for the past 2years i have been struggling with illnesses, sometimes stomach issues and sometimes fever, bodyache and general fatigue. everytime i go to the local hospitals in my vicinity they do typhoid and malaria tests to me which always come out negative.
my life is revolving from going to this local hospital to another in search for proper treatment which i still havent got. life in nigeria is very tough more expecially when you are jobless and masturbates, sometimes i feel like deleting myself because i consider myself as a failure. 28years on this earth and i still got nothing to show except my 2set of clothes and my broken gionee gn500s phone.
sometimes i think im under a spell or have been cursed by someone because nothing is working for me, it hurts me when i look at my friends circle and see a lots of them doing well while i wallow in sickness and poverty.
today i wake up very sick and depressed i thought about commiting suicide, i bought my sniper mix it with my tea, i was about to drink it then i stopped and ask myself what is really wrong with me? i foung out that all these years i have been suffering with H.I.V human induced vehement poverty i called it human induced because i think its me who caused this poverty to myself. because i hv been waiting for god to solve my problems while its clear that god hates me.

Life is generally unfair. The Middle Eastern god in the sky wouldn't save you. Stop blaming others, take responsibility.

Please don't commit suicide man, life in Nigeria is not easy for anyone, people are just hiding their pain

God1000:
Please don't commit suicide man

the thought of suicide give me joy. whenever my problems got worst when i think that i can end it all by committing suicide i feel good

Banilla:
Life is generally unfair. The Middle Eastern God in the sky wouldn't save you. Stop blaming others, take responsibility.

but he helps others i know a lots that he helped

depressedlad:
the thought of suicide give me joy. whenever my problems got worst when i think that i can end it all by committing suicide i feel good

You need to stop having suicide thought, I don't want to ask you too many questions.

Find something to do and be positive

Banilla:
You're so annoying. People who are depressed feel suicidal. How can he stop thinking about it? Do you have any idea what he's going through?

If you can't advise or help him, stay away... You're being toxic.

Sadness isn't a cloak you just take off.

You are too uncultured and disrespectful.

Banilla:
Life is generally unfair. The Middle Eastern God in the sky wouldn't save you. Stop blaming others, take responsibility.

See your first comment, very silly

depressedlad:
but he helps others i know a lots that he helped

Don't be ridiculous. They were lucky, that's all.

God1000:
You need to stop having suicide thought, I don't want to ask you too many questions.

Find something to do and be positive

You're so annoying. People who are depressed feel suicidal. How can he stop thinking about it? Do you have any idea what he's going through?

If you can't advise or help him, stay away... You're being toxic.

Sadness isn't a cloak you just take off.

God1000:
You need to stop having suicide thought, I don't want to ask you too many questions.

Find something to do and be positive

im just tired life is meaningless when u find it hard to eat

Banilla:
Don't be ridiculous. They were lucky, that's all.

sure

depressedlad:
im just tired life is meaningless when u find it hard to eat

I understand, but still be hopeful

No family ? Friends ? Relatives ?

God1000:
I understand, but still be hopeful

i am just tired of being hopeful hope will not feed me

depressedlad:
for the past 2years i have been struggling with illnesses, sometimes stomach issues and sometimes fever, bodyache and general fatigue. everytime i go to the local hospitals in my vicinity they do typhoid and malaria tests to me which always come out negative.
my life is revolving from going to this local hospital to another in search for proper treatment which i still havent got. life in nigeria is very tough more expecially when you are jobless and masturbates, sometimes i feel like deleting myself because i consider myself as a failure. 28years on this earth and i still got nothing to show except my 2set of clothes and my broken gionee gn500s phone.
sometimes i think im under a spell or have been cursed by someone because nothing is working for me, it hurts me when i look at my friends circle and see a lots of them doing well while i wallow in sickness and poverty.
today i wake up very sick and depressed i thought about commiting suicide, i bought my sniper mix it with my tea, i was about to drink it then i stopped and ask myself what is really wrong with me? i foung out that all these years i have been suffering with H.I.V human induced vehement poverty i called it human induced because i think its me who caused this poverty to myself. because i hv been waiting for god to solve my problems while its clear that god hates me.

Start with your mind. Stack up relevant skills, Read the Richest man in Babylon. Think and Grow rich.
Work hard and see how God himself has no choice than to help you, especially if you ask.

Try this for three months. If things remain the same, I owe you 30k. If things get better, you owe me 30k.

Deal?

Autobot05:
No family ? Friends ? Relatives ?

i have my family needs from me my relatives i dont ask them my friends i will think im trying to use them by asking them for help

Newbielearner:



Start with your mind. Stack up relevant skills, Read the Richest man in Babylon. Think and Grow rich.
Work hard and see how God himself has no choice than to help you, especially if you ask.

Try this for three months. If things remain the same, I owe you 30k. If things get better, you owe me 30k.

Deal?

no deal but i will try to read the books u recommend.

poverty is the deadliest disease that can ever happen to a man. i dont smoke but i must do it today

i would rather die than live as a bottom class in nigeria.

depressedlad:
i have my family needs from me my relatives i dont ask them my friends i will think im trying to use them by asking them for help

And suicide is the best option?

Autobot05:


And suicide is the best option?

what else will i do ? steal ? i hv tried a lots of things nothing works maybe i am cursed im tired

depressedlad:
what else will i do ? steal ? i hv tried a lots of things nothing works maybe i am cursed im tired

Your location ?? Skills ?

stop masturbating and watch your life improve.

Autobot05:


Your location ?? Skills ?

kaduna. i have no skill

clarocuzioo:
stop masturbating and watch your life improve.

i always wanna stop but i have high libido and u know in nigeria broke guys will only rape if they wanna have sex nd i cant do that so i masturbate

my brother tell me where to come and get your atm card and that your gionee phone before you die abeg its something.

Seunosewar:
my brother tell me where to come and get your atm card and that your gionee phone before you die abeg its something.

nothing in my atm my phone will not worth morethan 3k

depressedlad:
im just tired life is meaningless when u find it hard to eat

Op stop to the look for pity nobody in nairaland will help you
go learn barbing them no go collect you money to teach you but deh go use you catch cruise taya but after 6months you go see how your life go change no deh find pity for nairaland na wicked people full here, them go just deh mock you with style, Nobody get shi shi to give you here, God no go save you because God no deh, your life deh your hand oga

Blupen969:
Op stop to the look for pity nobody in nairaland will help you
go learn barbing them no go collect you money to teach you but deh go use you catch cruise taya but after 6months you go see how your life go change no deh find pity for nairaland na wicked people full here, them go just deh mock you with style, Nobody get shi shi to give you here, God no go save you because God no deh, your life deh your hand oga

thanks for your advice bro.

depressedlad:
poverty is the deadliest disease that can ever happen to a man. i dont smoke but i must do it today

Smoke weed op and let your weed open your third eyes

depressedlad:
kaduna. i have no skill

Kaduna doesn't seem like a place of opportunities