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Raalsalghul:
I agree 100%.

Like Pansophist will say, enjoy your time and leave.

The problem is there is no enjoyment. Only pain, fear, unfulfillment, struggle and suffering.

Whatever enjoyment you think you experience will be immediately extinguished by the overwhelming harsh pressures of life.

Wujio:
Have you seen or experienced hell?


Have you seen how dreadful the queue, interviewing and screensing after death is?


Have you withessed the countenance of angels in judgement ?


When you have exprienced these things you can understand well enough to advice me. Until then, be careful of any negative thing you direct at God. Dont say you didnt meet someone who warned you about it.


Little child. Death. Dead. You obviously dont know God. You havent known him well enough thats why you sound this way. I will pardon your naivety.


I repeat vuild a life you desire to lead and stick with your plan. God didnt committ anyone to a robotic life. He never did and would never do euch. Before you go on attacking the integrity of God, you should first direct your attacks to the systemic abuses created by mankind and not God.

Listen to yourself. Asking me if I've seen things that you yourself haven't seen and can't provide any concrete evidence for

I didn't create this thread to discuss religion. And when I refer to the creator I refer not to a particular God of a particular religion but to whichever creator anyone believes despite his religion

But since you are clearly speaking from a Christian perspective, I will respond in that respect.

If your God created this sick place called Earth and still prepared an ever worse place called hell to torture people forever despite the severity of their crimes, not even taking into consideration the environments they grew up in or the personalities and brains that were born with that they didn't choose for themeslves, then that God is definitely a sadistic being and confirms everything I've been saying.

What being tortures people in fire for eternity? Can you torture humans in fire for even 10 minutes straight? Of course you can't. Because you have compassion and empathy, something your God clearly doesn't have.

The only people who torture people endlessly are sadistic psychopaths who derive pleasure from watching people suffer.

Wujio:
Be careful. Every keystroke and imagination is known to God

Its best not to always speak from grief anytime youre grieved. You will get the rest of the answers you seek in the afterlife. God didnt create this oresebt workd as it is presently the way it is. Sin destroyed the original form and plan hence God cabt be on trial concerning this



Deal with your expectations

Why should I be careful to speak the truth? You are speaking from fear and this fear forms a mist over your eyes, preventing you from seeing what's right in front of you..

You think I am afraid of calling the creator of this world a sadistic psychopath? I'm not. What's the worst that can happen? I end up dead? I'm not afraid of death. It's the same fate that the people who worship this creator face everyday. I will still die even if I keep shut.

If anything, this creator is proud of me because unlike majority of you, I can see through the bullshit and see it for what it truly is. No creator is ever proud of stupid creatures who can't examine the harsh truths of reality and just live everyday like mindless robots.

I'm not speaking from grief. I'm speaking from a place of honestly after watching people dying everyday and more being born to meet the same fate.

Wujio:
God is not a sick twisted being. Lucky to be stillborn at birth ? And who says such a soul couldnt reincarnate into another womb across the planet ?

We must detach excessive zeal for things, this way we can enjoy each moment, savor the air we breathe, enjoy the water we drink. Life is best for eating, drinking and taking things a step at a time

Whatever being that created this world and allows everything that goes on to thrive, is nothing but a pure sadistic psychopath.

We are all in a prison. But the most efficient prisons are the ones where the prisoners don't even know they are in prison.

If reincarnation is true, then it even makes the sick joke called life even sicker. Not only do you suffer and chase shadows until you die, you reincarnate in another body and repeat the same process without memory of your previous suffering. This is even worse than what I described earlier. It's the recycling of meaninglessly

No one ever enjoys any moment. It's a lie fed to us. As long as we have unmet needs and unfulfilled desires, as long as we we have lost loved ones and suffered heartbreaks, the unfulfillment and pain from these always hovers over our minds even when we are 'enjoying a moment'

Eating, drinking and taking things a step at a time is the same things animals do repeatedly everyday. We aren't any different. The only difference is that we have the ability to see just how meaningless it all is.

Life is a sick joke and we are all unwilling participants.

We all like to think we are special. As if our lives have some meaning. But in the end, we are all the play toys of death, being preserved and grown, until the day it decides to take us.

I've watched so many people die and seen so many dead bodies on documentaries and social media that I've become so disillusioned from life. All those people just like you, thought they had a purpose. Thought they were special; that someone out there was looking out for them. They had goals, dreams and aspirations.

But they were nothing but mere biological puppets. No different from the chickens we see on our streets everyday; created with the purpose to eat, breed and die. And everything they do in between only serves to propagate this sick joke.

Take a paper and a pen and write down all the things you want to achieve in life. Most of you will die before you achieve all of them. The few who are 'lucky' to achieve all will immediately feel a sinking emptiness after they do. Then will they realize that the joy and happiness they felt they'd get is only fleeting and quickly replaced by the need to do more. And they will keep chasing that 'more' until they die.

Sit back and look at the world. Pick a history book and read. Watch some war documentaries. Human life is fleeting and painful. It's all a big joke and whosoever created this world is not just psychopathic, but also sadistic.

The only constant in life is suffering. Nobody ever attains true happiness. What we experience is an illusion of happiness that gets washed away few seconds later by the rushing streams of reality.

What do you think makes you happy? Money? Well how much? The more money you make the more money you'll want to make and the harder you'll work to make sure the money remains. You'll still be sucked in an endless circle of money chasing.

Is it loved ones that make you happy? Well one day those loved ones will die and you will forever be left with the pain of that loss: a pain that will haunt you every minute of everyday. If they don't die before you die, then the constant fear of losing them is enough to suck away any joy or peace of mind that you think you deserve.

Is it sex that makes you happy, well you are no different from a dog that feels _horny and mates with another dog. The only difference is that you think you have free will, whereas you are being controlled by the same instinct to procreate, disguised under than a short-lived pleasure of sex. A pleasure that will bring more pain, heart-ache, disease and unfulfillment than whatever illusion of pleasure you have created..

Me Me Me. We are so obsessed with ourselves and our stupid needs and desires that we fail to see what's before our eyes. We are all in some sick twisted game designed by a sick twisted being, and none of us will get out alive.
And everyday we bring more and more people into this game and we celebrate it like it's a good thing; like we are doing them a favor.

The luckiest people on Earth are the babies that die during delivery. At least they didn't get to participate in this sick, twisted joke called life.

Rechargeam247:
Life is fleeting, live with eternity in view.

True

dominique:
How often do you see dead people and compare them to their social media photos while they were alive. It's either you work in a morgue or a serial killer

Literally everyday I visit the frontpage of Nairaland or browse through Facebook or twitter, I see a post about someone that died along with their "graphic photo" and full names.

People die everyday and no one has the courtesy anymore to give them some privacy, hence why they post the pictures of their corpses along with their full names like they were some cheap livestock being put up for sale.

Came4amod:
I find his post very repulsive.. like he has some remedy for death .sounds like a killer .. or like someone who has taken a life .... ... If I was a police and Some spoke like this arround me it's enough reason for me to investigate him .. very dark soul

A lot of crazy assumptions you are making about me just from a philosophical post.

Rather that use this post as a torch to inspect the flaws in your perception of life, you'd rather use it to find perceived flaws in me.

AndrewTate:
: "I respect the dead"... Then goes on to disrespect the dead in order to pass a message he could've passed without sounding so "shupidd".

I didn't disrespect anyone. I didn't even mention any names.

If you think my post sounded stupid, you are entitled to your opinion, but I seriously doubt that any reasonable, thoughtful person would read my post and consider it stupid.

Whenever I see a post about someone that died, especially someone that isn't a celebrity, I usually go to their social media to read their posts prior to their deaths.

Note that I don't do this out of disrespect, or mockery. I respect the dead and I feel bad for their loved ones. The reason I do this is because I want to know the kind of person they were. Sort of like a philosophical experiment.

I've done this for countless people that have passed on and I always notice the same thing: An overestimated sense of importance

These people think they are so special. Like they have God on speed dial and he genuinely cares about their wishes and will make sure they get everything they want.

They usually talk about what they have achieved and what they want to achieve as if their life is a game they designed themselves and are playing it on easy mode.

When I compare their pictures on social media with pictures of their corpse lying on the floor, on the roadside or on some cold bench, I notice a sharp contrast. In the picture of the corpse you see the real person; no fake smiles, not posing for the camera, no filters, no conscious awareness of how their are dressed, no captions on the photos. You see the real person and you realize how much they tried to hide that from the world and how their effort was useless in the end, because in the end, everyone sees them for who they really are.

It's really sad how unaware these people were about just how fleeting life is. Almost like they never sit and question the point of their existence. The level of optimism I see in their posts usually borders on naivety and represents a total detachment from the harsh reality of life, which eventually catches up to them.

gozzlin:
You masturbated to the sight of sleeping women when you were young?! Oh Lawd!

I didn't masturbate to sights of sleeping women. I said I enjoyed the sight of sleeping women. Am I stupid to masturbate in public? Seeing women unconscious made my dick hard that's all.

Princerichi0:
That mf is promoting porn. He's doesn't need help. He's the dev¡l

If I'm the devil, then that's very underwhelming. Imagine insulting someone for having desires he didn't choose to have. You all are sad.

Executer:
Lies upon lies
You're very sick in the head and this is you trying to promote and glory this satanic behaviour.
Why will a normal human want to sleep with dead people?
This is beyond a fetish,this is a psycho behaviour

I'd never sleep with a dead body. I might touch her body, caress her breasts and kiss her lips, but I ain't sticking my diçk in the pussy of a dead woman. And if I perceive any foul smell, I'm done.

You guys overrate sex. For me it's not the sex that matters. It's the time spent with her. When I was young I used to enjoy watching women sleep. The feeling is better than your overrated sex.

It's funny how I created this thread to reveal to the world my struggles and the steps I'm taking to overcome them, yet some clowns want to use every opportunity they get to denegrate me and call me all sorts of names. How pathetic.

If I wasn't a mature man, I'd have deleted this thread, but I know there are people who support my decision to change and are following my journey and offering their encouragements, even in silence. So on that note, I'll continue posting on this thread.

Executer:
Lies upon lies
You're very sick in the head and this is you trying to promote and glory this satanic behaviour.
Why will a normal human want to sleep with dead people?
This is beyond a fetish,this is a psycho behaviour

Direct these silly questions to God. He created me like this.

Maysdevices:
You say you are normal but you actually aren’t. Do the ladies around you a favor and go to therapy.

Necrophiliacs are serial killers in the making.

Boring. Same old spiel. I'm in my late 20s and I've not harmed anyone. I've even told few girls I've slept with about my fetishes and they were cool with it. Some of them even played dead for me. So rest. You might even be more "dangerous" than I am.

Mordson:
This man did not come to tell us how he wants to stop violent p0rn and masturbation. He came to lure a lot of people into it.

It's very clear to see.

I really pity you cos you are not normal anymore. You've obviously never had sex all your life. You've only masturbated with these evil videos. Your brain has adjusted to it and will never let go. You will never be able to have normal sex with a normal lady.

I've actually had sex a number of times. I won't say I enjoyed every moment of it; I think sex is too much work especially considering the fact that I'm not really enjoying it. The parts I enjoy is the pre-intimacy, pressing breast and maybe the kissing part, but I hate the penetration. Waste of my time. I'd rather just masturbate to her playing dead.

AndroidAI:
You are just another creative writer on Nairaland

Creative writer? Lol. After all the verifiable information that I've shared, including my violent porn folder on my PC along with the videos inside?

Oshodi Sherlock Holmes..

@Cindyblingz I can see you liking my comments.

lereinter:
Likewise some few American hip pop ladies

True. Even among popstars. Katy Perry's father is still a pastor lol.

Citizen10:
If that's the case, then it's all trying to drive traffic to those websites then. Creating the market for such commodities. Forget about it. You can't deceive me like you are doing to the rest. You are a paid agent. Paid to create awareness for a commodity that has a low market drive....

I wish I was a paid agent though. At least I will be getting paid for all the knowledge I have acquired and hopefully get to meet some of my favorite actresses in person.

Stop thinking out of your anus. A paid agent wouldn't download videos from piracy sites like motherless and heavy-r. Have you seen me direct anyone on how to purchase the videos from deadsexyclips? What kind of agent undermines the business of his employers by directing people to piracy websites to download their videos for free? Try use your brain small, it's not there for fancy.

Citizen10:
Wake up guys.
Violent porn (Dead porn) is a relatively new kind of pornography. The op has been paid to advertise and create awareness for it. That's all that this post is about.

Stop displaying your ignorance. I have a collection of violent porn from a studio named Orgasmagoria that started shooting as early as 2002. There are many old companies like RueMorgue and Directors Cafe that are no longer in business. These companies started as early as the 2000s.

There are actresses that have been doing violent porn for over 10 years and some of them have their own companies now and hire their fellow women.

Go on motherless and type snuff or necro and check the date the videos were uploaded. Some as early as 2015. Go on heavy-r dot com and search for Funbarbie23. She has been uploading videos since 2013.

Go to discussion boards like femme fatalities and check their violent porn adverts. Or better still, type "Femme fatalities Nika Noire" and check the date of the videos that you'll see on the first website that pops up.

No fetish is new. Don't talk about things you know nothing about.

The image below is from the opening of a violent porn video from orgasmagoria. Look at the copyright date. Also notice how blurry the video is. Violent porn is as old as porn itself.

Day three of my journey. I still haven't watched any violent porn or browsed for it online, and also I haven't masturbated. 24 more hours and I will smash my 4 day record of abstinence.

The urges are ever so strong, so strong that last night I dreamed that Liv Aguilera was doing a private custom murder video for me.

Keep praying for me guys and keep the words of encouragement coming.

beelon1020:
Tame your inner beast, and turn those videos to goldmine...
Open a store on dark web and make nasty $$$ out of those videos, don’t delete them..:
Only control what you watch like controlling what you eat...

Good point.

DoingBetter:
Why does this look like a thinly veiled ad for those sites? You spent more time telling others where to find violent porn including the niche available than anything else? Ewww 🤮

If you are sincere, I wish you well. Also edit your previous posts and remove those sites, actresses and other details that may make it easier for others to find the same thing. You might even use them when you relapse.

The reason I'm posting all the information is so that people will know I'm being honest. Trust me, if I didn't post all the info some people will come here and say that I'm just a liar that has watched too many Hollywood movies and that such doesn't exist.

Fuçk!! The urges are getting stronger. And every woman is beginning to look attractive, even the ones that I'd usually not find attractive. I'm staying away from any form of media tonight, including WhatsApp status.

The devil is wicked. A girl I once dated who I enjoyed fucking just decided to post a sexy photo today after not having posted any photo in weeks. Nice one Satan.

I'll just focus on work and listen to music tonight.

I honestly need some encouragement.

Eastcoastboy:
Y'all are so funny.

You strike me as an intelligent dude. While I think you should have uploaded those clips online, like create a website and upload them so you could make money out of it. Yunno? More like a recompense for all the money you've wasted on data.

And on the other hand I'm glad you deleted all cus the need to return to them might return.

I actually thought of keeping them and selling them off in the future. There has been a heavy crack down on violent porn in recent years and in few years it might not exist again. If heavy-r dot com and motherless dot com close down, no more free access to violent porn. So on that note, yes I deleted the videos, but they are still in my recycle bin, in case I slip up. I have over 2000 of these videos. It's a huge investment to just throw away.

Below are all my folders and the opened one is the PST(Psycho-thrillers) folder.

Akinfemmy:
Well, you could have just used the word "organized". Don't turn someone struggle to something that makes you look cool

I'm sorry you are struggling with OCD. Don't heap your frustration on me. I'm struggling with far worse than your obsessive compulsive disorder.

Akinfemmy:
Dude you don't know what OCD means. I'm tired of reading people with perfectionist traits claiming to have ocd. OCD is a terrifying mental illness. It's not about being organized or keeping things clean and neat. Learn about it before you self diagnose yourself

Okay, whatever. I didn't use the abbreviation as a psychological term, rather I used it as a urban slang. Just the way you call someone narcissistic and not necessary mean the person suffers from narcissistic personality disorder.

Take a chill pill. It's not that deep.

advanceDNA:
U go into extra details of what u call struggle listing all the producers and actors of the mental fuel that triggers ur addiction and how u enjoy them...doesnt sound like stopping... what kind of drug addict list the names and locatiin yo all his dealers, describing how great his drugs makes him feel....

My point is ...it seems like u are not there yet... u sound like u still at that point where u are still enjoying your addictions, even if mentally u feel u should quit.....

Like I said to someone in a previous response, this whole typing out how I feel and what I like is cathartic. I'm basically pouring out my feelings to everyone who cares to listen. Believe it or not, it helps keep the urges at bay.

If I don't talk about the urges, I'll be left alone ruminating about them and before you know it, I'm back watching those videos.

This knowledge that there are people who know what I am and are watching me to see if I'll see this journey through, pushes me to stick to my decision.