I've recently been believing I might have been infected with HIV and that's not all, I might have also infected someone else,my girlfriend.
I will try as much as possible to give details, on why I have come to this conclusion.
I had tested for HIV sometime in September 2018,which came out clean. I tested negative. This was my first HIV test.
I had unprotected sex with 2 girls at different times. I'll give a breakdown of these encounter s.
I had unprotected sex with an ex-gf about a week later after the test.
My birthday was the next month,October.
A day to my birth-date, I got a call from an ex-gf we had broken up earlier that year.She asked if I was home, Yeah, I was and she said she was coming over.
Note: After our breakup I had decided to stay single
That night , she came, and said she wanted to spend the night as the next day was my birthday.
One thing led to another, we had sex, just a few thrusts as I couldn't continue, I had noticed she didn't feel the same down there, as when we dated, she was drier, and it felt different.

Now here's the part that keeps playing in my head.
When we almost had sex, she asked if I got a condom, I didn't. This was a girl, that never used condom while we dated.In fact, any attempt to use a condom she would resist and say, I would only do so except I was sleeping with other girls.
Why now!!!

Well Fastforward march 2019, I went to NYSC camp, this was the beginning of my ordeals.
I had fallen ill after the second week of camp.This was serious, All my life I barely fall sick, never had any major illness, never visited a hospital etc.
But this? I was seriously feverish, had sores on my lips. Got medicines thinking it was malaria or typhoid, or maybe the camp conditions were not just for me. All to no avail. This continued after I left camp.
Symptoms at this point.
1.Fever
2.Headache
3.Mouth sores
4.Lost appetite
5.Athletes foot
Yes! When I left camp, I noticed the upper skin of my feet was peeling and shedding off. I googled and saw something like this called athletes foot.This was the first in my entire life.

Three weeks later, it had cleared up, and I also felt better, but I couldn't stop thinking of the experience. And you know when you type up those symptoms on Google. Wahala!!!

I decided to take my mind off, and took solace in my last test which came out clean.
To be succinct, Throughout my service year, I experienced bouts of illness that i hadn't experienced at ant point.
I would feel tired and fatigued for no reason. I wasn't been stressed at work or anything. I would have headaches, which wouldn't stop even when I took medicines. I complained and some of my work colleagues said I was probably stressed, because I was always in front of a computer screen. But I knew this was different from anything I have ever felt. Some said i t was migraine that I needed rest.
This feeling of fatigue and headache would come and go.
And returned sometime last month.
Note: During this time I was experiencing the fatigue and headaches, I fell I'll at one time.
Experienced Severe Diarrhea. I was vomiting, stooling. Had serious body weakness. Which wouldn't stop. Even after taking drugs

Long story short: Why I have come to this conclusion.
My recent gf called in sick, she had fever, headaches that wouldn't stop, she had sore throat earlier.
She had complained of feeling very weak and fatigued. Lost appetite too.
She has finished her dose but still no improvements. Immediately she told me all these, my heart started racing, as I remembered everything again.
This girl is a virgin. We haven't had penetrative sex, We nearly did one time, but i stopped.
Here's the thing, last night, she complained of forgetfulness. This has been happening to me since the past year. I had graduated one of the best of my class. But I noticed I easily forgot things. My memory and recollection abilities had dulled. I had issues finding words to describe situations. This came easily before.
I noticed this was serious, when I had to give a talk to a group of people during my service year, and my delivery was not at par with my normal. I was incoherent with ideas and all. While to others this might look normal and okay. I know something was wrong somewhere.
I also haven't been feeling too good, I have noticed changes in my body.
Noticed, a little rash on my face which had cleared.
Had swollen nodes on my back which has cleared. But this had never happened my entire life. One also came out on my chin.
Noticed , I easily get tired more than normal. There are tasks I could usually do without feeling too tired. But now, I just feel tired.
Constant headaches with no apparent cause.
And now, my girlfriend feels the same, even though, its just been two weeks.

I know the only sure way is to go get tested. But damn!! I'm scared

Am I being overly paranoid, or Anxious.
Have you been through such a scare and how did you manage it.

Isnor a death sentence

Vyzz:




Isnor a death sentence

Yea right

the only thing way vex me for your write up be" one thing led to another"... spits

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Oga You Have HIV

sammycashly:
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What will it take you to run a HIV test and put a conclusion to all this confusion?

Even if it's not free, 1000 naira can do it.

@Dilemma247 Look at the mirrior, what is your tongue like?

timid101:
@Dilemma247 Look at the mirrior, what is your tongue like?

Normal, nothing unusual,

Dilemma247:

Normal, nothing unusual,

There is a possibility you don't have HIV. Just some other STD. But still do the test and for other STDs too.

Ciao

Dilemma247:

Normal, nothing unusual,

@ChybuzzDD, what do you think?

Do full std panel test if you have the money. It will bring out the exact problem . It’s not that easy to have hiv bruh .

timid101:


@ChybuzzDD, what do you think?

Even if it's HIV, oral thrush can still be absent, if the HIV is at its early stage.
Oral thrush/candidiasis, as an opportunistic infection, appears when the disease is already advanced(stage3/4).

Let the guy pull himself together and go run a HIV test.

If it's negative, then he can proceed to other tests from there.

Yeah, if it were that easy, i would have done that..
Still trying to get myself together.
waiting for contributions. How did u manage the anxiety. I'm a chronic hypochondriac, this makes my case even worse.

Dilemma247:
Yeah, if it were that easy, i would have done that..
Still trying to get myself together.
waiting for contributions. How did u manage the anxiety. I'm a chronic hypochondriac, this makes my case even worse.

I've sent you an email. Reply so we can discuss in private. I also had similar symptoms.

One way or the other you will find out your HIV status. So why are you delaying?Go there and get tested. Life must be lived and not endured.
Besides I do not think you have HIV. Your mind is playing tricks on you.

I have been in exact situation like you and for months my mind keep on playing tricks on me. I will feel fever and hot all over my bother. I will feel pain and heavy headache and even rashes.I even had node in my armpit even though it lasted for only a day. You see the mind is a very powerful instrument that God gave us.it can influence the outcome of our lives.your mind will tell you its HIV and then from no where you will start seeing HIV symptoms all over your body.

One day in the office I made up my mind that I will know the truth and damn the consequence. I pulled myself up and visited FMC and I was directed to heart to heart centre. I narrated my story and told them I need a test. The woman collected my blood sample and right there in my presence she carried out the test and told me I was negative. I went ahead and did hepatitis b and c and syphilis and all was negative. You need to see the joy I had that day.

And then something led me to discover that the tap water I have been drinking has been the problem all along. The water was very bad even though it look cleaner than satchet water. I stopped drinking the water and then little by little the whole symptoms disappeared and I got back my health.

Therefore Mr op you must be courageous as a man. Dont be so much afraid of the unknown that you waste today and not live to the fullest. Take courage and do it to tomorrow and I promise you that you will be fine.

You can pm me if you need to talk with me.

It was how i was feeling lastyear after i went for medical test and security check that will lead to me getting an appointment. Bro after all d check and test, waiting for d appointment letter was an experience oo as my mind kept troubling me dt my result for d test might come out positive and dt will debar me from getting d job -- u know employer wont tell u why u werent employed now. Wen d pressure wanted to kill me couple with d fact dt i had an unending diarrhoea and fatigue. I took my self to a general hospital and demanded for an hiv test. Atleast i must know wat wanted to kill me b4 i die now. It came out negative trust me it was as if the test was a medicine itself cos i hadnt left d place b4 dos awkward feelings sed gud bye to me.since den, no intimacy without protection. Infact no intimacy at all

One of the reasons you're this scared is due to the flings you've had, one thing you should learn is to stay away from casual sex especially if you do not know the status of the person you intend getting down with. Also, when it's over with an ex then it certainly should be over because only on rare cases do people break up without bad energy having been involved. I am not here to preach and even if I were to preach and scold you nothing would change if you're actually HIV positive.
You've read the contributions of others. I'll reiterate some and then proffer my own suggestions. Summon the courage to go have yourself fully tested, if it comes out positive then please take heart, eat healthy meals, buy anti retroviral drugs (I think that's what they're called), do not put yourself in situations where others would contract the virus thereby increasing the spread (most people are careless when it comes to their health), tell your gf your status and advise her to go get tested, apologize to her if she turns out positive (the relationship might end so brave up for that), move on with your life, let your next gf in on your status (whoever will stay will stay)and be super careful with your life! If the result comes out negative then good for you, you'll have to get tested for other things to ascertain what is really wrong with you, I hope you'll learn a lot from this experience. Get tested, that's the first step.

The general internal hotness of the body is as a result of antibiotics abuse

Tumbulum:
One way or the other you will find out your HIV status. So why are you delaying?Go there and get tested. Life must be lived and not endured.
Besides I do not think you have HIV. Your mind is playing tricks on you.

I have been in exact situation like you and for months my mind keep on playing tricks on me. I will feel fever and hot all over my bother. I will feel pain and heavy headache and even rashes.I even had node in my armpit even though it lasted for only a day. You see the mind is a very powerful instrument that God gave us.it can influence the outcome of our lives.your mind will tell you its HIV and then from no where you will start seeing HIV symptoms all over your body.

One day in the office I made up my mind that I will know the truth and damn the consequence. I pulled myself up and visited FMC and I was directed to heart to heart centre. I narrated my story and told them I need a test. The woman collected my blood sample and right there in my presence she carried out the test and told me I was negative. I went ahead and did hepatitis b and c and syphilis and all was negative. You need to see the joy I had that day.

And then something led me to discover that the tap water I have been drinking has been the problem all along. The water was very bad even though it look cleaner than satchet water. I stopped drinking the water and then little by little the whole symptoms disappeared and I got back my health.

Therefore Mr op you must be courageous as a man. Dont be so much afraid of the unknown that you waste today and not live to the fullest. Take courage and do it to tomorrow and I promise you that you will be fine.

You can pm me if you need to talk with me.

My dilemma grows daily. I've been engulfed with fear the past few days. I think about my future and how I would have thrown away all the years of hardwork and perseverance if i happen to test positive.
My family dynamics is a bit complex, and people look up to me.
My girlfriend has been I'll lately. On and off. One week she's okay, the other week she's down.This has never happened to her she says and she complains saying she doesn't know what is wrong with her. And anytime she calls to complain my heart literarily "cuts". I end up crying after the conversation not just because of what it might mean for me, but because I might have unknowingly put someone else on the line.
I still get my headaches which doesn't seem to respond to medication.
I haven't been able to get myself to test as I reckon the sight of an unfavourable result would blow my life into smitherings.
I look for hope in any form, I'm holding on to straws.

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Dilemma247:
My dilemma grows daily. I've been engulfed with fear the past few days. I think about my future and how I would have thrown away all the years of hardwork and perseverance if i happen to test positive.
My family dynamics is a bit complex, and people look up to me.
My girlfriend has been I'll lately. On and off. One week she's okay, the other week she's down.This has never happened to her she says and she complains saying she doesn't know what is wrong with her. And anytime she calls to complain my heart literarily "cuts". I end up crying after the conversation not just because of what it might mean for me, but because I might have unknowingly put someone else on the line.
I still get my headaches which doesn't seem to respond to medication.
I haven't been able to get myself to test as I reckon the sight of an unfavourable result would blow my life into smitherings.
I look for hope in any form, I'm holding on to straws.

I thought you said your gf is still a virgin, that you've not had penetrative sex with her? Then why is she having similar symptoms as yours?

As for you, better go for HIV test immediately. So that if it comes out positive, you'd start medication on time. Don't toy with your life. The sooner the better.

the time you are spending typing is better you use it to walk down to a hospital

gnykelly:
the time you are spending typing is better you use it to walk down to a hospital

He is not serious!

He had been adviced since June to go for HIV test and from one of his comment,he knows that HIV is not a death sentence!

So he need people to sympatize and comment here instead of finding out his RVS.

Face your fear. Test result will clear all doubts.

KelvinCoaster:
He is not serious!

He had been adviced since June to go for HIV test and from one of his comment,he knows that HIV is not a death sentence!

So he need people to sympatize and comment here instead of finding out his RVS.

Thanks for your submission.
However, you happen not to be in my shoes, so I would understand why you think the way you do.

Dilemma247:

Thanks for your submission.
However, you happen not to be in my shoes, so I would understand why you think the way you do.

Ok

I have come far, it isn't easy trying to find out what you know will shatter your life to smitherings if it goes south. Also if its bad, and you choose not to know worse still.
I just received an offer letter from a firm I interviewed some months ago. Offer looks good, and would have to go through medicals soon enough.
I think this is the last push, I would have to personally test before month end before medicals, so I know the way forward.
Negative, I go ahead with medicals.
Positive?

So I summoned courage today, telling myself, anyway it goes life goes on..
Negative. I'd feel relieved.
Positive..I'd learn to see the bright side, I will still be alive at least , not dying any time soon.Besides everyone dies, so why should I kill myself.
Packed up and looked for a lab far away from home.
I inquired how much it will cost to do the test and how long should I be expecting the results. 30minutes tops.
Long story short, took my samples and asked me to wait.
I even wanted to run at a time sef..
The test came even quicker than I thought, I had barely had time to think about my life while sitting and my strategy to pull myself together should the test turn out positive, or whether I should just run , and forfeit my money.
I heard my name loud , my heart sank .This was the end I told myself. I stood up slowly like a rock was on my head and slowly found my way to the desk. I said yes I heard my name, she handed me the result in an envelope. I quickly put it inside my bag and left hurriedly, I don't want to see the result oo make I no go faint inside the lab.
Got home and just lay on my bed. Thinking of what to do.
After some minutes my friends called me on video asking me when I'm coming over (they were both my classmates and left for graduate studies in the US last year), telling me how I dey slack, I suppose don japa too make I hurry.
I shook my head while giving a fake smile , in my heart I said to myself, how do I process visa and all with a positive result , so does this mean my plan of leaving this country next year is gone forever?? I wondered
After the call, I don't know what came over me , I was just angry , I opened the bag , picked up the result , and opened it, saying even if its positive, all die na die.
To my shock I saw NEGATIVE boldly written.


You know the rest!!Yes my dream is alive, and I'm happy after months of torment.

I have an offer letter to sign without fear of medical screening also.

Thanks all.

Congratulations Mate!

Dilemma247:
So I summoned courage today, telling myself, anyway it goes life goes on..
Negative. I'd feel relieved.
Positive..I'd learn to see the bright side, I will still be alive at least , not dying any time soon.Besides everyone dies, so why should I kill myself.
Packed up and looked for a lab far away from home.
I inquired how much it will cost to do the test and how long should I be expecting the results. 30minutes tops.
Long story short, took my samples and asked me to wait.
I even wanted to run at a time sef..
The test came even quicker than I thought, I had barely had time to think about my life while sitting and my strategy to pull myself together should the test turn out positive, or whether I should just run , and forfeit my money.
I heard my name loud , my heart sank .This was the end I told myself. I stood up slowly like a rock was on my head and slowly found my way to the desk. I said yes I heard my name, she handed me the result in an envelope. I quickly put it inside my bag and left hurriedly, I don't want to see the result oo make I no go faint inside the lab.
Got home and just lay on my bed. Thinking of what to do.
After some minutes my friends called me on video asking me when I'm coming over (they were both my classmates and left for graduate studies in the US last year), telling me how I dey slack, I suppose don japa too make I hurry.
I shook my head while giving a fake smile , in my heart I said to myself, how do I process visa and all with a positive result , so does this mean my plan of leaving this country next year is gone forever?? I wondered
After the call, I don't know what came over me , I was just angry , I opened the bag , picked up the result , and opened it, saying even if its positive, all die na die.
To my shock I saw NEGATIVE boldly written.


You know the rest!!Yes my dream is alive, and I'm happy after months of torment.

I have an offer letter to sign without fear of medical screening also.

Thanks all.

What are we celebrating this joyful moments with?