I can't even talk to a girl anymore I feel I'm not man enough , its a big problem . I do pray I get out of it soon before I took late

Please don't laugh at my English and I'm not a good writer.

Now I have come to realization that truely masturbation is the greatest addiction ever. I wouldn't like to disclose my name cause of some reasons, I would like to keep my identity safe.

It all started far back In 2011 when I was in my jss3, I have been a pretty good boy who loves making friends, I was jovial. I interact with everyone around me and everybody loves my company.

I have lot of girls as my friends ..
One faithful Saturday morning I was having a stroll and I came across a pornography film pack and it has nudes content. It was lying by the road side, I'd picked it up and had a lot at it ..

My fellow nairalanders, that was how my journey started.

I started having the urge for sex. I felt so good giving myself self pleasure, I started masturbating once or twice a week, soon I started getting addicted, anytime I feel alone, the urge comes up and I must attend to it no matter where I am.

I started downloading phonography pictures on my phone. Fast forward to the time I finished my secondary school. It come to my observation I started pulling away from my female friends and I started keeping all to myself. I got some worst to the extent I can't talk to a woman. I started losing my friends. I only had mouth on social media .

Fast forward till today, masturbation have ruined my life totally now I have been so addicted that I get it done twice a day, sometimes I feel hurt and guilty, sometimes I asked myself i I would ever get married or if I can ever love a woman. I feel so embarrassed and ashamed of myself. I do promise my self that I'm gonna leave it but the highest I could go was a week. I don't even have that urge of hitting a woman, in my area as low as 500 you can have sex with a LovePeddler, but even though it is cheap to that extent i Would rather satisfy my self.

Till this day I have been masturbating for 9 years and it's really tearing my life apart.
Now I keep all to myself .. The only two things you could find on my phone browser is narialand and different ponographic sites ...

It hurts me so much, sometimes my friends ask when would I have a girlfriend but I would reply (oboy leave that thing make we make money first woman go come ) but deep down I feel sorry for myself ...

For those who say masturbation isn't a sin, dear friends masturbation I'd a deep sin and when you're addicted to it is very difficult to overcome it .

Please I need your advice, a problem shared is a problem solved.

Dammm niggas ...bad news everywhere
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