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I have this weird obsession with work lately, is it because what I’m working on is at it’s last tranche?, that’s all I do all day. the goal is to round up everything before the month ends.

My dad is back, can’t wait for him to leave to be honest, I love living alone and knowing I’m the only one in the house

I will start an offline business soon, selling food precisely, there is a lot of demand where I live , I’ll hire someone to run the business and I’ll manage, all of the money I made apart from my job is online, I want to diversify, I’ve got some bread coming in next week and my limbic brain is suggesting I update my wardrobe, it’s always like this with me when it comes to making hard decisions but I’ve already made up my mind, oflline business it is.

I’ve secured a nice place already and I’ve got an idea of who employee #1 should be, next on my list is to lock down supplies from a vendor.

It’s nothing fancy, just a stall with a guy behind it selling stuffs, I’ve run my numbers and profit should be around 20-30% per day, labor is very cheap where I live, lots of employees are earning 30-45K/Mo.

I’m still not done with the Freelance Project, I’m still hacking away at it, I haven’t touched my own startup
Repo yet.

Just got back home from work and lying on the bed, I’m gonna go cook lunch and dinner and then back to my work sofa.

My Fam left yesterday, the house is kind of empty and serene, I helped a friend get connects on his Upwork account, he’s been on my neck for a while.

I need a new Laptop Bag, I’ve seen some cool ones on Instagram, I also want to activate my Apple Music subscription by tomorrow, buy Cerave sunscreen and moisturizer at the super market too.

I’m kinda reconnecting with my school friends on Snapchat lately , I enjoyed chatting with Zee the other day, she’s working now, really amazing looking at how far she came.

Zion is a sales rep too handling tickets and sales for a travel agency, all of my gs are paid, stuffs i like to see.

My girlfriend came over yesterday and slept in my house, she’s turning 20 this year, I’m thinking of getting her Marc and Jacobs sunglasses for her birthday or give her ca$h, I don’t even know where it leads but I’m enjoying the ride.

Life Lately

I’ve reserved the company’s name on the CAC website.

I’ve applied for a startup pitch in my city, I’m very much sure I’ll win, my application is strong and I’m well ahead of the ideation stage, winning this pitch will help me get started faster, prayers are up.

I’m almost done with the Freelance project I’m working on, deadline is Wednesday.

Been binge drinking Arabian tea too at a joint near my house.

I remember coming across Mark Essien’s blog when I was getting started in tech in 2020, he just raised 1.5M for hotels.ng, I followed him on X and read all of his blog posts too, I also stalked other Tech Entrepreneurs then like Tayo Oviosu and Shola.

I liked Ezra’s blog also because he come across like a guy that don’t give a fucck and will do what exactly he wants, he still haven’t changed after the Paystack exit.

It felt like a passive behavior then as I’ll binge read tech twitter or these guys blogs when I take break from learning code but looking back now it’s actually the reason why I want to build, to see the stuffs I’m made up.

I don’t think I’ll ever be fulfilled if I didn’t tow this path.

Red Queen Race

I’m running at the same pace I was one year ago and I am still stuck at the same phase, working on projects, writing code, I might catch a break here and there and life is kind of good and comfortable but I want more, I was listening to ‘Legacy’ by Jay Z and it connects with me on a deep level because that’s exactly what I’m going through in my life at this point.

“It took all these years to get to zero in fact”

“You run this hard just to stay in place”

I look back at all these years bro, it’s just me working extremely hard to put food on the table, cover some life basics, but I’m not really moving closer to my dreams (Building a Tech Company).

I had to fight my addictions, clean up and learn skills, i still get a long way to go, but I’m sort of tired of the pendulum swing, I want to reach the destination.

Winnerrrr:
I'm creating a simple portfolio site with pure CSS and HTML.

NEPA took off the light, I could have finish up today.

I'll talk about my stand on the training tomorrow.

Five years ago I started learning to code simply one of the best decisions I’ve made as a 19 years old.

the calm before the storm

PerfectStranger:
Wait, I'm getting the training via YouTube? Like virtually? How will that aid my proficiency? Is that even possible? How much can I budget to acquire it for the 6 month?

Go to roadmap.sh and pick a path and then for every milestone(topics, concepts) on the roadmap you find the contents on youtube to learn with.

It's arduous but it will build your research skills.

Or you can go through a coding school if you prefer structural learning like AltSchool or ALX Africa.

PerfectStranger:
OK what's the duration it will take me to complete the training and how much can i pay for it?

Depends on the time you invested, if you're putting in 5 hours a day, you can be 'job ready' in 6 months.

And on Training, you can buy a course on Udemy or use Youtube to learn, I'd recommend Brad Traversy and Freecodecamp Channels, they are based.

PerfectStranger:
I want to acquire a digital skill by next month. Which would you advice I go for and which is hot in the tech market and lucrative as well, pls intimate me on the whole thing,thanks.

Was thinking of graphic design but someone said it isn't hot in the market.

Software Development, go to roadmap.sh and pick a path, the traditional path is Frontend->Backend->Mobile.

Then you can decide whether you want to get a job or build a startup.

great insights, it's true there's nothing new in the Nigeria's or I'll dare say Africa's tech ecosystem, we are not building from 0 to 1.

After Paystack sold for 200M$ everyone and their Mama got into Fintech, it's funny though as you stated, up till now, the 'cross border' payment issue is still unsolved.

Nigeria specifically should adopt China's tech model, which is basically building local solutions that can take over the local market, for example, why do we have to use Uber, Bolt and Indriver, why not a Nigerian e-hailing app and so much more.

I'm working on start up too for over three years, and I'd say working with Nigeria's developers sucks balls, I'm currently a one man team, chatgpt made things incredibly easier.

Big 24

I turned 24 in December, I'm becoming an old man, 23 felt like yesterday, I woke up on my birthday feeling great, I've won one of the biggest battles of my life, war against Porn and Masturbation, last year was a trying period, I got laid off and laid on from work, my Girlfriend moved cities, my company didn't pan according to plan, relapsed from Porn and Masturbation but finally won against it.

I bought my dream PC too, it's so sleek and I named her 'Coding Gun Kelly', I lived alone in the house too, fed, fend and clothe myself too safe for the occasional visit of my family for 5 to 6 days, I learnt how to survive alone.

Met new people through the 3MTT training I Instructed, amazing fellas.

My Year 23 didn't stand out, it was full of ups and downs, I'd say it's a year of putting things together.

Goals

My goal for this year is only one, scale my startup to 10K users, that's my main goal and nothing else.

I've got some side quests though but nothing major, I've grown a like for fashion and I'm changing my wardrobe completely this year, all of my money are going into my company and my wardrobe, looking back at 2024, I'm not proud of my self presentation, my hair and sideburns were all over the place, I was lazy in putting in effort on how I look, and I'm sure going to change it this year.

Other stuffs are there already I'm just gonna continue riding the wave, stuffs like: Fitness (I still got my six packs and defined jawlines) all thanks to daily push-ups, eating clean home cooked meals, learning (autobiographies, articles, posts and videos).

Money. MONEY

I've got things dialed up here too, I clear 2.2x of the salary I started with monthly now, also I've got the training thing going on, pays decent, I also got a web development gig I'm working on, I'm not at the 'f*ck you money' level but I'm good.

My whole philosophy about money is to never work for it, but build systems that bring them you, like business, art (music, books, artwork) etc or outsourced services.

The job and the gigs I'm involved in are just temporary or a means to an end, until I get my business going, it helps keep me on my toes.

Family

My family is good, Dad got a promotion recently, always moving in silence haha, he didn't tell me, my bro did, that man is very casual and don't like to announce or talk much, unless he's overexcited, which mostly wanes immediately, I just wish we can be open and free with each other the way I am with my bro.

My mom's good too, we haven't talked in a while, last time I saw her, she have started growing some nasolabial lines, I teased her with that and she laughed, amazing woman.

my bro is gearing up for jamb and waec this year, godspeed, last time we talked he told me he don't even know which course to study, I told him to follow his mind, he also told me he's killing it with his faceless youtube channel, I'd get him a laptop when next I'm home, March definitely.

I have a soft spot for these people, even though they annoy me sometimes with their decisions or how they handled some things in the past my parents specifically, I guess absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Work

My life revolves around work and more work these days, job, gigs and my startup.

I'm building it from scratch one more time, I'm using NextJS this time around, learning and coding at the same time, the MVP should be ready by the month end or early February.

I think I should write more, I want to document how it come together.

dauntless15:
sure pm me

done

this is supposed to be posted in Webmasters Forums.

dauntless15:
Surveys and research, atleast 10pounds a day is sure.

I'm interested in this, can I mention you on a dead thread? I've been thinking of getting an RDP this month for Prolific specifically, I've seen a lot of people pulling good numbers from it on Reddit.

Laid Off

I got laid off from my job early July, they did it in a democratic way though , the place is actually owned by a former Minister.

"She said you should submit your CV, she'll help look for a job for you" the Director told me the other day, prior to that my intuition told me my days are over at the firm, I even wrote it in my Phone's notes, I wasn't surprised, I had plans of leaving already, I saw the game and I played along, I printed out my CV and submitted to him the next day, he said, "Great, I'll submit to her and also you don't have to continue coming here" , I said "okay", faked a smile and left, it rained that day. I felt free. I had money, I bought food from an Eatery and spent the day playing music and dancing , I wasn't fazed at all, my Dad was more worried than I, asked me how I'm going to survive, endless panic/fear induced questions, I just told him I'll be good.

Often times, I wonder if I'm his true son to be honest, I'm nothing like him, he's too moral, religious and careful, he don't take risks, don't have much friends and talk less, I saw some of his undergraduate pictures the other day where he was laughing hysterically, spotting a cap and a slim body build, there was a lady to his left and some friends, could it be that LIFE humbled him? I'm not close enough to him to ask these personal questions, I wish I can. But then he's successful, own houses, at the top of his career, married a beautiful lady. Could it be Religion?

Back Home

After a Month of being laid off, I went back home, everyone was happy to see me, I spent a lot of quality time with my bro, I started contributing to pay the bills, I was also saving money, I had plans to buy a new Laptop because the one I was using was my office's and I gave it back when I left, I also reconnected with my Girlfriend, what stuck with me was I had quality time with people that matters to me, I remember the other day we spend close to 45 minutes talking with her, it was amazing, my day was pretty typical, workout, eat, read a book, talk with my family and take an evening walk.

One day, my Dad entered my room and told me to call the Minister Lady about the Job, talmabout how it's been over a month and there is no any update "I'm just sitting at home wasting time", "But I contribute to the bills", "Yeah but blah, blah, blah".

"You don't have to call me, just be checking your mails" she said sparingly and hung up, I hated myself for a few seconds after I dropped the phone.

For once, I started feeling unwanted, like my Parents are tired of me hanging around, my Mom also asked me when I'm going back, it's crazy though, because I'm not a burden at all to them, I have my own room too , can't even remember the last time I asked any of them for money, I'm also contributing to the bills, maybe it could be societal pressure, they don't want others to see their First Child at home doing nothing, well, I said f*ck it and planned to move at the month end.

About a day or two after that, I got selected as a SWD facilitator for 3MTT Programme, I was like cool, let's get it, I also got called from my workplace to come help them out on a Project.

Laid On

I made a lot of money within July and August, I was also able to save, the other 1 million Project came through too, I'm as liquid as water now, I haven't worked on my Company for more than six months, just dealing with life blows, stability is back now, as soon as I'm done with this project, I will be back to taking names like a champ.

All things being equal I should be quitting the rat race completely by December ending, I want to start bringing in clients myself and then run the company, I hate working for others bro, when I'm at work, I'm in constant rage, everything piss me off, the building, staffs, the mindless tasks that don't mean shit assigned to me.

I want to be my own man, making money for myself without anyone telling me what to do, I began to realise also how docile I'm becoming like sometimes I have to go talk to some random chicc or tell someone to f*ck off in order to obliterate all the garbage I've been hearing at work.

Might also be the reason why my Dad is the way he is, he's been in the corporate world for more than 35 years, and all the confidence, spontaneity, guts, balls and awesomeness are gone in the sewer.

My Team is Winning

My girl got a big job in Abuja, she's a hard worker and she deserve it to be honest, she's a six figure baby now, lols,I hope she keeps on getting successful in everything she does, can't even measure how much love I have for her, she's an amazing lady and a pure soul, in all of my frolicking escapades with chiccs, I've never been upclose with an amazing girl like her, I know Abuja boys will definitely snatch her from me, I'm not delusional.

My home boy got a remote job too that pays high six figures, guy's been grinding for a very long time, it finally paid off, bro was so stressed about money late last year, told him it was just a matter of time and it all paid off now.

Masturbation and Porn

I can't remember the last time I did these two f*ckers, I printed out a calendar where I tick off everyday, I've racked up a lot of wins lols, it's crazy though, early this year I never thought I will be able to pull it off. Staying off porn made me more aggressive towards life, it also spill into other areas of my life, my dieting has improved drastically, I eat cleaner and also get sh*t done on time.

You are Fvcked!

Some months back, The education minister said, all Degrees from Benin Republic are invalid, the Director told me to go enroll to Open University or Polytechnic, lols. I said Okay. I know better, I don't have plans of being a peasant where a degree is going to determine if I'm going to get paid or not, you can't pay me any amount to go back to Uni.

Whew, I have been writing for the past one hour, I think I need to be writing more here.

I Like

I had a phone conversation with my partner on Friday, I suggested we launch the company on Facebook, test the idea with ads and get people familiar with the brand through our FB page and campaigns, it'll help buy some time to finish the main app.

The number one thing stalling the progress is hosting, I used EBS and RDS on Amazon web service which was smooth, unfortunately my free trial ended, and they kept on sending me invoice to pay up, they ended blocking my account so I lost the whole database🤯

Lately, I've been making some researches on other alternatives and I've found some decent options.

1) Clever Cloud: to host our mySQL database, has a free tier but it's basically useless, can only take on 10 connections and has around 10MB ram, their paid plan starts at 5$ a month for 500MB ram, which is pretty decent.

2) Render: To host the node app, they have a free tier too but it gets slower when it's not active for 50 seconds, their standard plan costs 7$ a month and also has a CI/CD and GitHub integration which makes it easy to just push changes live, amazing feature since the app is constantly going to be updated.

3) Aiven: It's a free mySQL hosting platform too with a free for life plan, it has over 2GB ram and unlimited connections, I'll definitely migrate to Aiven.

So, it'll cost just 7$ to host the app monthly on Render, I've demo it for my partner and everything worked, but there's still two peculiar features I'll want to implement before we go live again.

I'm pumped up already, I'll start posting on the Facebook page tomorrow and see how it goes.

Money

I've got a development gig lined up for me that'll pay around 1Million, largest bread I've ever made, deposit will be made next week, I'll have no money problems for some few months which feels good, I also have thoughts of quitting my job, I make more than my monthly income in a month from home, why not turn in a resignation letter and be free?

Lots of workplace politics and career bozos T the office also, plus I have to be there from 9 to 4 everyday, I mean the money is good but I'll always optimize for low pay + freedom to high pay without freedom, I want to build my startup, that's all I want to do right now but I'll definitely give this a deep thought.

I've solved my money problems to a large extent, I make enough to eat healthy, pay for gym and buy internet and that's all I need for now, I don't need much money now to be honest, I want wealth.

Girlfriend

My girlfriend finally called me and we ironed things out lols, she came to my office on Thursday and Friday, looking super sexy damn, we had a great time, I like the idea of loving her but I'm genuinely afraid of commitments, I've got enough pressure already from the company, I'll just play along, who knows where it'll lead to.

Also, had to break up with a new girl I met a month ago, she's obsessed with me, calls me everyday, wants to meet etc, when I first saw her, I was like let me see if I can still rizz chiccs, I made the move and got her number, ever since she's been on my neck, I played along for some weeks, had some intimate sessions with her but no secs though, I foresee where it's leading too and I don't want her to think I want us to date and all.

I Had to start forming busy but she didn't get the message, so had to come straight with her today and break things up, feels bad now but I know it's best for both of us in the long term.

Porn and Masturbation

What more can I say? I've taken another vow, the fight goes on till I win, I'm no more counting, I've just stopped.

Gym

Went to the Gym last week at the state's stadium, met a lot of buff boys, asked around and I was told yearly subscription is 2,000(ridiculous, right?) and weekly fee 200, they've got some decent equipment, I'll def enroll next month, I'm currently doing 100 push ups everyday at home.

Parents

I'm getting my moms and brother new phones when I get back home soon, I talk to my Dad almost daily, my relationship with my family strengthens when I'm away, I miss home and I want to talk to them all day, but when I'm at home, I just want to be alone.

I'll definitely also do something stupid if I'm not able to quit porn and masturbation completely this month, I'm fed up with the failures, last time I got to day 52 and I quit what sort of foolishness is that, why wasn't I able to see all of the sacrifice and just persevere, why didn't I just go out and talk to someone or have a cold bath, why did I give in?

Life's giving me lemons and I can't seem to turn them into lemonades, I need a foocking grinder.

Winnerrrr:
Next week by this time, my web app will be up and running, I'm done coding it, currently working on hosting it on AWS, I'm building a startup and I'll journal each and every step here, WHY? To serve as a template for anyone that wants to take this path in the coming years and to prove myself.

'I knew I could do it, I needed the proof' this diary will serve as that, 'Proof'.

I'm 22 years old now and I plan on making my company a multi million dollar company by 30, I believe my idea is noble and has the capacity of changing the world for good.

What I've done from idea inception till date is:

1) Built an MVP

2) Tried finding a co-founder but all the people I talked to turned out to be either bozos or retards that just want to play short term games, they all want to get jobs or freelance, whatever.

3) Learnt how to run a business by reading a lot of books from authors like Eric Ries, Andrew Chen, Peter Thiel, Felix Dennis and Naval Ravikant.

4) Structured my life in a way that let me focus on important tasks only that moves the needle, this means I cut off anything that will distract me or take away my time.
I) No hanging out with bozos(Friends, Family, Acquaintances etc).
II) No social media(Except NL for updating my journal).
III) No relationships of any sort(cut off my girlfriends).
IV) No jobs or freelance work.

5) Say 'NO' to almost everything that's not building 'the business' .

But Winner why though? Because I want to win, I'm all in, I don't want to wake up 2 years from today and be thinking about where I could've, should've or would've been, I want to get rich and make the world a better place in my own way.

A little above one year after posting this, I still haven't started my company officially, the app is down, I lost the database with all of our users information, Amazon suspended my free trial account due to outstanding charges, two people left the company, it's only me and one other guy (we went to the same uni).

I've read all of my posts after making this post, the number one thing I noticed in my other posts is lack of consistency, I dabbled into many things, Forex, TFT, Trading Competition et all and it's not part of my mission, why wasn't I able to stick to my Start up?

I'm I afraid it might fail? Why?

It's a year already and I'm no where close to where I want to get to, a lot of things happened in the past year, but I take responsibility for it all.

I'm currently in a better position to move forward, most of what's creating roadblocks in my journey is finance, I have an income now so it isn't a problem anymore.

I need a new game plan, the next coming months need to count, I want to finish this year strong.

What's tugging at my heartstrings is I've not even test the idea yet, I'm still at the MVP stage all these years, it hurts me and makes me want to punch the wall.

I failed big time, I lost my streak, I've started again.

Day 43 Checked Road to 50

I'll get myself the Adidas Adillettes when I hit day 90, it's fasting period now, nothing much has been going on because you don't even eat at all talk less of thinking about watching some Porn or jerking off lols, nothing's happening at my Job too, so I work on the Company when I'm at the office most times, fixing bugs and getting ready to relaunch again this weekend.

We've made a lot of progress in sorting out how the marketing will be like, I've brought in a guy to handle it, I've got some money saved up that I'll dump on ads.

What I've learnt lately is you can't do it all, there's only 24 hours in a day, and out of that you only get around 16 hours minus sleep, you go to work, eat, shit, talk to other people, clean and you are very productive if you can carve out 6 hours of deep work out of that.

if you want to build a company, how many 6 hours will it take to build, market, scale it and all? probably your whole life.

But when you bring in other people on Salary or Equity, they get to work in your name, I've got an engineer on my team putting in 4 hours daily, I'll bring in one guy too to work on the Mobile App, he'll work part time too, and that'll sum it up to 8 hours of labor divorced from my time.

Your number one priority as a CEO is growth, everything else should be outsourced, it took me a year to learn this, hadn't been I know this last year, we could've made tremendous progress, because I was trying to do everything myself, code, reaching out to users, can't work out a win win deal with others etc.

Man like Jeff Bezos has 1.5 million employees working in his name, if each of them is putting 5 hours of work a day, how many years of work are they getting done in a day? Is it surprising that Jeff is a Centa Billionaire? hell no. Leverage is everything in building an enterprise.

I still haven't interviewed the guys that applied for the mobile developer position yet, I'm working on getting the app back first.


My Girlfriend

We haven't talked in days, I can't pick up the phone and call her and she won't budge either, I'm too busy working and scheming, I don't really care about the relationship though, I hope she get the memo and move on.

I don't really think I'll marry, or live in the same house with a girl, bro that's too easy, I'll definitely slack off and lose my shirt, I prefer to date casually, like 2 to 3 months then break up, get back to work, kick ass, take some names and date another girl again, that sort of thing.

And for the past year or two that's what I've been doing, I don't want to be binded with a girl forever come on, that can only be my moms.

Body Building

I need to start building up my muscles, I currently look like a model, tad bit skinny, defined jaws and muscles but I could use some more flesh, there's a gym around my house, I'll definitely register after Ramadan and start getting buffed.

What prompted this was, I went to hang out with a friend and they have this little gym where they duke it out at home, I did some bench presses and squats, and boy o boy, the next day my body ached like crazy, and I thought that's great, I need more of this.

This is to notify you that this user made it to day freaking 30, you can now roll the drums, play the guitar and sip the pina coladas 😂😂😂

Yeah, I made it to Day 30, I bought myself a nice lunch today I can't for the life of me remember the last time I abstained from Porn and Masturbation for 30 days in the last 10 Years, most benefits I've experienced are mental, I'd say I've become more self aware and gain more clarity, next update is on Day 40.

Life's Short

Amazon suspended my hosting account, I have exhausted my free trial and I have to pay around 65$ to have my account reinstated due to accrued charges, it just got me thinking that it's over a year already since I launched my startup, it felt like yesterday, 365 days are gone and will never come back, it made me reflect on my journey and where I want to get to, we were only able to get 387 Users and 9.1k page views in over a year, that's low and uninspiring.

I didn't set any 'number' goal though last year, I just wanted to launch and see how it goes, I had to set some new goals and create an action plan for the next 6 months, I put out a job ad on LinkedIn for an engineer position and I've gotten some nice feedback, I'll schedule an interview with the top applicants next week.

I need to up my leadership game, I want to build a large company, I can't get there by dealing with small problems like engineering or marketing, I should be assembling a team of talented guys, talking to users, putting the company out there and convincing investors to fund us.

And to be honest I've been slacking on that angle, I rather do what's comfortable like fixing a bug or creating a new feature because it's engineering and that's where I have domain expertise, I have to leave all of these behind and do the hard stuffs.

To cap it all life's too short, death is always lurking and can strike at any moment, regardless of age or health status, I've seen it happen before my eyes, I don't really have time to be honest, and whenever I remember my own death, it kills every fear in me and makes me a different kind of execution animal.

Made it to Day 20

To be honest this is a great milestone for me, the last time I stayed clean for 20 days straight was in the Camp in 2022, I feel really great about myself, my self esteem is growing, I trust myself more now also, the craziest thing is I don't even think about it at all, like I'm a different person from when I used to be a Porn user, I'll stay up late till 4am and no thought of it will cross my mind.

Last weekend was the closest I got to relapsing, I was getting a lot of flashbacks of Porn and lewd contents in my head, man before you could say jack I stood up and went out immediately, because I know that if I continue lying down on my bed in that condition, the circle will repeat itself which is Masturbate -> Feel Bad and Guilty -> Swear not do it again and repeat, that's the circle I've been trapped in for the whole time I've been trying to quit, next update will be on Day 30!!

Report Time

I felt really embarrassed when I relapsed the last time, I didn't come back to NL till today because of shame, I wanted to rack up some wins under my belt before I show up again, I'm proud to say I'm now at Day 12, I haven't relapsed since the 1st of Feb, I've also adopt intermittent fasting, I only eat a little portion of food a day and mostly drink water, I don't feel the urge to use Porn or Masturbate, I know its too early though to judge, I feel obligated to make this post because I care about my reputation, I'd have to win this war and I'll do it publicly.

According to Science, it takes 90 days to break a habit, I'm currently at Day 12, I'll update again when I'm at Day 20, then 30 subsequently.

The Company

Progress is really slow, we managed to hit 353 users and over 8.9K page views, but the progress is too slow for my liking, all of the engineers are working jobs, they don't have time to work on the app, one guy is still working on implementing a feature for over 4 months, what I learned is, no one will work hard for you if there isn't any tangible incentive up for them and its understandable, we are in Nigeria everyone is in survival mode, it's all talk until its time to put in the work, I've saved some money currently from my job, by next month I'll finish up all what needs to be done and go hard on marketing.

The only thing that keeps me going is my belief that I'm working on something important, I just need to put in more effort and get it out there, I have a lot of 'hard-work' backlog that I need to do and it keeps on piling up everyday, I thought getting/convincing other people to come work with me will solve it. It didn't and It's all on me.

Better, Just Better

My life is getting better everyday man, like I just wake up everyday and feel like, this is too easy man, I feel happy, I have a cute girlfriend, I've got money in my bank account, my family's good, my six packs are visible, I'm working on an idea that I believe in, I control how I feel, what else man?


Adieu, see y'all when I hit Day 20 in the next couple of days.

I just relapsed now, no explanations, I'll start again...

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I've always solved my problems, never needed hand outs or favors, I earned everything, the sexy body, business skills, money, social skills, confidence and everything else.

But all my achievements fall off when I remember that I still watch Porn and Masturbate, I've been trying to quit for quite a long time but I kept on relapsing, this sh*t got to stop. NOW.

I'm putting myself out here, today.

I'll be doing a 90-day hard challenge, logging in my progress everyday here on my diary, I know people will read this and if I fail to complete it, I'll be seen as a cheapskate who's all talk, fear of public embarrassment is one of the biggest motivators, I'll leverage it to kill these two monsters.

LFG

I got a Job as an IT guy in a company in my city In December.


I gave my first talk at a DevFest event in December.


Company is growing, I've convinced another software engineer to join us.


I turned 23 in December.


I still masturbate and watch porn occasionally.


Still not rich.


Life's good, I'm enjoying everyday.

Broke, company's growing, lost a brother, income moves, addictions, improvements, dispute.

Broke.

Currently, I'm B R O K E, I've run out of cash, I sold my phone sometime last month to keep the company going, it helped for some weeks, I'm looking at raising 100K before December, I've got 20K already, I'll get the remaining by November from my pops, all I do at home is eat, sleep, shit and read books, counting my days.

Being broke sucks bro, no choices, no options, you're just going with the flow, at the mercy of whoever's feeding you, your opinions don't matter, I'm not being negative at all, I'm still that happy-go-lucky guy, I'm just writing what I feel, it doesn't bother me that much because I know it'll all be a thing of past in a jiffy.

I've applied to countless jobs, teaching, software development, VA's, I even applied to a social media manager, craziest thing is, they won't even send a regret mail, just silence, it aggravates me big time.

Company's Growing.

The only good thing happening in my life is my company is growing, we are now at 240+ users and over 7.1K contents views, I reached out to a hub here and they gave me a free workspace with uninterruptible power supply, I've gotten two guys to work with me, dev and marketing.

I've gotten a lot of free press, from friends to some dignitaries, I feel good about all of this, at least I'm offering value to humanity and I'm getting positive feedbacks, times might be hard financially now but it's not going to stay like that forever.

I was talking with a mentor the other day and he told me to forget about money or monetizing the app for now, I should focus on creating value and getting it out there and I'm doing just that, way to go, isn't it?

I want to see 1k users before 2023 ends and I'm very much sure if we keep on pumping features and putting up engaging contents we'll smash those figures, I signed up to Weetracker for updates on latest funding deals, Nigeria is still at the forefront, that's bonus PR and bragging rights when upcoming startups want to raise, I'll definitely raise money but that'll be when we hit 100k active users, I want investors to look for us, like take our money guys we love what you're doing haha.

Lost a Brother.

October 19th is a date I'll never forget as long as I'm alive, I lost a childhood friend to a ghastly accident, my heart is still broken and I'm healing albeit slowly, it was at night, I decided to go on WA to reply messages, I started seeing RIP updates with his pictures, damn bro. I literally didn't know when I started crying, death's humbling man.

I had to travel the next day to bury him, ambulance brought him, I still have flashbacks of his mom entering that ambulance to pay last respect to her first son, it's gut wrenching, no parent deserves that, I lost motivation for everything after his death, I was just going through the motions, had to snap out of it and accept/take the L.

Life goes on, we live and die that's always being the circle words to Nasty C,

I've moved on, but the bitter taste of the loss will forever linger in my heart, Rest in Peace Blud.

Income Moves.

I've found a guy that's very good in FX and he sells signal services, I want to fund some $$$ and trade with him, use the profits to run the company and 'have a life' whatever that means.

That's the only thing on my mind currently, economy has gone to shit, currency has gone to shit, making money in USD is the only way out of this mess, I don't even want to talk about the government.

I wanted to start a fast food business some weeks back but I couldn't get boys that'll hawk it around for me, besides, currently I'm not keen at starting an offline business, especially a small business, profits are marginal.

Addictions.

I'm finally free, I've cleaned up, I'm no more that porn and jerking off addict, it's crazy to type that because I've come a long way, I started watching porn in primary 5, that was in 2010, 13 leap years.

I wouldn't say they made me a shadow of myself, it was never even a do or die thing for me, but it affected me mentally and I had to stop, I can't imagine a grown up version of myself doing that filthy stuff, nah.

Mind reframing helped me a lot, I decided I'm not an addict anymore, I stopped trying to not think about it, I entertain the thoughts but I never act on it till my brain decides it's dumb to keep suggesting what I'll not do.

Quitting porn and masturbation is my biggest achievement this year right next to starting a company.

Improvements.

I've read a lot of books recently, I've read Psycho Cybernetics, a very solid read.

I'm currently reading Origin of species by Charles Darwin, I'm also trying to improve my writing so I'm reading Hypnotic Writing by Joe and have Blue Book on Grammar in my library.

I'm also big on visualization now, courtesy of psycho cybernetics, I'll close my eyes and visualize what I want my future to be like and it works like magic, so during the day instead of thinking about the past and being negative, my visualized life will be in my thoughts which help me in staying happy momentarily and making good decisions because I'd want my actions to be consistent with my future self, works like magic!

Dispute.

When I first started my company there's a guy we started with but later along the line, we parted ways so I'm trying to get in touch with him for some hard conversations, I want to ask if he's still with us or not, I don't want to be dealing with ownership problems later.