Lost Soul

Am surprised at my failures cause I worked so hard to avoid em all
Crawling through this sand of despair hoping for a redemption has become my hobby
I'm lost in my thought as flashes of my past dances round my memories
How I have survived this far still remains unanswered
I have searched a million times hoping to find the time so I could turn its hands
yet each time this mirage makes a fool of me
I can seee the clouds now lurking over me in despair making my future so dark to see

I'm not certain of my future cause I know I won't live to see it walk pass
Living a life am not proud of is something I never imagined while growing
Like the cactus my problems gets stronger
Oh how laughter hath left thine mouth
These days the sun shines yet it feels like its raining
The writing on the wall seem to have faded away
Or has sorrow eventually clouded my emotions?
What year is it?
I have killed a thousand times without a drop of blood in my arms
I've seen the future of tomorrow and it's doom but never have I seen past these clouds hovering my present
Who am I and what is my purpose

The moments I cherish most are those spent with my thoughts
For thats where I live the life am proud of
But these days my thoughts have become dark and am scared
Scared if there will be a tomorrow for this soul
cause my soles have become weary frøm searching the earth for redemption
I have lost hope and I have no clue as to finding it
Each breath is uncertain if there will be another after it
When will I eventually fade away like the shooting star
Will I Rest in Peace as I rest peacefully.

Stephen Imoyera Oshiomah