Anger And Vengeance Is Taking The Best Part Of Me

hello nairalanders,

Sorry to disturb your peace but this has been going on in my mind for long and I really need suggestions on how to overcome it. I gave in to ire/anger and it's gradually taking the best part of me since I made a little discovery about my wife's past and how she lived her life while in the campus. I will try and make it as snappy as possible in order not to make you spend much of your time on my case.

Now, it goes this way, my wife came from a middle class family and she attended one of the best and prestigious higher institutions in the country, they're not too rich and they're not poor, infact, their family name can't be in the same sentence with poverty. She had everything she needed and lived her life to the fullest while in the campus, she flirted with and dated the best guys in the campus, she visited many night clubs and other exuberant and flamboyant life style that pertains to the campus.

Now on my own part, I attended one of the Colleges of Education that littered our country,
I did everything all by myself, I sponsored myself throughout my stay in the college, I did all manner of odd jobs to survive, sometimes, I would miss lectures due to lack of cash, no one to assist, all these limitations made me not to pay attention towards the opposite sex as I was busy struggling to survive and hoping unto God for a miracle.

Right now, all I am feeling is anger, ire, all I want now is vengeance knowing fully well that while I was suffering and struggling to survive, fasting without praying, carrying bricks and block from one floor to the other, jumping from one market to the other hawking my wares, that my wife was busy somewhere enjoying and partying away her future, right now, I want to have my revenge, I want to live those life that I wasn't opportune to live, I want to flirt and have fun with many ladies both young and old, I want to visit as many night clubs as possible now that money is flowing in, I careless about the consequences and how she may feel, these are exactly what I'm feeling now.

this can't keep troubling me that's why I brought it here for suggestions and elderly advice.

DamnnNiggarr:
you must be high on something. can you tell me the name please?

Person no fit follow you play nii,

Mmmmtcheeewww!

Ftc

Nothing will ever make Kogi State to be among the three states that will finance their expenditure without federal allocation.

MrCover:
There Is No Single Day That Will Pass Without coming across one bad news or the other in this country

please, what do you normally smoke?

Cow shit? horse shit? expired weed? ogbomosho weed? sk? etc...

Afamed:
This is where the hypocrite Abaribe should have a voice. This is where Nnamdi Kanu should have a voice. But since they are all party of the looting machines. They will rather blame Buhari in Aso Rock, than holding their leaders responsible

I've read the news a thousand times looking for where abaribe or kanu was stated but couldn't find any.

Was the news about Abaribe, kanu or about Adamawa??

Iyaebe:
I want nothing but a kindhearted man who treats people well,respects people and love his parents and siblings to stupor but very strict and commands respect.I also observe a man's relationship with animals, it tells a lot about him.A jovial and overly friendly man is a big turn off for me especially those ones that shines teeth to every lady they come across. I like men who hates been friendly with women,like those ones with very unfriendly facial look but he should only be weak before me,his parents and siblings.

Greedy woman

ItsGoodToBeGood:
He will lead Nigeria to her final destination

and where is that?