Blacklifematter:
It's sad I don't know what to do either looking for ways to end my life as I think this is how it will keep going am just fed up. Looking for a painless death

niceguy555:
The best way to solve a problem is to admit and fight it. I believe that you can stop it since you have taken that decision and you must fight now. It is never late to improve your way of living

ChildOfDoom:
3) LIFE IS TOO PRECIOUS

I tremble when I think of what it would be like when one is snuffed of life. Where does he go to? What happens to his aspirations? Is there an after life or bodies just decay in the ground? Lots of palpitating thoughts keep me going. Just once I went to jail, it wasn't funny at all. Knowing you are caged somewhere with no way out. I might be foolish, I might be miserable, I might be useless, I might be a bad egg and so on. But it is a lot better than being dead. So, I will not kill myself.

If one goes to the hospital and see how people battle to survive, one has reasons to be grateful. I have been seriously ill before, so I know what I am saying. The rich, no matter their wealth, die from some incurable ailments.

Ever wondered what sustains the mad people on the streets. Don't be surprised that wayward people like me will keep surviving while some well-to-do or good people die. That's life for you. So never wish bad for another

emillysmigael:
I do not know what to say as I don't want to say something that will sound wrong... But pls, if you can... Stop gambling. Peoplè that were worse than you think you are, are now living responsibly.
Maybe someday, I will be able to share my story to encourage you.

offset67:
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Michael820:
I wish I can say I know you feel, but I think I have at glimpse of what hopelessness is..but thank God for your case you are already making actionable steps to have a turn around and I must commend your honesty and "little step" approach to solving your problem.

It's not going to be easy, but I will advice you to find a goal, a plan, or a passion something that makes the work(of getting) worth doing and much pleasurable..it could be as simple as the joy of your mother, proving everyone wrong or even been financially stable .. picture it and hold on to it.


I wish you all the best my brother. Thanks for sharing

offset67:
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Ejusni:
I think you're a con artist. I think you are pretending. Your motive is what I don't know, with the way you write... I'm very sure you are well educated.
Maybe you are using nairaland to hone your skills as a writer? I seriously doubt you're a nobody.

davealvaro:
this life is more spiritual than we think..some things are meant to happen, is left for us to pray and apply wisdom, i have been in this before so i knw how u feel bro. the day i lose 250k i woke up at the middle of the night , started soliloquies, contemplating suicide, bro i almost ran mad dat week i swear never to do it again. i still play and lose x3 of dat, the thing made me stronger and made my heart looks like stone i can never be heartbroken cus there's nothing you can do to me that will surpass what bet9ja has done to me.......bro keep ur head up, have it in mind dat whatever ugly situation u find urself u must surely get out of it..IF U CAN SCALE THROUGH U ARE A HERO.

emillysmigael:
I do not know what to say as I don't want to say something that will sound wrong... But pls, if you can... Stop gambling. Peoplè that were worse than you think you are, are now living responsibly.
Maybe someday, I will be able to share my story to encourage you.

Kranediggy:
Dont give up on yourself, e go better.

ChildOfDoom:
okay sir. I will try. My short-term target is at least one month without gambling. So far, since beginning of july, i have not gambled

ChildOfDoom:
okay. Thanks. I really pray so. Though i went there to charge my phone yesterday, i didn't take the little i had with me. Two years now, no light in my area. Can't leave due to low rent. I will work on self-discipline. Just back from Mass. I asked God for intervention.

Ginaz:
Child of doom you need therapy. Has it ever crossed your mind to see a psychiatrist or a therapist?

There are mental health programs and medical treatment in place to help people struggling with addictions . Perhaps that is what you need and a mentor too.

Kindly seek a therapist !!

Goddys:


Have you thought of how you will miss the thrill of virtual and premier league if you commit suicide. If you can't stop your addiction, enjoy its thrills and manage its pains. All of us will die whenever death comes. Success and failure serve their different purpose . Even negativity is better than positivity sometimes. Life lacks its flavour where there is no negative or positive. They are both useful

ChildOfDoom:
I have seen over the years how people here have asked me to end my life and stop disturbing with my waywardness. It's true that people in a similar case as mine, would have long committed suicide.

I read a news of a guy who committed suicide after using 150,000 naira of his boss to play bet9ja. Hian! Considering the gravity of my betting addiction, I should have wasted my life, according to some people.

Only this year alone, I have gambled off 600,000 naira. You might think it's impossible considering I am a poor lowlife in a dormant city (Warri). Also, no money in this lockdown. For gambling, you work extra hard to make money or dupe people, just to foolishly gamble.

I have the brains to make money and live normal but my addictions get the best of me. I've resigned to fate of being unfortunate and doomed. You won't believe I have over 101,000 naira debt to pay my employer after using some WASSCE money to gamble (I will be his 'slave' when school resumes till I pay off). I made lots of money begging online during the lockdown. Don Jazzy gave me 50,000 naira. Helen Paul gave me 10,000 etc. The most traumatic experience was when I gambled off 250,000 naira central bank collateral-free loan given to ease the effect of the lockdown. Now, hunger has set in.

I am like a walking corpse. I am always sober, frustrated and depressed. I talk to myself. Always have nightmares due to my thoughts. At times, I scream or sob when I think of what I have done to myself. I blow the wall out of regrets. Unfortunately, we can't undo the past. Despite all these, I have 3 things to say to those who want me dead...