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see what i think, is that i felt that i liked him alot, right after it happend. now, i sit back and loo at the whole situation and all that happend was that i forgot my morals and ways. i usually never give in to guys at all. you know what it was, it was like hey he seems like the dream guy, ill take a chance. i never take chances, and now that i have and this is what it got me, i doubt ill be taking anymore any time soon. and yes i am still in high school. im turning 18 in dec. this shit happens to older women every day also. so please dont compare me to a child. because that, i am not. last night when i posted this, i already knew what happend. i knew what i did wrong and im already past him, i just wanted to have others tell me what they thought about it, other mature people. thanks soo much!!

ok i have a problem and i don't know what to do, 

so i had a secret crush on this guy edward since like lat year, i never told ANYONE, everytime i would see him or he would speak to me id get somethin like the butterflies,  but not as deep or w/e, well like i never persued him bcuz i thot it would never happen,  it would be compared to as like a dream type relationship, well 2 wks ago,  on a thursday after school he asked me for a ride home, so i agreed to bring him,  the whole time we were in the car we were talkin about how i never thot id be in that situation before, and other stuff, we pulled up at his house and he asks me what i was doin that day and i actually had nothin to do,  so i said nothing, he asked me to come inside, so we went inside and we talked for like an hour or so,  about so much stuff,  and like we were layin on his bed lookin at the ceiling,  and i was tellin him how my ex played me and,  and out the blue just turned to me and kissed me, like make out kissed,  so i stopped him and grabbed his face, and i asked him, "what are your intentions" and he was lke what i can't kiss you
,  and i was like idk it depends on what you want from me,  because i don't want to get played again, well he kissed me again and i stopped him again and i said "you still didnt answer my question, what is it that you want from me" and he said "man,  ive had a crush on you for the longest, your very very cute and i like u"  let me tell u how, LOST i was, because for once in my life,  i thought i had found like the perfect guy for me,  hes gorgeous, hes athletic, doesnt smoke ciggarettes, hes in school, a senior, hes single, AND HE SAID HE liked me,  so i was like oh my god this might atually happen,, and at first i didnt want to open up,  and i told him " i can't do this, " and he was like what can't u do and all this other crap, well i finally just let myself go, and i took a chance,  i trusted my heart that said let go of ya past,  that whole rest of the day it was perfect,  it was like i dreamed it should be for me,  and it was like we were meant,  yea right , the nxt day, friday,  when i switch classes i usually only see him in between one switch, well fri, he came by me every switch and walked me to my next class and grabbed my hand,  before id walk into my next class hed kiss me, it was like a dream im not kidding,
, well he had work and i had pratice so i didnt see him after school,  sat didnt tlk to him or nothing,  sat night,  i got piss face drunk and got emotional and since he was on my mind i kept textin him,  sayin a bunch of emo stuff to him,  well in the morning sunday i read everything i had texted him and i felt rly rly bad,  so i apoligized to him,  and he called me,  we talked for a while and he told me that he wasnt ready for a relationship yet,  so i was lik ok,  thas cool, its  w/e your not the first person to lead me on then sa ythis to me a few days later,  well i guess he felt bad so he said yea i go to work for 530 do you want to hango ut wit  me til i go to work,  it was like 3 at the time,  so i went to his house and it was like we were talkin again,  and i wound up brinin him to wkr in new orleans,  well i left,  and at like 7 he tected me sayin he got off early and do i want to go see a movie, so i said yea and i picked him up and wound up not bn able to see th movie so i dropped him off , i left went home and didnt talk to him at all,   well monday i was about to walk into school and he texted me sayin so much for walkin to school (because he wanted to work out by runnin to school but it was pourin down raining) so i offered to go get him,  before he texted back with a yes or no i took it upon myself to run to my car and get drenched in the process,  i get to the car and he said no stay at school it don't ry want to go today anyway,  si i was like i just skipped shool for nothing,  OK and he was like it means alot to me that you wuld go out of your way and do something like miss school for me,  sorry are you mad and i said no more like disappointed in myself forskippin school for a boy,  but neway, we didnt tlk the rest of the day, and that night i texted him and was like "it would be so easy to fall in love with you, but i wish you were ready, " i didnt get a reply, come tuesday i saw him at school 3 times and he walked right past me didnt even look at me,
, well end of tuesday he came up to me and was like can i talk to u,  so he pulled me aside and said im not trying to ignore u its just when u mentioned the word love in the text message i didnt know how to react to that because im not even ready to think about love at the moment,(because only a year ago he had gotten out of a 6 yr relationship) and like basically ever since that,  were just like friends but hardly ever talk, 

you don't know how bad i wanted this to work out!!! and it kills me because i want him soooo bad!!! and everyone asks me,  why don't yall go out yall are soooo adorable together yall are like perfect couple,  because its true!!!

Any advice

ok i have a problem and i dont know what to do,

so i had a secret crush on this guy edward since like lat year, i never told ANYONE, everytime i would see him or he would speak to me id get somethin like the butterflies, but not as deep or w/e, well like i never persued him bcuz i thot it would never happen, it would be compared to as like a dream type relationship, well 2 wks ago, on a thursday after school he asked me for a ride home, so i agreed to bring him, the whole time we were in the car we were talkin about how i never thot id be in that situation before, and other stuff, we pulled up at his house and he asks me wat i was doin that day and i actually had nothin to do, so i said nothing, he asked me to come inside, so we went inside and we talked for like an hour or so, about so much stuff, and like we were layin on his bed lookin at the ceiling, and i was tellin him how my ex played me and, and out the blue just turned to me and kissed me, like make out kissed, so i stopped him and grabbed his face, and i asked him, "wat are your intentions" and he was lke what i cant kiss you
, and i was like idk it depends on what you want from me, cuz i dont wanna get played again, well he kissed me again and i stopped him again and i said "you still didnt answer my question, what is it that you want from me" and he said "man, ive had a crush on you for the longest, your very very cute and i like u" let me tell u how, LOST i was, cuz for once in my life, i thought i had found like the perfect guy for me, hes gorgeous, hes athletic, doesnt smoke ciggarettes, hes in school, a senior, hes single, AND HE SAID HE liked me, so i was like oh my god this might atually happen,, and at first i didnt want to open up, and i told him " i cant do this, " and he was like what cant u do and all this other crap, well i finally just let myself go, and i took a chance, i trusted my heart that said let go of ya past, that whole rest of the day it was perfect, it was like i dreamed it should be for me, and it was like we were meant, yea right , the nxt day, friday, when i switch classes i usually only see him in between one switch, well fri, he came by me every switch and walked me to my next class and grabbed my hand, before id walk into my next class hed kiss me, it was like a dream im not kidding,
, well he had work and i had pratice so i didnt see him after school, sat didnt tlk to him or nothing, sat nite, i got piss face drunk and got emotional and since he was on my mind i kept textin him, sayin a bunch of emo stuff to him, well in the morning sunday i read everything i had texted him and i felt rly rly bad, so i apoligized to him, and he called me, we talked for a while and he told me that he wasnt ready for a relationship yet, so i was lik ok, thas cool, its w/e ur not the first person to lead me on then sa ythis to me a few days later, well i guess he felt bad so he said yea i go to work for 530 do you want to hango ut wit me til i go to work, it was like 3 at the time, so i went to his house and it was like we were talkin again, and i wound up brinin him to wkr in new orleans, well i left, and at like 7 he tected me sayin he got off early and do i want to go see a movie, so i said yea and i picked him up and wound up not bn able to see th movie so i dropped him off , i left went home and didnt talk to him at all, well monday i was abt to walk into school and he texted me sayin so much for walkin to school (cuz he wanted to work out by runnin to school but it was pourin down raining) so i offered to go get him, before he texted back with a yes or no i took it upon myself to run to my car and get drenched in the process, i get to the car and he said no stay at school it dont ry wanna go today anyway, si i was like i just skipped shool for nothing, OK and he was like it means alot to me that you wuld go out of ur way and do something like miss school for me, sorry are you mad and i said no more like disappointed in myself forskippin school for a boy, but neway, we didnt tlk the rest of the day, and that nite i texted him and was like "it would be so easy to fall in love with you, but i wish you were ready, " i didnt get a reply, come tuesday i saw him at school 3 times and he walked right past me didnt even look at me,
, well end of tuesday he came up to me and was like can i talk to u, so he pulled me aside and said im not tryna ignore u its just whenu mentioned the word love in the text message i didnt know how to react to that cuz im not even ready to think about love at the moment, and a bunch of other stuff and like basically ever since that, were just like friends but hardly ever talk,

you dont know how bad i wanted this to work out!!! and it kills me cuz i want him soooo bad!!! and everyone asks me, why dont yall go out yall are soooo adorable together yall are like perfect couple, cuz its true!!!

Any advice email me goldenoppurtunity05@yahoo.com with the subject (some advice for you and edward)