I totally know you are coming from! I have asked for advice as well about that. I'm dating a super sweet guy for the past six months, however... there is the married man. I met him at work October 2019 and ever since then, we talk at least a few times a week. Sometimes it is less, but I am okay with it. I legitimately fell in love with him last year, but after realizing that the relationship would never be legit forced me to get the thought out of my head. Even to this day, I still deep down am in love with him or at least emotionally attached to him. We have come to a solution that we should be fwb at this point. We are both available to speak to each other at any time, but it definitely can be hard.

It's kind of hard for me to give solid advice since I am doing the same thing. He toyed with my heart for a year and I was too blinded by love to realize it. Knowing how he is has made it a lot easier for me the communication is much better and I know he'll always be here for me if I need him.
My boyfriend has no idea obviously and I sometimes have the thought in my head to tell him, but I at the same time can't since we all work at the same place... There's a lot of issues being attracted to a married man more than my own boyfriend, but we can't control our feelings sadly. There are days where I wish I never met him, but he still makes me happy despite all of the pain he caused for several months.

I feel like I'm not happy with my boyfriend emotionally and physically. Simply because he's not him. I am 22 and the married man is 33. My boyfriend is 20, so the age difference definitely sticks out for sure. I know how much he loves me and I don't want to hurt him, but I have had many people tell me to have a discussion with him, telling him that I've been cheating on him.

I guess the only advice I can give is go with your heart.