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LancelLogan:
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...

My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).

I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...

Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...

What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...

Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...

Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...

I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...


I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...

Thanks...

I will dissect you thus: you have been reading much into Psychology. You indulged in self-diagnosis. If Hitler had won, you will be judged a misfit to live. Focus on what matters and heal yourself from within. You appear over-pampered as many people are going through financial hell with little time to run a self-psychological diagnosis. I do not respect priviledged people. Ask for the price of sniper as we wont miss you on Nairaland.

wat u described is wat iv been experiencin .... smtimes if m walking or doing other stuff i will still feel somebody is beside me ...... bt i just started socializin nd hanging out wit old friends... inshort i started goin to new churh / gatherin every week so as to b welcomed nd feel loved. bt dat fantasizin i love it .... it ease stress nd mindset dat life is rough .... create ya own happiness

:-Xare you sure you know the meaning of autism

dominique:
Only you OCD, ADHD, BD, chronic depression, schizophrenia etc. You are like a ticking time bomb. Sadly we live in a country of people that understand very little about mental health issues. The best solution most of them can provide is you're probably possessed and you should go for deliverance. I suggest you seek therapy with a qualified psychiatrist. I'm sure there are quite a number of them in PHC where you're based. In the meantime, make sure you surround yourself with people to keep your mind busy so you don't entertain suicidal thoughts.

Self Diagnosed... Maybe i don't have all that... i'll check but i don't know any psychitrist in PHC...

Thank you...

LancelLogan:
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...

My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).

I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...

Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...

What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...

Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...

Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...

I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...


I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...

Thanks...

Are you self diagnosed or medically diagnosed?

I can't say I understand how you feel but I sympathize with you because of the struggle you go through every day. You just have to discuss this with your parents ; you're much older now and judging by how articulately you narrated your problems, you'd be able to explain better to them now than when you were much younger. You need to see a professional, I'm sure your parents can facilitate this. Good luck

Please bear in mind that all these conditions you listed are self diagnosed. You might be quite right with the symptoms but only a therapist should affirm this because he is backed by experience and expertise.

See a therapist, my dude. Take it easy so you can scale over that extra year.

I have
chronic OCD
coupled with other mental issues like ADHD,
chronic depression,
extreme anxiety,
bipolar,
Low self-esteem,
Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the
Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm
autistic.

your only disease is mental hypochondria with a dose of attention seeking

go and face your books and stop making up fancy excuses for your academic failures.

this is not your village where you can wow illiterates with big words

lonelydora:
I'm praying for you in church at the moment

my brother abah, you can lie!

Please see a psychiatrist. They can be really helpful in situations like this. Then be prayerful too

LancelLogan:
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...

My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).

I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...

Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...

What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...

Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...

Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...

I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...


I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...

Thanks...

Lemme guess... You are introverted
, never had a girlfriend
, can't socialize
, u find normal arguments boring
, you are considered a nerd
. No love life
U don't care what other people say about you

sometimes you wish people understand you by communicating without communicating with them physically


You are not alone ;-\ ... Sometimes it just feels like you are not meant for this world... Dont worry you will overcome it... I'm sure

Also know that there are so many people out there with different mental issues, it's quite brave of you admitting you need help. Please and please see a psychiatrist as soon as possible. And ignore people that wish to make fun of you. Most people will never understand

Oblongata:
I had similar issues once, but my brother would have none of it

What you need bro is to socialise

Very often

Even against your will

You also need a steady babe

With whom your world revolves

Go to social events

Church, mosque etc

Read lot of novels

Then best of all; write a novel about your fantasy

Goodluck.

that ine alone..if he dey knack on regular him temperature go calm down

Damiriel:
Believe me for coming out here to voice out is 40% solution to the problem at hand.

Believe me again the solution to the 60% percent remaining part of the problem is within you and only you can execute it .. Thou the advice from here could be the needed...

For me ,the under listed will surely form 40% of the 60%

1. Go out meet more people on a daily
2. Get involved in a relationship with a lady you feel is attractive
3. Enrol in a sporting activity and dont miss out in the routine
4. God is needed without failure for its through him this thread can only turn into a testimony..
5. Lastly know that you are not the only one in this kind of situation

Thank you... I'll consider your suggestions... Although, I doubt i'll be able to genuinely believe in God even if a try...

Op I think you've the solution in your hand having known your problem. Most importantly socialize and free yourself. Also be realistic in life as it will help you forget about fantatizing. God bless you( believe in God, the Supreme Being)

What you need is to smoke a little bit of weed everyday. It will make you feel good. Good friends will help as well too and some good 4ken pussy. Life is good and we all have when we have a rough time. Enjoy life and don't be too hard on yourself.

The most important thing to hold unto is that there are many people going thru worse than you right now.
So know that your situation is still somewhat better and begin to appreciate life for that.
Never give up on yourself and continue to get better everyday by being thankful, pondering on the good things you have, how life is going on well for you compare to so many people you see out there.
Then as much as possible find someone/Therapist that you can talk to about this stuffs.
All you need are assurances that these things going thru your head are not real, they are Illusions. And believe me you will get better.

No matter the difficulty of the situation you find yourself, know that some people are going thru worse.

Probz:
You can’t have depression and bipolar disorder at the same time because one’s part of the other.

Are these self-diagnosed?

Yes they are self-diagnosed... I think the depression has been present since 2005....

BruncleZuma:


ADHD I understand bro...small world and you're not alone.

Thank you... it's very annoying...

I have OCD too

Go to a psychiatric hospital

LancelLogan:
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem, Perfectionism(OCPD similar to OCD) and the Fantasy Disorder (i waste hours fantasizing about a character rich fantasy world i have created in my head for almost a decade now) and (i don't know) i think i'm autistic... It kills me inside... I have contemplated suicide but i'm afraid it will be too painful or unsuccessful (since firearms are not sold in this country)...

My mental issues started when i was around 5 years (or maybe since child birth)... My depression heightened during my secondary education at a military secondary school (Nigerian Navy Port Harcourt).

I stay in Port Harcourt and school in the University of Port Harcourt (Uniport)... I'm repeating my final year because my mental issues did not allow me focus on my project and two difficult Maths courses.. i find it hard to focus (ADHD) and study... If i am not battling with that ever present inner OCD voice, I'm fantasizing about another world inside my head...

Everybody thinks i'm rude because i am never smiling and i don't know how to talk to or reply people (I'm always anxious even when i'm familiar with the person trying to talk to me)... no matter how i try i will always say something awkward or I wouldn't be able to say anything at all (my heart will always seem to be racing and my speech stuttering)... So i just detach myself from people generally to save myself from embarrassment...

What my OCD and OCPD has obsessed and compelled me to do over the years is just so much i can't write all about it here... It's more than the regular "wash your hand before and after you touch anything if not you will be infected or fall sick" or "if you press the wrong letter while typing a document, you must clear the whole page and start again if not the document file will be corrupted"]... If ever i try to resist the OCD voice, I'll feel so uncomfortable, anxious, disturbed and drowsy... i won't be able to concentrate on anything at all...

Also, it has made me abusive to my younger brother... If he does something I(or the OCD rather) don't(doesn't) like ... Example, if he doesn't wash his hand before touching things in our room or doesn't follow a couple of sequence i normally carry out while cleaning our room... i get so angry, i yell or sometimes(rarely though) physically abuse him... Any little thing he does irritates me even if he is just playing music, making a call or even laughing at a joke he read on his phone... This makes me hate myself but i can't stop this behavior...

Side note:[I have nothing against Christians or religious people... Please, don't be offended] I recently stop believing in religion (Christianity in my case)... I see it as a mechanism implemented to make people behave and make people be motivated to live and enjoy life... I also don't identify as an atheist because most atheist these days are just religious about their non-believe... They will undoubtedly support theories like The Big Bang Theory and yet criticizes Christians for believing in the Creation Story... I don't believe both of the aforementioned theories(stories)... I can say I'm agnostic because i do not know about the origin of existence.. Although, when i was still an ardent Christian, my OCD voice will compel me to give large portions of my personal savings to "God" so that i'll receive a specific blessing or answer to a prayer request... lol...

I have not talked to anyone about my issues because i know they will not understand... during my secondary school days, i told my parents i was contemplating suicide... they beat me up and took me to church for deliverance... lol... so there is no point talking about it to my family...


I will appreciate talking to someone who understands... Please reply or email me...

Thanks...

I feel really sorry to read this

I suffer from social phobia and emotional trauma.

I have suffered from social phobia since I was 20yrs. I used to be painfully shy before then.

I find it difficult interacting with people, even people I'm familiar with. The only person I feel totally at ease with is basically my mum.

My social phobia has worsened over the years. It was initially mild General Anxiety Disorder but might have progressed now to agoraphobia.

There are medications you can take to assist you.

That comes the second point. You'll need to see a doctor. I would advise you go to Yaba psychiatric hospital or Lasuth at Ikeja.

Treatment is very cheap and they may charge you nothing but recommend medication for you that are cheap and inexpensive

I'm sure you'll get some relief once you start taking these meds.

Pls not that there is a massive difference between a psychiatrist and a psychologist.

A psychiatrist is a doctor and only prescribes medication. A psychologist on the other hand provides counselling to change your behavior or modify your thinking.

At both hospitals, you may be advised to see a psychologist. This is free.

If you need more info, pls let me know

Faustin78:
See a doctor. A psychiatrist actually. And quickly at that. You are in my prayers for God's healing and mercy in Jesus name

Amen...

LancelLogan:
Yes they are self-diagnosed... I think the depression has been present since 2005....

Then your diagnosis should’ve been revised to bipolar disorder full stop. You can’t have pure depression and manic depression at the same time. It’s either one or the other.

Hmmm,I can relate with everything bro.But you just might not know it your curse is a gift.Statistics has shown that the most creative people in the world are people who got some traits of autism in them.But then these same blessing never stops to leave some trails of anti-sociality.The same power you can use to create amazing things are the ones you can use to create a solution to your problems.Yes talking about perfection anybody like you should be ready to be perfect cos you are on a higher grade of thinking which most people don't have,so bro when your mind tends to do things perfectly don't blame it,that's what it was programmed to do.It now remains with you to train it to know its limit.Cos everything actually ends with mind control.
Wake up everyday setting difficult goals for yourself and try your best to achieve them,cos austistic people are programmed to analyze things to death.My bro you cant kill that analytical part of yourself,you cant help it and the world needs it.So being autistic is ironically being a genius it depends on how you want to use your autism.
Your main problem is people,you don't know how to deal with people without offending them which is not possible,cos you yourself is offended by people everyday.
But you can use your analytical mind as an armour against people
(1)Start beings blunt,don't care whose horse is gored
(2)Be free with people make new friends but don't attach yourself too much with anybody
(3)Make up your mind not to be expect any form of niceness or kindness from people(Don't search for pity cos you will never get it but most surprisingly you don't need it)
(4)Be ready to stand for yourself even if the whole world is against you.
(5)Take on a difficult task like programming the fulfillment you get from being able to do what only a few people can do will compensate for your perfectionism.
(6)Rather than watch a movie,listen to music or watch a football match read a magazine and drink water.Things like tv make your lose mind discipline nd control which you need so much
(7)Drink once a while maybe twice in a week just to free your analytical mind
(Work hard enough for success but don't be scared to fail
(9)We got some many celebs who are a bit autistic when you look at them more closely,nut they have been able to manage it to the top."Jay-Z ,Adele...

I'd say meet professionals for their advice but in my opinion don't entertain suicidal thoughts. Always try to communicate and socialise with people and don't be afraid to make known your weaknesses, they'd end up giving you strength. Good luck my guy!

How do you suffer from a compulsive disorder (OCD) which requires attention to details and also a disorder which counters that(ADHD)?

iomoge2:
Chia
I feel for you
Wish i can help or atleast be your friend

Can We be friends,I'm feeling feverish

Actually you are not alone. I have also lived on with same rapid psycho process.. Kinda enjoy it though cos Is always about tech and movies and games and car crash burnouts and Helius sex scenes.... I am beginning to enjoy solitude in a way cos I only leave once... Oh and yes I LOVE beer!... Grab a beer and hang out!.. Annnnnd I have a place make out on Google maps (somewhere around Akwa Ibom) where my death will take place... I have all that is needed to make it smooth but is not coming soon... Am still enjoying my stay on this stupid and cool planet... Just hang on and ride on.. You are not alone.. Am way too technical, cos I have focused my active mind into studying codes and IT skills

OtemSapien:
Visit the psychiatrist

Tellemall:
Have you considered seeing a psychiatrist?

Many people are affected by these things in Nigeria, but are scared to see a specialist for fear of being stigmatized as "insane".

Google a hospital that caters to your needs.

By the way, how did you come up with your diagnoses? Direct more of that energy to seeing a specialist, preferably a psychiatrist. With a little medication you will feel better, despite how large you think your issues are.

Many of the things you mentioned are easily treatable.

ivolt:
You can't get any help from here.
Go out there and find a qualified therapist.

Jigba:
You should meet a therapist

I do not know any psychiatrist in Port Harcourt... I will appreciate if you can link me to anyone...

LancelLogan:
I have chronic OCD coupled with other mental issues like ADHD, chronic depression, extreme anxiety, bipolar, Low self-esteem...

1. Go online and take the autism test. Take any other relevant test available.

2. Contact a psychiatrist with experience in this area. Schedule a visit but first email him what you know about your case.

3. Visit him.

i do's this
i does this
i'm a lonely
don't need nobody to hang with me.
to all my hommies
who did not change on me.


fuc a bich
nigi
get more money
broke niggis go burn in hell