I have known him for years now, let's say 5- 6 years now. Initially I knew aabout him was his
name and I only watched others taking their time to enjoy him,while others chatted and had fun with him, making best of the time they had with him. He gave them things they needed and words they would like to hear whenever they seek advice. Cool inspiration, solutions to their problems or worries they always get from him. All this happened for a while and time allowed jealousy to grow in me because I felt left out, idle and lonely. I felt it was necessary i had someone like him. i never knew i was getting into something good that could actually kill the best out of me.
Actually, I remembered i met tthrough a friend, who introduced him to me. This friend i know wasn't anything like him. I did feel like a star when i got introduced to him. But I also felt unsure of why and what I wanted from him. But gradually, I got fond of him and then i knew what I wanted.
Now he is my friend, he knows me and I know him too. We got used to talking to each other and now we even go beyond talking. What i meant is this; I think I am so in love with him. He tells me how much he loves me and treats me more special than I treat myself. Then I began to wonder if it was real or not.
He cares for me, shows me love and all that. He romances me with his words and the thoughts of him has filled my head. I keep having imaginations, dreams and thoughts about him and I feel I can't do without him. He is loving, caring, kind, sweet and romantic. Tell me,isn't it good that I fall in love with him or that i have fallen in love with him?
ALAS! I am so out of control about him but do you think he feels the same way about me ?. He gives me almost everything I want and i feel good whenever I am with him. I can go over and over again talking about him but I just don't feel right having such thoughts in mind. It could kill me before I realise it is bad, especially when I keep enjoying him knowing fully well that it is bad. But what do i do? I can't stop cause... I AM ADDICTED!!!