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It was not easy to finally accept that I need to take this drug for the rest of my life, when ever I see guys playing football, feeling happy, I do feel sad like, so I can't do all this.

I am not a the type of guy that like clubbing ,drinking, womanizing, smoking, if today i try to tell any one I am positive they will not believe, because I don't have girlfriend you won't see me with one, but just that one encounter I had, here I am.
I began to wonder why me, I have friends that sex like a running tap and yet they are negative, could my ordeal be manipulated by village people? I heard one of my cousin died of AIDs at 31 and I am getting close to that age (though she was not that educational inclined ) could this be the hand of village people as some will say.

Still going by what I read on nairaland, the poster said HIV will not kill you except you choose to die I.e not taking your drugs. With several research I did online , I realised I can be undetected if I take my drugs religiously i .e if I go for HIV test the result will be negative but that does not mean I and free from the virus just that I can't transmit the virus to another person as long as I am undetected but I can't donate blood. That article helped me to stay alive.

The first week of taking the drug was not easy due to poor feeding life style ,no work/ and emotional challenge so i decided to seek for help on nairaland but no help came, I must survive this I told myself as I tried to keep my status secret in real life,I sold my laptop and some valuables.
Aftet 1 month of taking the drug, right now I am feeling positive about my positive status. And I believed it will end well.

HIV is real. If for anything use condom that person you see healthy you don't know what he/she is battling inside. Also know that this world we leave in is evil I became positive because a positive person intentionally pass it to me, but I told my self I can't do such evil to anyone not for any reason. Being positive is not the END but living positive is the goal.

I will not bothered my self about the opinions I get here, call it fiction, lie ,story story ,we are all entitled to our thought . but I believed one day someone will see this and be encouraged that HIV is not the end and someone will learn a lesson from my life experience ,which is my aim.

During those period I was feeling low in energy I was unable to carry out my duties in the school I teach and I was sacked. I Was not bothered about it as my worries was about my status. When I got the teaching job after my first salary I left my parent house and was staying alone going back was not a thought.

So many thought going through my mind , to commit suicide was top of the thought or I should just go out and become a chief distributor of the virus before I die, so many thought I can't control and telling my parent ,hmm they will just die because having sold all they had to send me to school thinking I will be the bread winner of the family and train others, now this! I can't tell them I concluded.

My life became a mess with no future I became hopeless not on till I saw a post on Nairaland through Google search after reading that post my life took a bold step! Yes I can leave positive life even when I am positive. So I enrolled into a clinic so that I can get my drug and start afresh.

Then I realised it was not easy I as thought ........

Life is a story filled with so many uncertainties and each with his/her fate, could this be my fate?.

I am in my late twenties and my life just got a twist along the line. I have lived my life with the fear of God constantly residing in my heart, things became sore as my dad forced me to leave my church and joined his which i have no flame for and since then my Christian life went down the drain as evil thought clouded my mind which I can't control or rebuke any longer.

I became a porn addict and the drive to have sex became my daily struggles. I began to search how to get a girl for sex as I resulted to use 2go app to search for one. After the search we finally met, she was staying with her anty at that time when I visited her and that visit was a timely one because her anty traveled to her boyfriend house to spend weekend.

That night was a memorable one with a huge mark of regret as I had my first sex ever and she never bothered about condom, well I have none either, she did it like a porn star her sex skills was away from this world as we had sex two times that night and I felt fulfilled. After that encounter her number stop going I mean all three contact we were using to communicate as I became bordered. Prior to that time I was having symptom of malaria but never took drugs, two weeks later I felt sick and did malaria test and the doctor included HIV, well HIV was negative as I was treated for malaria alone. Two weeks after I was treated of malaria I was still feeling low energy.

Over a month her number was still not going through so gave up on her and I stated having swollen nodes at my neck, groan and back of my ears what could be wrong as I asked google. What I saw was not good as most articles point toward HIV infection, I took a step to do the test again the lab man said I should come back after a month because the result is not clear. During that waiting month my energy is draining day by day, when I did the test again I was positive.

Now the journey......

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if you want verification you can fix a meeting if you are in Abuja. I know people are dubious but wishing my self a dreaded sickness is the least I can do.

Good day all, with a bleeding heart I typed this, I was diagnosed of having HIV which after then my life has never remain same, I lost confidence in my self and my worth. It became complicated when I loss the teaching job I was doing due to sickness and that was doing the only thing that gives me happiness. Thought of suicide has becloud my head because of isolation, no food no job. I know this is a faceless forum that is why I am sharing my burden here as I tried to keep my status far away from people close to me. Please if anyone can help me with a job I will be grateful. I have been taking my drugs the challenge is eating at the right time and eating well .please nairaland help me to overcome this stage. In case anyone can borrow or assist me with fund to start a business I will appreciate.
07050465031.@Abuja

Good day all, with a bleeding heart I typed this, I was diagnosed of having HIV which after then my life has never remain same, I lost confidence in my self and my worth. It became complicated when I loss the teaching job I was doing due to sickness and that was doing the only thing that gives me happiness. Thought of suicide has becloud my head because of isolation, no food no job. I know this is a faceless forum that is why I am sharing my burden here as I tried to keep my status far away from people close to me. Please if anyone can help me with a job I will be grateful. I have been taking my drugs the challenge is eating at the right time and eating well .please nairaland help me to overcome this stage. In case anyone can borrow or assist me with fund to start a business I will appreciate.
07050465031.@Abuja

Good day all, with a bleeding heart I typed this, I was diagnosed of having HIV which after then my life has never remain same, I lost confidence in my self and my worth. It became complicated when I loss the teaching job I was doing due to sickness and that was doing the only thing that gives me happiness. Thought of suicide has becloud my head because of isolation, no food no job. I know this is a faceless forum that is why I am sharing my burden here as I tried to keep my status far away from people close to me. Please if anyone can help me with a job I will be grateful. I have been taking my drugs the challenge is eating at the right time and eating well .please nairaland help me to overcome this stage. In case anyone can borrow or assist me with fund to start a business I will appreciate.
07050465031.

Good day all, with a bleeding heart I typed this, I was diagnosed of having HIV which after then my life has never remain same, I lost confidence in my self and my worth. It became complicated when I loss the teaching job I was doing due to sickness and that was doing the only thing that gives me happiness. Thought of suicide has becloud my head because of isolation, no food no job. I know this is a faceless forum that is why I am sharing my burden here as I tried to keep my status far away from people close to me. Please if anyone can help me with a job I will be grateful. I have been taking my drugs the challenge is eating at the right time and eating well .please nairaland help me to overcome this stage. In case anyone can borrow or assist me with fund to start a business I will appreciate.
07050465031.