My story is gonna be a long one so please don't mind any typographical errors I make.

Life as they say is a like a wave, you never know where it's gonna take you, I am the only boy out of a family of four siblings and I can say I was very intelligent while growing up, I passed through primary and secondary school with flying colours to the extent that I had a scholarship and was given double promotion while I was in secondary school.

I gained admission to the higher institution to read a medical course in one of the prestigious universities in the South west and this was where my problems started, I was doing well in my first year because I had a GPA of 4.58 in my second semester .Then I started having this strange dreams where I was shot, or I'd be seeing strange animals or mad people chasing me in the dream ,I woke up drenched in sweat and muttered a quick prayer not knowing it was the beginning of the end for me.

I can't explain it but in 200L I found myself not going to school anymore , I lost interest in school totally and would just leave the house to hang around anywhere I deem fit, my life was a mess at this point cos my mates were already writing semester exams and when they called me to ask after me I lied that I gained admission to another school, this went on for 2years and in 2017 I came back to my senses. I went back to school to appeal to them to take me back and what I heard from my H.O.D shocked me to the bone.

The H.O.D told me that I wrote the 1st and 2nd semester exams in 200L and also both semester exams in 300L and I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw my results. It was unbelievable because I didnt sit for the exams and I don't understand how I was seeing a ton of F's in my result sheet....I was even shown where I signed indicating that I sat for the exams.

I stay with my elder sis and mom and they were devastated when they learnt that I was no longer a student at the University, I wept and cried bitterly because I couldn't understand the direction my life was going.

The evil dreams continued to plague me and I decided to surrender to Jesus but it's been so difficult because I hardly pray and study my Bible , I became a porn addict and feeling of depression has threatened to wreck my life in pieces...I managed to get a job through one of our church members as a dishwasher in Wema bank catering , and I was shocked when I saw one of my secondary school seniors walk through the door to eat at the canteen, I tried to hide my face from her but it was too late cos she had already seen me.

She asked what I was doing serving food at a canteen in WEMA bank and I couldn't utter a word. I got home that night and wept bitterly. I don't understand why my life is turning out this way , it's like everything i do ends up failing.My dad's senior brother who was a banker in 1986 disappeared into thin air and hasn't been found till date.

Please nairalanders I just need help on how to stop pornography so I can concentrate on fighting the ancestral demons plaguing my life. Am so depressed right now because it's been 9years since I finished secondary school and I have nothing to show for it.....no skills learnt nothing tangible has been achieved in the last 9years...