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LarrySun:
Hi everyone,

I don't know where to start from. I feel like a lot of you might have given up on me already; it's not your fault if you have. The truth is, I'm already giving up on myself. Please don't blame me, I beg of you; I'm in a period of depression, frustration and hopelessness. Last week Sunday, I was robbed in Oshodi, Lagos State. My phone and a large sum of money were taken from me by hoodlums. I know some of you might have been trying my line for the past week without success, my SIM card is probably resting in the pocket of one street thug or broken under the ash of smoked weed. The robbery has left a deep scar in my heart. I don't know when I would be able to get back on my feet.

I sincerely apologise because this unfortunate situation will grossly affect the Black and Basket story. I think I should quit writing. It has been over nine years since I started writing and I've not had anything real to show for it. I published my first novel and also my latest work on OkadaBooks, neither of them sold more than ten copies. Honestly, I'm facing some serious personal challenges; so many things have been going against me, and it's occurring to me that I've been wasting my time writing and plotting stories.

Well, I guess it's my fate. I need you to pray for me. I seriously, seriously need the strength to move on, my strength is beginning to fail me. I've decided not to retrieve my line, maybe it's time for me to shut myself away from the world. I'm currently tethering on the edge of homelessness; I'm scared, I'm really scared. I'm scared of ending up in the streets like Peter Black himself. Anyway, rather than reaching for a dream that's beyond my grasp, I would rather find a quiet place and lick my wounds. I think I'm losing my mind. My body is willing but my soul is weak...weakened.

Once again, I am sorry for disappointing you. Heaven sees my heart, I didn't start out to end it this way. I hope that someday you would forgive me.

Sun.

Bro there is always a point in a mans life that everything seem to be taking the wrong direction. At that time you question God, yourself, your existence, your efforts, and all you stand for. At this same point giving up becomes so close like a bestfriend but DON'T.

There is always a silver lining behind every dark cloud. Don't give up, don't hurt yourself, don't kill yourself esteem yourself, don't shut yourself out, don't give up. I DON'T know how you feel, but one thing I know for sure is the feeling of giving up when I feel life isnt being fair.

Many times I have wanted to give up writing too. Why? Because it seems there is nothing to show for it. But, above the financial gains, I have made good friends through writing.

I can't tell you that there is a reason why everything is happening to you all at the same time, but, I sure will tell you that it's all gon be a story to tell soon.

#stay strong, don't give up, take a quiet moment, bounce back and don't let your back touch the ground. #istandwithyou