I've always hated girls for turning me down in the past. Although I'm decent looking guy.
After some self examination and exposure I realised I had very unattractive trait. My behaviour wasn't masculine enough. I was shy, low self esteemed , lacking confidence. I was too needy. In conclusion I was wimp simp.

I have decided as my goal in life to be as masculine as possible.

Cant blame this women because even me as man wouldn't be sexual attracted to a woman that behaves boyish, masculine, tomboyish. It's an anomaly.

Ya'll understand?

Even after achieving that goal, don't expect every woman to accept you, else your self esteem would get lower. It goes beyond what you perceive.