Every parent(s) wish to see their children live long and prosper. There's a popular saying that: 'children should be the ones burying their parents and not the other way round'. I doubt if I will cross 30 years. I am currently 29 years and living a mischievous life of a carefree, recalcitrant and frivolous brat. it has become an uncontrollable habit now that I only derive joy in evil things. many of which will soon terminate my life. let me let you in on some repulsive lifestyle of mine.......

Let me take a sit , I like horror movies

BETTING

The biggest of my problems since 2015. Thank God I didn't place a curse on myself to die if I gambled again. I would have really died. I am just from a Bet9ja shop. Someone in my compound paid 1500 to me in order to join our WASSCE lesson by Monday. I couldn't hold back when I went to a bet shop to charge my phone. I vowed not to play Bet9ja virtual again. so I decided to try my luck with live bet. I lost it all in just two attempts. I have a stupid mentality of 'risk it all for the highest return'. This has been my story early this year already. I am given money in trust based on my position at the office, and then I stake most of it. without mincing words, I owe about 175,000 naira from a total of 350,000 I have collected so far. one mind is telling me to own up so I am reprimanded and no further money is paid to me. but on the other hand, I am scared of the Director's reaction. so I want to hide my shaddy deals for the umpteen time. last year, it took my mum pleading and an undertaken, to be let off the hook. I had to pay back the 90,000 naira with about 6 months salary. Now I owe double. I am doomed. By April, when WASSCE comes up, I will face the music.

superfluous habits

There is this tendency to always abuse any habit I undergo. At times, to the detriment of my health. my frustrations, idleness and daring nature makes me engage in extreme masturbation. I have been on it since 2011. at the start, I would masturbate for just five minutes, cum and relax. but now I hardly let my dick rest. I developed a habit of delaying cum. and when I cum, I rest a little and stimulate myself again with my thoughts, porn or sex chat. I now use roughly 7 hours for a session. my cock is now frail and veiny. as I write this, I have done it twice today And will continue tonight. I can't stop despite it giving me back pain, veins pain and blurred vision.

any time I finish and get so weak, I take loads of sugary stuff to gain energy. then sleep a little before I continue. that has been the way I clear my head after a huge loss and cure depression. I have so far taken three carbonated drinks today alone (malt, coke and Pepsi). thanks to Mama Blessing who sells close to my office. she allows me buy on credit till I am paid salary. my addiction to sugary junk food and Pepsi dates back to 2010 when I entered campus. I currently have pains at my lower abdomen. when I bend or sneeze, I feel pain. I know my kidney is finished by now. despite seeing how sugary things affected and killed Danjuma's daughter, I can't stop

I like your story....

risky practice

I wonder why evil tend to appease the mind more than good. I used to be very pious, chaste and responsible when growing up. THINGS FALL APART.

My 12 years of teaching (started early), I never for once had paedophilia tendencies. I was diligent and one of the best wherever I worked. These days of 'mad' exposure, I Begin to fantasize about trying teacher-student fun. I am currently close to the females in the secondary section. we do have hot chats on social media but I never pushed it further than that. I do see what happens to paedophiles. some lynched, some publicly humiliated or jailed. human rights activities are on rape/child abuse cases every now and then. I hope I don't get messed up by my obnoxious and indiscriminate thoughts soon, as I know some girls are just waiting for me to 'make the move' and spend.

Secondly, I mingle too much with the wrong people. I noticed a place in Hausa Quarters where Android phones are sold at a very cheap rate. I patronise them as I can't save up to buy a new one. Though I know these phones could be stolen, I can't help it. The phone I use currently is from there. A strong , latest version 4G phone for 12k. I formatted the phone and switched off the location. This will be the fourth phone I am buying from there. when I get tired of using any one, I re-sell and buy another one. people have advised me to stop as I could still be traced with the IMEI code. A keke-napep rider (tricycle rider) who picked me up after I bought the current one I am using, try to dissuade me from the trade. he told me of how a neighbour of his was tracked and tortured after buying from an unverified source. He said the man was arrested and made to pay through his nose. now I am palpitating, but I need this Android phone to browse. so I will take my chances

unhygienic behaviour

in a bid to impress, I do thoughtless things. three days ago I caught up with an old friend. in order to seduce her, I sucked her vagina. she hadn't taken her bath and was sweaty when we met. I even rubbed petroleum jelly cream on her boobs and sucked it off intermittently. naive and naughty me! I currently have issues with my larynx, abi windpipe. probably a growth.i can't breath well.

I also expose food and plates, despite knowing there are rodents and cockroaches in my room. sometimes I don't wash the plates before I use. I do not wash hands from the toilet before feasting. Lost passion for etiquette. I do eat roadside food regularly, exposed to flies (na Dem cheap pass). the list is endless. gamblers hardly pay attention to their health or well-being. I feel bad though that all Mama's advice and admonishment while growing up failed to reflect in my life.

I will stop here for now

R.i.p in advance bro..
But before you die, try to visit a therapist or a psychiatrist or just enter any aro or yaba left close to you for mental evaluation

southniyikaye:
R.i.p in advance bro..
But before you die, try to visit a therapist or a psychiatrist or just enter any aro or yaba left close to you for mental evaluation

OMG

You need help

Satan sef no do reach all these!!! m "shot" of words!!

R.I.P
Safe Journey bro...

...

Sir , only Jesus can save you. Go to him!!!!


look for THE LORD'S CHOSEN CHARISMATIC REVIVAL CHURCH closet to you and attend.


I'm very certain you'll find solution there.



congratulations on your deliverance and new life.

You need to submit yourself to Christ bro, you can start by meeting your Pastor or Priest for guidance and read the bible, that's all.

My life started making meaning when I found Christ. God bless us.

Diary of an indiscipline man. You are not going to die. Brace up, cos you will pay all that you owe.

The good news is that Jesus Christ is able to give you a fresh start. He would wash your sins away and your bad stories will change to testimonies.

My advice , if you feel something isn't right with your life, there are people that live far worse than you and are still enjoying life.

ChildOfDoom:
Every parent(s) wish to see their children live long and prosper. There's a popular saying that: 'children should be the ones burying their parents and not the other way round'. I doubt if I will cross 30 years. I am currently 29 years and living a mischievous life of a carefree, recalcitrant and frivolous brat. it has become an uncontrollable habit now that I only derive joy in evil things. many of which will soon terminate my life. let me let you in on some repulsive lifestyle of mine.......

you dey learn work.
My 30 year old friend is a university dropout, his uncle gave him 900k to go get a shuttle bus and use it to make a meaning for his life but dude used the money on virtual at bet9ja and lost all the amount.
Today he's still addicted and I couldn't let him stay with me again

Child of Doom, you owe it to yourself and humanity to be better. Remember, you are a reflection of your ancestors. They live inside you, its your duty to make them proud. I wish you well in your journey, and may the spirits guide your path. Never harm yourself or nature. May the supreme God bless you and you find peace within. Ise

Who else looks for the I went to charge my phone in a betnaija shop line in his stories?

Classic cod

ChildOfDoom:
superfluous habits

There is this tendency to always abuse any habit I undergo. At times, to the detriment of my health. my frustrations, idleness and daring nature makes me engage in extreme masturbation. I have been on it since 2011. at the start, I would masturbate for just five minutes, cum and relax. but now I hardly let my dick rest. I developed a habit of delaying cum. and when I cum, I rest a little and stimulate myself again with my thoughts, porn or sex chat. I now use roughly 7 hours for a session. my cock is now frail and veiny. as I write this, I have done it twice today And will continue tonight. I can't stop despite it giving me back pain, veins pain and blurred vision.

any time I finish and get so weak, I take loads of sugary stuff to gain energy. then sleep a little before I continue. that has been the way I clear my head after a huge loss and cure depression. I have so far taken three carbonated drinks today alone (malt, coke and Pepsi). thanks to Mama Blessing who sells close to my office. she allows me buy on credit till I am paid salary. my addiction to sugary junk food and Pepsi dates back to 2010 when I entered campus. I currently have pains at my lower abdomen. when I bend or sneeze, I feel pain. I know my kidney is finished by now. despite seeing how sugary things affected and killed Danjuma's daughter, I can't stop

Seek God bro only He can help

Rip

OP but sniper is not that costly nah
let me epp you and end it in an easier way, trust me the three people that I help are now singing and praising my name in heaven

Mr man if truly what you wrote is the truth then you are a good story teller and writer . What ever decision you take always remember mumsy think of what your action will do to her .

Randy100:
Diary of an indiscipline man. You are not going to die. Brace up, cos you will pay all that you owe.

Hmmm that's a nice ring to it.

dumahi:
This post has again revealed how WICKED most Nigerians are. Someone had the gut to expose himself so much because he is in dire need of help but not a single compassion from many commenters here.

As for you OP, my first advise to you is to STOP cursing yourself. For instance, your moniker alone is self-curse. Again, the title of this thread is self-curse.

I understand you are a very HONEST person due to your Catholic (I bet) background. It makes you to have very honest attitude but you are now honest TO A FAULT if it now leads you to a negative self-image which is very clear from your post.

Know this: Negative self-image is not a virtue. For instance, it's not genuine humility. It is the function of subconscious ingratitude towards your Creator who made you so fearfully and wonderfully! It doesn't lead to repentance rather, it reinforces bad habits SINCE YOU THINK YOU ARE WORTHLESS ("after all, worthless things should be treated dishonorably" is how your subconscious puts it to you CONSTANTLY.

So, what should you do about this situation?
1. Start NOW to change your self-communication from negative to positive. See how: In your privacy, always tell yourself "I am a handiwork of the Most High. Therefore, I am great. I am honorable. I am grateful to my Maker for making me so great" and more like this. As you are doing this, DON'T STRUGGLE WITH YOUR BAD HABITS. Instead, they will go away by themselves. Think of what happens to a drowning person: if he struggles with the water he gets drowned finally. But if he lets go and relaxes, he gets saved. So, don't struggle with your bad habits. For instance, if that girl comes and you find yourself sucking her as usual, don't worry about it. BUT DON'T BE OBSESSING ON SUCH THOUGHTS. Instead, spend your thoughts on being grateful for how great you are (which is NOT EVEN A LIE, judging from your writing ability). As your self-honor increases, YOU WILL NATURALLY STOP THOSE BAD HABITS. But, be warned: they are going to ease off on their own as you continuously impregnate yourself with POSITIVE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS.
2. Don't listen to Devil's voices telling you how useless you are via other people (like your boss or colleagues or Nairalanders or Facebookers talking down on you.
3. I will introduce you to an audio that will help you to IMMEDIATELY start transforming your finances by transforming your mindset. You will see that EVERYTHING about you actually depends on your mindset. Let me get the link (I'll be right back).

It is because we have advised him time and time and time, he takes pleasure in pity and writing about this woes than changing so no point having compassion for him. For all we know he could be lying about his addiction and just romanticizing issues for poetry

ChildOfDoom:
Every parent(s) wish to see their children live long and prosper. There's a popular saying that: 'children should be the ones burying their parents and not the other way round'. I doubt if I will cross 30 years. I am currently 29 years and living a mischievous life of a carefree, recalcitrant and frivolous brat. it has become an uncontrollable habit now that I only derive joy in evil things. many of which will soon terminate my life. let me let you in on some repulsive lifestyle of mine.......

Chilldofdoom na you be alhaji amin abi?

qtguru:


Hmmm that's a nice ring to it.

What did the guy do to you all?

qtguru:


It is because we have advised him time and time and time, he takes pleasure in pity and writing about this woes than changing so no point having compassion for him. For all we know he could be lying about his addiction and just romanticizing issues for poetry

Really? So, I'm possibly the fool.