think you know that already. But do you know that an old spirit, from your previous relationship can still follow you into your new relationship. Depends on the strength of your connection when you guys were together. That's why some girls can't love, can't trust. Cos when they look at you all they see is their ex. You can call them narcissism, misogyny, sodomy, or homosexualism. Depending on your experience.

I lost my appetite. My appetite for writing, so this is more of me dusting up my instruments.

LOVE is not a bad thing, Infact the only solution to the problem of this world is Love
. I will not go religious. But to be sincere, when you see a stranger what do you feel towards that person. TO take him/her in , give them food. Water , indoor fire and some fire under the Duvet. Or to just pounce on them and strangle them to death. Your choice depends on the type of person you are.

This is my diary. The story is real. 💯. My story. Undiluted.

I have one book. Titled: underground. You have to read the part one to understand this part.

In 2022 I met Bidemi in Akure. I just relocated to the Town. From Lagos. Just looking for some peace of mind far from family drama. The building I rented in Akure was a storey building. ten rooms up and 10 down. I was working in a supermarket where I was paid 35k per month . Bidemi was just a typical Yoruba girl around 19, dark skin, big Ass,average height, oval face. You get the description? It means you are a womaniser. Just like the old me. When you find a Virgin. The best thing is not to bleep her rough and brutal. The best thing is to allow her be in control which may involve peeling your preek.

Normal Bidemi dey go out for night. But she never deny me her pussy. Sometimes she will resume early into my room and we will still get entangled not minding the fact that she worked overnight. I don't blame her and I don't judge her because if to say mesef guide I for comot her for that situation
When I had issue in police station about theft in the supermarket. I spent Five days inside cell. Na only Bidemi show up with Beans and bread. Na that day I realise say beans and bread fit win prison's best food.

I relocated after the incidence but Bidemi never comot for my mind. Her big breasts her big Ass. Her beautiful eyes, her round lips with the face. I don Die. My landlady once said Bidemi dey use juju for any man wey climb her so they won't forget her. I think I'm a victim


Now all I do is go out with friends. No work, still no work.

And my location is not helping matters when it comes to Employment.

But I can't give up now. Let them launch Pi. I have over 100 in my wallet. Maybe the GVC Wil be 314 whatever. Omo my story go change. I will go from Rags to Riches. Marry the woman I want. Build one house for mother, and finally study that Law I have always wanted.

The emotions are rushing in floods and what I do most time is listening to music or playing C.O.D.
Mehn, i don't wanna burst. I just have to be strong. Account is low, Respect is Low.
Everything is fucking low...

Its well bro....... I know its not easy... but you have to do what you have to do.

FIRST THINGS FIRST..... destroy the soul connection with bidemi..... else you may cheat in marriage or NOT even marry at all.

next... change your friends if they are not helping you with gigs or opportunities.

Also, get SPIRITUAL...... try it.... reconnect with your maker, NOT SOLUTION but for identity.

I know you will make it in this life sha..... just stay away from regret and women.

God bless

I do wonder why mothers are bringing up these useless kids.

And yes, I do blame mothers because fathers have always abdicated their duties for pussy, which is what these kids have copied and is killing them young.

budaatum:
I do wonder why mothers are bringing up these useless kids.

And yes, I do blame mothers because fathers have always abdicated their duties for pussy, which is what these kids have copied and is killing them young.

I agree with you. Not only mothers, we need to blame the fathers too.

budaatum:
I do wonder why mothers are bringing up these useless kids.

And yes, I do blame mothers because fathers have always abdicated their duties for pussy, which is what these kids have copied and is killing them young.

Dem.be Ilamina and Kobojunkie children. They are the two mæd fossils on this site with crazy topics.
Liveyourlife007, come and take ya medicine.

blackpanthar:
Its well bro....... I know its not easy... but you have to do what you have to do.

FIRST THINGS FIRST..... destroy the soul connection with bidemi..... else you may cheat in marriage or NOT even marry at all.

next... change your friends if they are not helping you with gigs or opportunities.

Also, get SPIRITUAL...... try it.... reconnect with your maker, NOT SOLUTION but for identity.

I know you will make it in this life sha..... just stay away from regret and women.

God bless

Amen. Thank you so much. Your advice means a lot to me. I appreciate your kind gesture.

budaatum:
I do wonder why mothers are bringing up these useless kids.

And yes, I do blame mothers because fathers have always abdicated their duties for pussy, which is what these kids have copied and is killing them young.

I hope one day you will learn to accept people for who they are, you don't have the right to judge anybody. We never can tell, your own father might be worse. next time if you can't help a situation, the best you can do is just ignore.

liveyourlife007:
I hope one day you will learn to accept people for who they are, you don't have the right to judge anybody. We never can tell, your own father might be worse. next time if you can't help a situation, the best you can do is just ignore.

leave dawan. Life would humble her someday the way she is going. She thinks she's untouchable.

budaatum:
I do wonder why mothers are bringing up these useless kids.

And yes, I do blame mothers because fathers have always abdicated their duties for pussy, which is what these kids have copied and is killing them young.

why is it so effortless for you to reason like a damn fool? Why couldn't you just ignore? You're miss perfect. Aren't you? Open mouth waaaaaaah

Op dey call Akure a town

First of all, relocate back to your Lagos or maybe Ibadan

That place might not be helping matters, but then, how do you feed if you dont work?

Pls, don't waste ur talent.

Relocate out of that state...

I hate to see intelligent guys wasting away in villages.

Find away and move now.

TheFinesseKid:
why is it so effortless for you to reason like a damn fool? Why couldn't you just ignore? You're miss perfect. Aren't you? Open mouth waaaaaaah

Please keep trying. You will soon learn to engage buda.

liveyourlife007:
I hope one day you will learn to accept people for who they are, you don't have the right to judge anybody. We never can tell, your own father might be worse. next time if you can't help a situation, the best you can do is just ignore.

Please read the opening post again. You might notice that the thread opener does not accept yourself for what you are. You even have an 'f' after your name and "Bidemi was just a typical Yoruba girl around 19".

Now, if you are claiming to be a lesbian, I'm willing to defend you, but not your confusion and poor life choices of sex before your personal development.

P.s. If you don't want to be judged on Nairaland, stay off Nairaland where everyone has whatever rights they chose to have.

budaatum:
Please read the opening post again. You might notice that the thread opener does not accept yourself for what you are. You even have an 'f' after your name and "Bidemi was just a typical Yoruba girl around 19".

Now, if you are claiming to be a lesbian, I'm willing to defend you, but not your confusion and poor life choices of sex before your personal development.

P.s. If you don't want to be judged on Nairaland, stay off Nairaland where everyone has whatever rights they chose to have.

At least I forced you to present a more encouraging perspective. Better than the former.
P.s For who you are! Not what you are.
Try to be humane for once.

liveyourlife007:
At least I forced you to present a more encouraging perspective. Better than the former.
P.s For who you are! Not what you are.
Try to be humane for once.

Engagement. That's how to get a response, and its how we learn. Questions are even better, and I'll answer yours.

I am buda. I am whatever you decide I am, and I am delighted you bother to tell me.

As for being humane. Why?

budaatum:
Engagement. That's how to get a response, and its how we learn. Questions are even better, and I'll answer yours.

I am buda. I am whatever you decide I am, and I am delighted you bother to tell me.

As for being humane. Why?

You're not too bad. The only issue I had with you was being judgemental at first. You don't know me, you don't know what I have been through. Its bad to judge, especially strangers.
At the same time I learnt something from you i.e. Not to put sexual pleasures before personal development.

Lastly, I think there's a beautiful soul in there, hidden behind that cold ❄️ heart.

liveyourlife007:
You're not too bad. The only issue I had with you was being judgemental at first. You don't know me, you don't know what I have been through. Its bad to judge, especially strangers.
At the same time I learnt something from you i.e. Not to put sexual pleasures before personal development.

Lastly, I think there's a beautiful soul in there, hidden behind that cold ❄️ heart.

You, will live long.