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Do you want to read my story? If yes, let me know in the comment section.


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Have been busy, but I will write it this week.

Feeling sick and depressed. Pray for your nigga...

Now let's go...

Let me digress a little.

My first visit to this forum was triggered by my innate desire to read novels. I love to read novels back then in secondary school - even now. But I want to start reading entrepreneur and self-improvement books.




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After my secondary school, I didn't know where to borrow novels to read, as usual, I decided to look for a platform (online) - where I can constantly read stories and novels, especially romantic and suspense kind of novels.

I searched this site: freebasicdot.com with my then, Asha 200 button phone (that was in late 2014 or so). I came across a lot of sites on Free Basic; Nairaland Forum, Wikihow, and Free Books For World Readers and the list continues. However, I ignored other sites and focused on those three (3) sites - listed above. It was amazing, even though at times - I feel like, "I'm just wasting my time." But, to be honest, I have learned a lot from those sites - both good and bad.


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I started with Free Book For World Reader, I read a lot of novels on that site. One day, I was bored, and I decided to try out new things, I clicked on Nairaland Forum, I didn't bother to check the news on the front page (then, I did not know the meaning of FrontPage), straight, I clicked on literature section - gleaning through the numerous pages and threads, I found Darousmart (the son of thunder) story, I read it to the end and I continued with other stories in Literature Section.

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Whenever I want to read a story, I'll go straight to the literature section. Then, I did not give attention to the other section - it is only the literature section or nothing.

But, in 2017 I made up my mind to check out other sections on Nairaland, so I landed in the Webmaster Section. I saw a thread - created by a moniker (have forgotten the moniker's name) that promised to teach people how to create a free blog, because of my desire to make money online like Linda Ikeji ... Lol..., I picked interest and followed his instructions; I was able to create a free blog. I published stories on the blog for some months and I jump into posting sport, politics, and entertainment news on the blog after a few months of publishing only stories.


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I bought a domain name for the blog, to cut the long story short - I added many things (themes or templates, logo, etc) to the blog with the aid of online tutorials.

The only money I made from the blog was N3,000 from the Adsense account sale. I sold the AdSense for the sum of N6,000, the gain is N3,000 because I bought it from another blogger at the rate of N3,000. The blog's domain expired in 2018 and I partially gave up on blogging, since AdSense ban bloggers from buying and selling AdSense account. I told myself "why should I continue, moreover without Adsense I'd be wasting my time." I left blogging for a while to put much attention to uploading videos on YouTube in 2019. Though it is not yet successful, I will go places - if I can buy a professional camera and learn some SEO.


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2019 for me was all about uploading videos on YouTube and playing games online and earning little cash, but I had to stop gambling (betting) because I was losing now and then. I only played Sportybet twice or so this year.

My story long oo... But cutting it short is what I'm going to do.
In 2018, I gained admission into Uniagric, Makurdi - but till now I did not attend the school because of lack of funds. Father, who was in the position to help, gave up on me. No one to help.

Every time I reminisce about my past experiences, about my higher education, I felt like crying - all the transportation, all the JAMB registration and all the change of course, etc. Are all a waste of time and energy, but I thank God, maybe I would have joined a cult group in Makurdi. You may be surprised, don't be - it was one of those things I used to think of then, to be rugged in school, but I'm now a changed man after going through the say no to cultism thread.

I fell into depression, I was contemplating suicide all the time, but with a consistent prayer from mother and with God's help, I was able to defeat depression and the thoughts of suicide.




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Hard drugs like codeine, emzol, emzoline - all became my best friends. I took all these substances to stop my depression, but it only helps to worsen my situation.

In 2019, I picked interest in Romance Section and this, made my condition worse because I was using every post (sexual-related posts are plenty on this particular section) to masturbate (my Vaseline Crew can relate ... lol). Watch porn, masturbate and the circle continues.

Note: I don't masturbate often again, which means I'm not addicted to it again. If you're battling with masturbation, I have got a thread, you can check it out, go through those tips. They are critical steps I followed to quit the addictive habit of masturbation. I still have other tips, but I’m kind of busy now, but if I have the time, I will start posting tips on that thread soon.


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Continue bro

In January 2020 I came across a post by our oga at the top Ilegend.d in this same romance section. The post was all about making money from home or passive income. Since I liked the idea of making money from home, I started gleaning through all his old posts and I did not regret – I’ve not even read half of his helpful thread sha, I was carried away by his ‘’haters and fun thread.’’ Lol ...



Following his post, I was able to create a KDP account with ease. I wrote a short romance storybook - just for testing. As a newbie (Note: I'm still a newbie. I don't understand anything yet – I said this because I received a lot of messages on WhatsApp concerning this, if you’re confused about anything ask Mr. and Mrs. Google / YouTube) this book took me a full month to finish even though, the word count is not much. No sale and no kenp read. But, I managed to get a few free downloads during the period I put it up for free download.


I was about to give up, luckily, I saw a post by another moniker, the post emphasizes a particular profitable topic, I decided to write on that topic - I made my first sale on the second day of uploading and from that day, I was keen on publishing more books, but procrastination, stress, hunger (hungerbad) and social media distractions won't let me. Will I quit? I don't think so unless Amazon decides to knock me out (and that is what I pray against).


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Meedon:
2019 for me was all about uploading videos on YouTube and playing games online and earning little cash, but I had to stop gambling (betting) because I was losing now and then. I only played Sportybet twice or so this year.

My story long oo... But cutting it short is what I'm going to do.
In 2018, I gained admission into Uniagric, Makurdi - but till now I did not attend the school because of lack of funds. Father, who was in the position to help, gave up on me. No one to help.

Every time I reminisce about my past experiences, about my higher education, I felt like crying - all the transportation, all the JAMB registration and all the change of course, etc. Are all a waste of time and energy, but I thank God, maybe I would have joined a cult group in Makurdi. You may be surprised, don't be - it was one of those things I used to think of then, to be rugged in school, but I'm now a changed man after going through the say no to cultism thread.

I fell into depression, I was contemplating suicide all the time, but with a consistent prayer from mother and with God's help, I was able to defeat depression and the thoughts of suicide.




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Sorry bro, I can feel your pain.......I spent 7+ years at home before gaining admission into the university, not because I didn't use to pass jamb and putme but because I was been denied admission every year, if I didnt use to pass people would have told me to go and marry bit thank God dad didn't give up on me.



But now he wants to give up because he and mum are not on good terms so he thinks the best way to deal with mum is through me since mum doesn't have the financial capacity to sponsor me.

Currently the house is always hot and I go through domestic and verbal abuse and I have thought about suicide several times but it ain't worth it.......I mean I can't give up my Life because of anybody.......my Life is too precious than that (although it's b3eh God that has kept me going coupled with discipline)

There's favoritism between the children and I get blamed for what the other does despite the fact that I am older but the favoritism didn't extend to the area of responsibility but now it's about to.
He still blamed me this evening for what my other sibling did


I am in my 20s and I still get beaten with blue black with belt and wire.

He said it before and he repeated it again few days ago that he was thinking of telling his doctor maybe I should go for injection to step down my brain that I behave like some one with mental disorder........I take all this harsh words in and behave like nothing is wrong because i dare not cry the next thing is for him to take his belt and say "you want to cry abi, you will cry well" so I suck everythimg in, I love to sing and he said I have a bad voice despite the fact that I know there's nothing wrong with my voice but I don't even bother to sing anymore. Do you know what he says? He usually say I sound like "osanyin" I asked him the meaning and he said a name of a demon in Yoruba land. I a lot of times feel choked up and frustrated. He can disgrace me anywhere, and he has started threatening not sending me to school which he does every time we are to resume.
If anyone has ever body shamed me it is him.


I know I maybe clueless but I know GOD understands.


So I thought, now that I am in the picture and things are like this I better not do something stupid because no one would care and my mom might be shattered, don't know of she will cope but is that GOD'S will? No so I will stay to see the GLORY OF The LORD IN THE LAND OF THE LIVING.



Sorry I don't mean to interrupt your story just that I have a heavy heart and I even cried this night so I just need to pour my heart out somewhere so saw your story and decided to share mine.

Thanks.

Please.continue with the story..........I am interested in the reading and blogging aspect.

gloniks:
Sorry bro, I can feel your pain.......I spent 7+ years at home before gaining admission into the university, not because I didn't use to pass jamb and putme but because I was been denied admission every year, if I didnt use to pass people would have told me to go and marry bit thank God dad didn't give up on me.



But now he wants to give up because he and mum are not on good terms so he thinks the best way to deal with mum is through me since mum doesn't have the financial capacity to sponsor me.

Currently the house is always hot and I go through domestic and verbal abuse and I have thought about suicide several times but it ain't worth it.......I mean I can't give up my Life because of anybody.......my Life is too precious than that (although it's b3eh God that has kept me going coupled with discipline)

There's favoritism between the children and I get blamed for what the other does despite the fact that I am older but the favoritism didn't extend to the area of responsibility but now it's about to.
He still blamed me this evening for what my other sibling did


I am in my 20s and I still get beaten with blue black with belt and wire.

He said it before and he repeated it again few days ago that he was thinking of telling his doctor maybe I should go for injection to step down my brain that I behave like some one with mental disorder........I take all this harsh words in and behave like nothing is wrong because i dare not cry the next thing is for him to take his belt and say "you want to cry abi, you will cry well" so I suck everythimg in, I love to sing and he said I have a bad voice despite the fact that I know there's nothing wrong with my voice but I don't even bother to sing anymore. Do you know what he says? He usually say I sound like "osanyin" I asked him the meaning and he said a name of a demon in Yoruba land. I a lot of times feel choked up and frustrated. He can disgrace me anywhere, and he has started threatening not sending me to school which he does every time we are to resume.
If anyone has ever body shamed me it is him.


I know I maybe clueless but I know GOD understands.


So I thought, now that I am in the picture and things are like this I better not do something stupid because no one would care and my mom might be shattered, don't know of she will cope but is that GOD'S will? No so I will stay to see the GLORY OF The LORD IN THE LAND OF THE LIVING.



Sorry I don't mean to interrupt your story just that I have a heavy heart and I even cried this night so I just need to pour my heart out somewhere so saw your story and decided to share mine.

Thanks.

I'm touched by your story. It hurts alot when someone's behave as if they aren't your biological parents. Keep hope alive, I pray God almighty come to your aid.

I got banned yesterday by mods...

I'll complete it today.

gloniks:
Please.continue with the story..........I am interested in the reading and blogging aspect.

Nothing much, but it was fun.

I feel emotional reading this - mine was just 1 year of staying at home and I'm feeling somehow.


It is going to be well bro... You can consider learning a skill, with that you'll keep yourself busy and the thoughts of suicide will be eliminated with time.

Also, prayer and developing a thick skin can play a crucial role in helping you in times of problem.


It is going to be well bro.

gloniks:
Sorry bro, I can feel your pain.......I spent 7+ years at home before gaining admission into the university, not because I didn't use to pass jamb and putme but because I was been denied admission every year, if I didnt use to pass people would have told me to go and marry bit thank God dad didn't give up on me.



But now he wants to give up because he and mum are not on good terms so he thinks the best way to deal with mum is through me since mum doesn't have the financial capacity to sponsor me.

Currently the house is always hot and I go through domestic and verbal abuse and I have thought about suicide several times but it ain't worth it.......I mean I can't give up my Life because of anybody.......my Life is too precious than that (although it's b3eh God that has kept me going coupled with discipline)

There's favoritism between the children and I get blamed for what the other does despite the fact that I am older but the favoritism didn't extend to the area of responsibility but now it's about to.
He still blamed me this evening for what my other sibling did


I am in my 20s and I still get beaten with blue black with belt and wire.

He said it before and he repeated it again few days ago that he was thinking of telling his doctor maybe I should go for injection to step down my brain that I behave like some one with mental disorder........I take all this harsh words in and behave like nothing is wrong because i dare not cry the next thing is for him to take his belt and say "you want to cry abi, you will cry well" so I suck everythimg in, I love to sing and he said I have a bad voice despite the fact that I know there's nothing wrong with my voice but I don't even bother to sing anymore. Do you know what he says? He usually say I sound like "osanyin" I asked him the meaning and he said a name of a demon in Yoruba land. I a lot of times feel choked up and frustrated. He can disgrace me anywhere, and he has started threatening not sending me to school which he does every time we are to resume.
If anyone has ever body shamed me it is him.


I know I maybe clueless but I know GOD understands.


So I thought, now that I am in the picture and things are like this I better not do something stupid because no one would care and my mom might be shattered, don't know of she will cope but is that GOD'S will? No so I will stay to see the GLORY OF The LORD IN THE LAND OF THE LIVING.



Sorry I don't mean to interrupt your story just that I have a heavy heart and I even cried this night so I just need to pour my heart out somewhere so saw your story and decided to share mine.

Thanks.

Bellq:
I'm touched by your story. It hurts alot when someone's behave as if they aren't your biological parents. Keep hope alive, I pray God almighty come to your aid.

Yeah very painful, frustrating and torturing.

AMEN......Thanks bro.

I know there is GOD for me. I know. May he come to my rescue quicker than I think.

Meedon:
I feel emotional reading this - mine was just 1 year of staying at home and I'm feeling somehow.


It is going to be well bro... You can consider learning a skill, with that you'll keep yourself busy and the thoughts of suicide will be eliminated with time.

Also, prayer and developing a thick skin can play a crucial role in helping you in times of problem.


It is going to be well bro.

Thank You......actually I am a female and I eventually gained admission into the university 2 years ago and he knows the pain I went through to have that admission especially considering the fact that I am not a dullard and I kept passing outstandingly in jamb and put me so he knows it will be so painful.......as in damn painful to dropout now.


About learning skills, I learnt shoemaking and bag making (leather) while seeking admission those years and I really love and have passion for it but I don't have equipments and he refused to buy for me and I don't want to do anything promiscuous to raise funds because I know it doesn't pay.

My birthday was January and he didn't wish me a happy birthday and I didn't even notice until August or July he was telling and bragging to his friend that he didn't wish me a happy birthday and I couldn't believe it and he said I should go to my Facebook account to check of he wished me a happy birthday but we lived under the same roof and that means he might not have wished me happy birthday (I didn't notice) if he could brag about it months later.


If I have to raise funds for equipments maybe I will do it online in a legit way that's why I want to know more about blogging cos I have been thinking about it and others for a while but I don't have start up capital to pay for online skills.

He was even telling me that he paid a part payment for one of the tools that I provoked him and he told the seller to remove #500 out of #5000 he deposited out of #15000 and collected his money back and that he wanted to surprise me on my birthday���.

I didn't say a word and he said sometimes back like 2 months ago that I should learn how to beg him which I used to do before but he would still not yield.......(He likes when you are at his mercy)

��� I can go on and on but I would still be saying the tip of the ice berg.

Sorry for this long story but if I need to raise funds I have to learn online skills.....if I consider working as a sales girl I hardly find jobs because I am not sociable.......I tend to keep to myself although I am trying to change that's why I can have the courage to say this here (cos it is unusual)

I tell people I am looking for a Job but I don't get........I am so choked and fed up

I even started regretting not involving in some youthful delinquencies and trying to be a good girl to mum and dad��

But I tried to brush that thought away and I think and strongly believe I did the right thing that will pay off for me assuredly.

And my big mistake➡ was making family the center of my world cos right now I am just alone in my world..........Thank GOD for GOD.


Just pouring my heart out

Sorry.

Sorry for calling you "bro." I don't know you're a female. In the aspect of keeping to yourself, I think you're my female version. It is hard out there if you can't socialize - you'll miss a lot of things, but it is God's mercy that have been seeing me through.


About blogging - you can make research on it with Google and also you may consider checking out Ilegendds thread.



They are a lot of things to learn from his thread in regards to making money online.


God will help us.

gloniks:
Thank You......actually I am a female and I eventually gained admission into the university 2 years ago and he knows the pain I went through to have that admission especially considering the fact that I am not a dullard and I kept passing outstandingly in jamb and put me so he knows it will be so painful.......as in damn painful to dropout now.


About learning skills, I learnt shoemaking and bag making (leather) while seeking admission those years and I really love and have passion for it but I don't have equipments and he refused to buy for me and I don't want to do anything promiscuous to raise funds because I know it doesn't pay.

My birthday was January and he didn't wish me a happy birthday and I didn't even notice until August or July he was telling and bragging to his friend that he didn't wish me a happy birthday and I couldn't believe it and he said I should go to my Facebook account to check of he wished me a happy birthday but we lived under the same roof and that means he might not have wished me happy birthday (I didn't notice) if he could brag about it months later.


If I have to raise funds for equipments maybe I will do it online in a legit way that's why I want to know more about blogging cos I have been thinking about it and others for a while but I don't have start up capital to pay for online skills.

He was even telling me that he paid a part payment for one of the tools that I provoked him and he told the seller to remove #500 out of #5000 he deposited out of #15000 and collected his money back and that he wanted to surprise me on my birthday���.

I didn't say a word and he said sometimes back like 2 months ago that I should learn how to beg him which I used to do before but he would still not yield.......(He likes when you are at his mercy)

��� I can go on and on but I would still be saying the tip of the ice berg.

Sorry for this long story but if I need to raise funds I have to learn online skills.....if I consider working as a sales girl I hardly find jobs because I am not sociable.......I tend to keep to myself although I am trying to change that's why I can have the courage to say this here (cos it is unusual)

I tell people I am looking for a Job but I don't get........I am so choked and fed up

I even started regretting not involving in some youthful delinquencies and trying to be a good girl to mum and dad��

But I tried to brush that thought away and I think and strongly believe I did the right thing that will pay off for me assuredly.

And my big mistake➡ was making family the center of my world cos right now I am just alone in my world..........Thank GOD for GOD.


Just pouring my heart out

Sorry.

@ gloniks you can check this thread


https://www.nairaland.com/5319181/bayubars-method-online-wealth...to-deleted



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Meedon:
@ gloniks you can check this thread


https://www.nairaland.com/5319181/bayubars-method-online-wealth...to-deleted



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Ok I will.......Thanks

Meedon:
Sorry for calling you "bro." I don't know you're a female. In the aspect of keeping to yourself, I think you're my female version. It is hard out there if you can't socialize - you'll miss a lot of things, but it is God's mercy that have been seeing me through.


About blogging - you can make research on it with Google and also you may consider checking out Ilegendds thread.



They are a lot of things to learn from his thread in regards to making money online.


God will help us.

It's alright Lol



I will check it out.



AMEN.........Thanks again bro

gloniks:
Ok I will.......Thanks

You're welicome

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As promised, below are the screenshots those guys sent to me that made me grateful, joyful, thankful. At least those sleepless nights are not in vain and hope one day I will start earning big.

The money could have been enormous, but due to some reasons, it ends up like this. I pray I don't give up halfway, real money deh this online stuff, but knowing and doing the right things will determine whether we are going to succeed or not.



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I'm struggling with it. I don't even understand how it works the way I should - what if I end up knowing how it works.

One thing I noticed about white people is that they don't joke with bad grammar and I know for sure - it is the main reason I'm not selling much.

About the procrastination book that I wrote in June - I got a five (5) star rating from a customer, but no review.


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I can't buy a Grammarly premium account at the moment, many expenses to settle.

My brothers and my sisters - if your grammar is good, don't hesitate to start this publishing thing. I know my problem and only Ilegendd book on grammar will help me, maybe I should save up and buy that book. I seriously need to improve my grammar.





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Say my name

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Thank you all for reading my epistle.



Old School Goalnaldo (how far)

Baba Ilegendd (I hail oo)

Ambitiouschap17 (well done)

Silvoice (I the greet)


gloniks (Oluwa will help us)


Pious101 (Thanks for all your responses)



My first withdrawal from Amazon

I'm out...


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Keep it up. God gat you!


Incase you don't know na me talk

Okay following

Meedon:
Say my name

Lol. Why are you blurring the amount?
Are you afraid kidnappers will carry you??

Well here is my first withdrawal.

When the thing landed, I was feeling like a boss.