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Faith063:
This was done months ago when it started stalling/ shut down when I completely apply the brakes.

Faith063:
Is there a part that is causing this ?

MistyDense:
I don't know if anyone of you can relate to this. But to be truthful, I can't continue taking up these multiple responsibilities anymore.

I'm the oldest of four younger siblings, and we just have one Male among us, who is the Last born. I'm training him in sch, a tertiary institution. The other two girls are already done with their school and are presently learning some skills.
None is contributing anything. I work from Mondays to Sundays without Rest. From house rent to feeding, to medics, transport, sch fees, light bills and others, I do all of them. I make sure I work to earn every penny I make. It is so bad that I don't have any savings. My clothes are worn out cos I can't afford new ones. Also, I can't afford my soap and cream any longer because there are more pressing issues to fix.
The burden has become so much, coupled with stress from work. Sometimes I overthink things and breakdown.
My mum isn't working due to her sight. She's completely Without sight. I had to hire someone to be taking care of her as we all go out for our daily activities.
I'm thinking of asking my younger brother to drop out for now so that the burden can reduce for now, but I don't know how to tell him because I don't know how he would feel. He's already in 200L.. It will break him I know, but I'm trying to cut cost at least for a year first, before he can return back to sch. If this happens, I fear he may take his life, due to the passion he has for sch. He's a very bright student. The most academically sound person in my family.

A lot of pressure is on me. I don't want to do what other girls are doing. I don't want to start sleeping with men for money because I need to protect my dignity as a woman until I'm married. I've turned down a lot of suitors already because I don't want to drag them into my family's struggles and later they start insulting me for being a burden to them. I refused to marry for now because of this.
Life isn't easy and hasn't being easy since the loss of our dad 10years ago.

Sometimes, I stay in my room and cry all through the night. I can't share my struggles with anyone for fear of being mocked and insulted behind my back.
Sometimes I feel like running far away that nobody will be able to see me or even call my lines.
I'm really messed up.
At times, I feel like I should just vanish from the surface of the earth.

I'm just confused.

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oz4real83:
Maybe na coffin he go design next time🤣, you better pay up oo🤣