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All this because of only 5 interesting things about South Africa out of so many more? It makes one wonder who is really jealous and envious.

Smh

Austindumas1:
the world may soon lose another soul, I know I'm not important anyway.
I've tried all my life to be stable for once, right from childhood I struggled, no family, no friend, I assured myself it will get better buh it doesn't, as I get older, it seem the truckload of depression multiplies, I look in to the future all I see is a dark Paradise, each night I pray and cry myself to sleep, what could be my crime?
why was I created? I'm told we all have purposes here, what's mine? I don't know.
I have no relationship with anybody, I'm so lonely, I've struggled so much, I think its time I get some peace,something I've never knew, I feel ashamed to tell people what I go through each day, I'm like a stranger here.
Waking up each day is no longer my wish
anymore, as I'm tired of living
Nothing seems to work for me again,
I just want to escape from this world and bury
my shame
Frustrated and hopeless

I just logged in only for you. From the time I started reading your post, I automatically knew you had chronic depression. Please try and get some medication for anxiety and depression they usually go together. Trust me not many people will understand when you say you feel alone. You could feel alone in a room full of laughter and joy, it's the nature of the beast. Think of yourself a little couse the burden you carry is a huge trigger. Get yourself well so you can take care of your family.

Am not sure how your health system works like but at this point you really need medication just to boost you up to gain your focus and strength. Speak to someone you trust and just let it out. It's easier to manage when you're on treatment. Skip buying something and save for Nuzak (it could be called something else there), hope you can find it where you are. Within a week or 2 you will slowly feel like yourself again. It's one of the more affordable pills I could think of now and doesn't have a lot of side effects.

Try and avoid depressing news or negative people as much as you can but DO NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT TAKING YOUR LIFE. It does get better overtime, just hold on.

Am praying that you be strong little brother, YOU CAN BEAT THIS!

makydebbie:
And I wish you the best too. It's well, just remember it's a phase and it's not forever. It's for a while. You shall overcome. Have a nice day dear.

Thanks hun, you have no idea what all the words of encouragement I have received here, have done for me. I cried a lot for the first time while reading your responses and a while longer after. Meaning I was in denial all this time. But I feel much better now. Maybe I needed to cry as sign of accepting the reality. It is a phase. Have a glorious day too!

Cc; Baby124, Blade21

Thanks all. I think I have received great advice and cannot expect more than this. Many blessings to all those who made time to offer your kind words.

It is well.

makydebbie:
Hy dear, with the way things are going, you'll end up being his baby mama. The relationship is over in my opinion. Because I don't get why he's saying it won't work and yet he can't get over you in bed. He prolly knows you love him and he is scared of letting you go. But truth is, you've done your part and since it's not working plus you think he has a girl now, you should let go. We know these things are not easy, but what can we do? We learn everyday. BTW, I think you should get yourself busy with things or work, so as to get over him soonest. God help you.

Thanks dearest for your kind words. I am hurting I do not want to lie but even the hurt will pass with God's help. It's true I know this but it's difficult to acknowledge it when you hope for something else. I also know that sometimes God removes people from our lives for a reason. I do wish him the best.

Blade21:
sending you E hugs be very strong OK all the best

Thanks

Blade21:
hi dear the relationship is over obviously he just doesn't know how to let you go so as not to hurt you considering the fact you have been together for a long while so please dear move on he expects you to code so move on he already told you his mind, don't ever force love you will only end up hurting and demeaning your self more and please stay off sexual relationship for now and just breathe. God is your strength

Thanks for your advice. I will definitely let it be. I am not good at begging anyways hence I felt I didn't do enough to rescue it perhaps. Yes you right, I need to really stay off relationships. All is well.

baby124:
You have done enough. Move on. He will only lead you on and may not end up marrying you since you don't want to let go. He will just be chopping you for free. Let it go! Don't go and demean yourself further just so the relationship can work. It won't. The guy even called the girl in your presence. Just quietly move on. You don't even need to tell him. Love is just a feeling, you will find love again.

Lol, imagine the free chopper. I hear you dear. Am actually tearing as I read this. It will pass. Thanks again dearest. He didn't call her she called.

He'll probably see this I think he visits as a guest from time to time.

baby124:
Let it go. Try to find someone in your location. All will be well.

I hear you but it's easier said than done. I'm struggling with the feeling of maybe i haven't done enough to try and rescue the relationship.

God knows, this moving from relationship to the other is not my thing. I feel like if this one is over I am done with men.

baby124:
You will never get the closure you seek. Just move on.

Thanks for your advice. So you think the relationship is over? You think he meant what he said initially?

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