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Thanks for accepting d free job Papi. Not necessarily a certain class of people,i get as i be jare, he might even be a startup with legedes benz sef and i will pick him over a range rover owner. he sha shld not be too fat abeg. shey we should post an email acct where all d applicant can sent their Curriculum Vitae with their picture(s) attached/or a means where we can chat up d prospective d one Then we can narrow down to top 10 as suggested.whoop whoop.The search is on!
ps:im well damn serious.

JeffreyJamez:
Oya na!....who are the kind of people we are looking for... Make we trim the applicants and narrow them down to top 10!

whoooppp whoooppp. Look who is here!

Seun:
It's not about being choosy; its far better to be choosy and marry the right person. You probably aren't looking in the right places. Be tactical.

would really love to hide behind my computer and start a nasty exchange of words with you,but i wont stoop so low. you know y? i just took my time to read all ur comments on nairaland and it clearly shows how 'crafty' you are picking up arguments. Wish you well son.

Nigayoyo:
Dear, I could have suggested hooking you up with some of my friends but your written English needs adjustment. First try working on that since you also want intelligent guys!

Thanks sir, but i also heard being too specific while praying isnt too good. Ps; im a practising muslim.

Peterside7:
As a Yoruba man, I wedded at 44yrs, why? My first two cars were bought by women, yet I was not in love. I read a book by Brian Tracy that helped my thinking and aid my prayer pattern. When you want to ask God for a life partner, be more detailed. Be more specific. The color, height, education, background, character, disposition to life, religion, the values and ethos. Anything and everything you want or desire from your would be husband. Before the book sorry I forgot the title, I borrowed it, got a jotter and took notes. Before the book, I prayed on generic terms. God, give me a beautiful, dutiful, faithful and God fearing wife. For years, I have girlfriends, I even lost count nd forgot some names. But with proper tailoring of my desired wife, I met my wife and we wedded about six years ago and till date, I never cheat on my wife, why? Because I love her more everyday. Before now, I don't keep girlfriends for upto six months. Take my advise, you are still young, feel good about yourself, keep an open mind, pray in a more specific manner, and it will come to pass.

Madam witch of d light lol.d book "power of d subconciuos mind" does it talk abt wavelenght frequency bla bla too?

missjo:
I'm terribly sorry,i really would have sent it if I had the eBooks. I read most of them in hard copy.
But I figure you may be able to get them online if you search on Google.

Just search for books by JOSEPH MURPHY. I already listed some of them:
- Amazing laws of cosmic mind power
- Psychic perception - the magic of extrasensory power
- The cosmic power within you
- Secrets of the I Ching

There are many others as well, be sure to read a review of the books to get the one that will most cater to what you need.


Edited:
I just saw a post by cescky. Get in touch with this person, I saw where he/she says they have a copy of 'Power of the Subconscious Mind'.

I am still not understanding when im reading pple commienting abt wealth. which wealth? when i wrote 'money isnt d problem" what i meant is:even if d guy get money nd i dont like him,i dont like him be dat! period! d statement isnt meant for me,but for d guys. leave all my Wealth ke! which wealth! i pray ooo.

Lagazine:
Op, u need to get more closer to your God.

Let's start from here; did u really follow your Pastor's advice? if not, I will implore u to do that... leave all your wealth somewhere and rent a small spinster's room, then u bring urself so low for a real man to see u.

Some guys who suppose to propose for you may not have the courage to do that if they sees that u are richer than they are and those who may come around you may ask u out because of your wealth (Gold diggers). pls, be wise n wait for God's intervention as well, then u will be surprised for good.

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missjo:
Finding someone who will be on her exact same frequency may be a stretch,which is why I asked her to marry someone she can tolerate basically.

You're right though.

Thanks papi, pls can u send a copy to seizethabae@yahoo.com.

cescky:
I made sure to quote you so that hopefully you will see my message.

Please google and download this book

"Power Of Your Subconcious Mind"
By Joseph Murphy .

If u can't find it alert me I'll send a copy to you.
....this may sound vague but if ur really serious about finding YOUR man. Please just get the book or download it, it's free if u don't get it., I'll help u out . When ur through with this book you will bless me always.

oya, u are officially my freelance P.A.*fist bump* I hereby hand over my inbox to you. we must find d one by fire by force oo, 50% OFF I.V abi? no wahala.

JeffreyJamez:
Guy!!...... The babe na Asset o! .....send PM shaperly... I ready to design your wedding IV for free! .......no wait!... Not free... But 50% off!

My broda in d lord . i tink am gonna get a freelance P.A to read all my pms. . how i wan fish out my husband from hundreds of pms in my inbox sef? i no even bother open am. Interested freelance P.A pls holla at ur girl.

chronique:
Brother in the Lord,I see what you're doing. . However,it won't be nice to move in now. PMs go don plenty and confusion will certainly set in. From experience,we should never allow lighting strike twice in the same place.

i had no idea my post made Fp until few mins ago. i've been reading pple's comment,still on page 6 tho.lol. i wont forgive myself if i forget to reply ur comment after reading everyone's comment(hopefully before d end of today). Thanks. God bless you for ds comment bro.

judaboom:
Frankly, I would not say it's a thing to worry about much. That's how you get married by not worrying about if he would marry you. Obviously you've spent too much time in relationships hoping it leads to marriage and dreaming of that perfect wedding.
What you should avoid is building castles in the air. Be with a man because you want to know him, you don't have to even date him. You like him befriend him. Talk to him when you get a chance find out if he's got a gf very important. Don't build any notions when he starts noticing you more, he just sees you as one more vagina in a world of different kinds of vaginas, it's like seeing ripe mangoes in the market or queuing around junctions to buy corn. It's every where with different flavors. Yours isn't special.
If after three months he hasn't stopped trying to sleep with you and just accept your friendship move on.
If he has then you broaden the scope of your friendship. Talk about work, invite him over on weekends for free food but make sure he's out of your house before 7:00.
If you still like the dude after the 6th month I'd say gradually faze into the romance, he must be used to coming over by then, telling you about work, maybe even gossiping with you, he might tell you about all your other competitors giving you first hand information required to discourage any other babe.
Don't nag him, but scold him when he does things you don't approve of so he knows how you feel about it. If he does it again ignore him. Let his conscience be the judge, see if he doesn't apologise.
Don't starve him of food because you're angry. And don't insult him in public. And when his blindness finally clears. Tell him what you are ready to tolerate in a relationship before you even begin. Let him decide if you are his jackpot or not. If you are then you shouldn't spend more than a year getting him to see you as that golden ticket he wouldn't like to lose.
I'm a dude though you are older and in already in love with someone and I've been learning about her for the past two years and some and this is how she got me thinking of marriage. Though I'm yet to propose. Still you wanted advice and I was seriously bored and decided to oblige you. Hope you read this sha.

Let me chip in one or two thing abt dis ex of mine,bcus pple are getting it really confusing. When he askd me out,i like him(note:like),den in between d r/ship i noticed dis guy is rough(not rough of rough-rough) but d kind of rough that doesnt makes a guy to brush his hair,he might nt use soap to tk his bath,might not brush his teeth by 3pm nd still want to kiss me,we can park nd buy boli nd groundnut on d road side nd dis guy will b eating d boli hungrily sometyms eating with half of d paper dey used to wrap it,he can decide to use hand to b eating rice hungrily(we are both uni grad),den u know most pple realise they have saliva on their pillow wen they woke up(no biggie,i do dat wen i slept very tired,or eat yummy food at nyt without brushing my teeth nd slept off,but i dont feel comfortable with d pillowcase again without washing it)bcus of d nature of dis guy's biz(he owns a restaurant nd event),he eats all dis yummy foods late nd drop loads of saliva on his pillow accumulatively nd daily,now imagine me coming to say hi to my bf on saturday,nd i said i shld lie down on his bed(he was staying with his parent den) nd every inch i move smells saliva,he doesnt care how he looks,nd to sum it up,u might ask him what 9/11 is and he will tell u it happend in abuja or lets even look for a simpler example:lets saying we were both reading a simplest comic internet joke nd i expect us to burst into laughter togeda but i'll have to explain to him like 3tyms before he got d joke behind it. He started building one irritating wide chest muscle,i hate fat guys with extreme muscles.I can go on and on,nd i know most comments dat will quote dis post is;why dint i tell him to adjust;i was only 21 wen i met him,i was more of an introvert den,i couldnt confine in anyone nd i assumed men have ego,i wouldnt want him to feel bad or uncomfortable around me. So before d end of d third year,all dis things continue (many more stuffs too lenghty to type),so d likeness reduced drastically(remember we were just on 'like' phase initially) so my subconcious mind were always ahead of me,even wen he bought 30k perfum,i still smell 'spit' (subconcious mind),even wen he's in d midst of his friends arguing abt football, i feel ashamed even tho i know nothing abt football(but my subconscious mind had already tagged him(below average)so i will assume he doesnt know wat he is arguing abt,even wen he just pick his car frm d carwash,my nose still smell rotten salad. It was war,i was trapped bcus he is a good,kind hearted man. Nd i was believing it was d devil behind dis subconcious mind,hence i started praying. Nothing worked. Anyone can comment nd crucify me,but believe me u werent in my shoe,i felt all wat happend,i began to felt 'raped' anytim i attempt to even kiss him(it was dat bad). I never had sex with him,my body cant even connect with him,nd i tink we only kissd d first few mth of d r/ship. No intacy,nothing watsoever after den,he felt it,we later discussed it(but i dint tell him his flaws,bcus even tho he has/will change) its like cleaning faeces on d surface of a plate,believe me u remember d feaces if u decide to eat wit dat same plate even after washing it.he told me to hang on,dat i will hv feeling for him,so months to to several months,sev mths turnd to 3yrs!!! It goes on and on nd much more deeper dan d few things i listed. Trust me,u can believe its a minor thing i can manage if i marry him...,but i know d marriage cant last a week. Believe me if i were to be 27 wen i met him,i would hv made d same decision,i taught wat i did was wrong until i read a woman's interview nd they askd her y she love/married her husband nd her response was:he is intelligent,nd wen dey ask d husband d same que:he wrote:my wife tks her bath at nyt nd rub baby powder on her body,dat turns him on since day one nd will always turn him on.

Ahhh! Your second nd third paragragh con dey make afraid to dey catch me. You are 99.9% right abt everytin except d sex part! Tah! I cant even manage nd peck a guy if i no like him! Pls how did u round all dat togeda? Very detailed nd right.

missjo:
You have an ex who you say is PERFECT,still you could not love him.

My diagnosis is that you operate on a peculiar wavelength that isn't common, trust me I know what I'm saying. Every human has a wavelength they operate on. If you were to put on an eye apparatus that is capable of detecting frequencies and sending the visual to your eye,you will understand what I'm saying.

A lot of people operate on similar wavelengths that may have different frequencies,but the catch is that these frequencies can superimpose on each other and blend. Your case is that you have a totally different frequency as well as wavelength from most normal people. Yes you are not normal!

Don't get mad yet,that you're not normal is not bad,it just means you're part of the less than 5% of people in the entire planet who fall under this category. I've met one other guy like that on this forum,cant mention his moniker so he doesn't bite my head off but I follow him. These group of people actually find it hard picking someone to get married to because there is always a fault to be noticed no matter how PERFECT the person is.

I'm going to guess that you're an ambivert,i.e a combination of introvert and extrovert. Another guess is that u like to read anything and everything, and you find that most people do not really understand you even part of your own family. Another guess is that your close friends are very few,as in VERY few and you haven't made new friends in a while. Most of your friends are old friends.
I also guess that you're someone who can have sex with someone and not add emotions to it,i mean just for the fun of it.

All guesses sha,so correct me on the wrong ones.

The solution is this,you should understand that for people like you, love is not what you need to marry. You only need to marry someone whom you would like enough not to see their faults or someone who is on the exact same frequency and wavelength as you,the latter is harder.

Are you into the science field,or do you just see yourself liking anything that has to do with figuring out how things work?

I am not understanding this thread anymore.can someone please explain in english?

missjo:
I'm sure I have a terrible knowledge on wave theory seeing as I'm not a physicist,but I know there is such a thing called BEAT FREQUENCY which results when different frequencies superimpose on each other.this is a good thing in human interactions.

As for you not seeing how humans can operate on different wavelengths,this is probably because you're overthinking it only as a physicist when you should be thinking as a neuroscientist.
Here is a little something from an institute for systems neuroscience at the Norwegian University of Science and Technology

https://www.ntnu.edu/news/on-the-same-wavelength

Have a lovely evening.

Okay.

Eseries:
OP relax...... There is nothing wrong with you. There is nothing wrong about placing a standard for yourself too. There are things in life I expect providence to take care of....Marriage is one. My Sis who is much more older than you will be wedding next two months. There was a guy that was asking her hand in marriage she refused because he didn't meet up to her standard(has nothing to do with finances). I was a little bit concerned considering her age, I was expecting her to compromise, she did not. Now she has what she wants and am happy for her. OP relax, what you want will come your way! Cheers!


I PM/Dm you, Please reply ( The reason for contacting you has nothing to do with this topic or romance)

Amen. Thanks sis. Thanks all,i really appreciate.

Pidggin:
Nice one. The same lady will beg for some free time after marriage

OP, exercise patience and make sure you use your gift of time positively while still single, you will marry a good man IJN

Thanks ma'am

olagift:
Dear op,please don't be discouraged because there is nothing abnormal about what you are passing through. It is a normal phase of life that you will overcome with time, talking from experience. All what you need is a little patient and prayer. Somehow and anyhow you and your right man will locate yourselves. Never you bothered yourself with what is happening in the life of your counterparts because we have different life to live. Please, marriage is not the ultimate and all in all achievement in life. Dedicate your time to God,yourself, help and impact others. Enjoy the freedom of singlehood because life won't be the same after marriage. And don't get married to someone you don't have feeling for and the one you cannot cope or bear with his weaknesses. There is a special man out there that is meant for you. Once again use prayer and patience to wait for him.

Thanks alot

purplerain:
Dear OP

Please I beg you, do not marry someone you feel absolutely nothing for. It rarely ends well.
I know what it is like to be married to someone you love and who adores you, it's AMAZING!.
Marriage is to be enjoyed, abeg dont get in to endure Biko.
There are a lot of miserable people out there married to the wrong person, please do not join that list.

Be patient, and have an open mind. Chances are it will happen when you least expect with someone you least expected as well.

In the meantime, abeg enjoy yourself and live your life...

Cheers

the guy was only teasing.

toni4691:
Your response to the guy that requested your contacts isn't OK. You can meet your husband anywhere. Even a Nairalander can be the man.

where did you read that sir? please read to understand. thanks

poik:
[quote author=seizet

I don't have any feelings for him because HE IS JUST TOO PERFECT..
When will we understand women?

THANK YOU.THANK YOU.THANK YOU SO MUCH

Onegai:
There's a difference between dating a guy you're not sure of and dating a guy you are wondering what you're doing there. I have been on dates where I wondered what made my legs come to this place and i have been on dates where I was hoping the guy would like me but inside me I was baffled why I was setting my standards so low.

See, if you think this longings you have and loneliness you feel are bad, try getting married to someone whom in a year's time you think to yourself "maybe I should have waited a bit longer". That is the truth of so many marriages, each spouse thinking "maybe, just maybe if I had stayed a bit longer, the next guy/girl was The One". So don't rush. The only people who can live a happy life in a loveless marriage are those whom are able to effectively distance themselves from any sort of emotion: happiness doesn't carry them away and neither does Sorrow. They are pragmatic to the core. That's less than 15% of the world's population. You're not one of them, because this is getting to you. You get?

If the pressure gets to you, get off social media. Why bombard yourself with a million pics of your classmates posting pictures of smiling babies and happy husbands and blissful peace? You're not jealous, just being sensible: no need to punish yourself looking at cake when you're dieting. You get?

What are your interests? Go find them. It is better to find someone who likes you the way he met you. So if you like going out, it's better to meet a guy in a club than meet him in church and pretend to be what he wants for a ring and dying inwardly. Go pursue your interests.

When you meet a guy, take a look at your list. Find the one thing that you really need, not what you desperately want. The first thing in my list was a Strong Sense of Humour and Wit. But every single witty guy i met didn't want me. Guys are weird, they want girls they can impress, not girls that can match up to their skills. That Intelligence factor you crave, well those guys will friendzone you so quickly for that chick who thinks a Sidney Sheldon novel is deep intellectual thinking and puts up motivational pictures which she barely understands. That's why every wise woman will tell you to "laugh at his jokes and don't crack yours ". You get?

Live and love your life. Don't wait around for Prince Charming, go out there, attend the ball like Cinderella did. He may be waiting there. Enjoy this minute because you are never getting it back. You get?

You're gonna be fine. Fist bump!

Please are there folks out there married without love and are enjoying their marriage even tho they dont have feelings for their spouse,or married without love initially and later fell in love with their patner some years into d marriage

tunde82seidat:
. M exactly in ur situation. Right now m with a man I don't HV feelings for n v tried to really get to like him but its not just working ,its been a year plus n nothing has changed.wat if ds feelings neva grow ,will i keep living a life of lies n deceit ,i alredy discussed with him n he feels it will eventually develop n i just want give it lil time,will it be wise to take ds risk considering he's a good man.I duno m really confused ,are dere folks out dere that married wtout love n r enjoying their marriages

Exactly what my ex said that kept me for 3years! i pray yours work out well,

tunde82seidat:
. M exactly in ur situation. Right now m with a man I don't HV feelings for n v tried to really get to like him but its not just working ,its been a year plus n nothing has changed.wat if ds feelings neva grow ,will i keep living a life of lies n deceit ,i alredy discussed with him n [b]he feels it will eventually develop [/b]n i just want give it lil time,will it be wise to take ds risk considering he's a good man.I duno m really confused ,are dere folks out dere that married wtout love n r enjoying their marriages

Standard too high ke! you dont know me atall. I really wish i can explain every details of dat past r/ship with dis Mr Right,there is no spark atall frm myside and i cant marry him out of pity. It is not by standard,you love who you love. And do you tink anyone will be single if we decide to go for whoever comes our way;feelings or no feelings? and lastly let me get d bold part straight;are you saying its wrong to wish/pray for someone i will love and will love me back,or i shld enter a marriage without having feelings for d man?

lobito007:
You seem like you have set your standards too high, which underlines why you find it difficult to develop feelings for a man. What is your love language? What about a man makes you tick? Which of these things are lacking in the men you find it difficult developing feelings for? You mentioned the fact that an ex was just perfect for you, yet you could not develop feelings for him. What else are you looking for? It appears you have no clue. If this ex was perfect, why did he become an ex initially? Examine it critically- if a guy, especially one that you had dated, was by your assessment, perfect, why could you still not develop feelings for him after you reconciled? At least, you were in a relationship before. Did you never love him the whole time? Do you even know what love is? Have you ever fallen in love? Do you know what love feels like? Do some soul searching. Your talk of how you could not develop feelings, especially for suitors you thought were okay, is the type a teenage girl who is just trying out dating would come up with. You stated that the ones whom you love don't love you and the ones who love you, you do not love. That is a natural phenomenon and it is not peculiar to just you. So, if this has happened to virtually everyone, dont you think that there is a possibility that a lot of thriving marriages started out with unmutual feelings that later blossomed into mutual feelings over time? You are praying for someone you will have feelings for before you get married. You think it is every prayer God will answer?? What if such a man never comes. You would rather watch the ones who truly love you slip away? Not wise, if you asked me. You are a 27-year-old lady! Think and act like one!

Thanks all for your kind and wise advice.I really appreciate. @Chubhie;God bless you for putting up that piece together,indeed such a wise God we serve. But y wld i pray to God for 3solid years to have feelings for someone,did everytin possible for me not to lose this great guy,I TRIED I REALLY TRIED,yet nothing happen?. I really cant go deep discussing that relationship bcus he is a nairalander(he might put one or two tins togeda and figure out its me),but just picture NO SINGLE FEELINGS AT ALL,NONE THAT CAN EVEN MAKE A MARRIAGE WORK FOR 24HRS hence i treat him as i want,even tho im not a bad person dat treat people anyhow.

God bless you for dis. I really appreciate.

ammyluv2002:
Op, let me share this story

I have a friend from school, we were so close back then in school. She was reserved and homely, but suitors weren't coming. She was so worried about the whole thing to a point, she became desperate to settle down yet no serious guy.

After graduation, she decided to say yes to any guy that comes her. Someone linked her up with this dude and after some months he proposed to her. My friend wasn't interested in the guy's attitude or anything, she just wanted to get married. The date for trad was fixed and they got married, after 3 months she left the guy that she can't live with him. I told her if i were to be her dad,she will remain in that marriage cause i warned her.




My dear, God will bring the right husband at the right time. Don't put your life on hold just to please the people around. Live your life in all fulness & don't allow such to bother. Yes, you're ripe for marriage but it will come when the time is right , but for now perpare yourself while you pray for the right guy. Work on your flaws to make yourself the right woman, travel if you have the resources. Make yourself very pleasant to the eyes, socialise, dress smart, hang out with friends just live your normal life. Whether we like it or not, God has the finally say in every aspect of our lives all we need to do is to do our part and leave the rest to Him.

Thanks so much for this; @bolded; i would love it both ways i.e the kind of person that i have feelings for and also have feelings for me. Honestly stories like that of your aunt scares me every single day, and if i said i shld go with someone i dont love now hoping love will grow with time,wat if it doesnt?. The ex of mine i talkd about,i dated him for good 3yrs! wishing/praying to God for me to like him,it dint just happen.

gidjah:
You will some day get married bae,you just need to get a lil bit more less strict and reduce your yard lines drawn.i wanna believe fine men come close,but your feelings ain't there,would you want the kind of person you will have feelings for or vice versa?,
Iife is not most times how we want it to get played,love grows with time too, the person you tend not to have feelings for today,might b d one your feelings gets strongest for with time ,that's how love grows .if it grows with time, it will stay permanent,you will have to let your love grow with some nice guy out there,watch it ,tend it,water it and watch it grow to stay forever.you are pretty young,that's why you are still feeling this way,but mind you ,age is never on your side,you grow old daily,watch it,I pray it does get better with you.gat an older sis who was just
LIke you,she started like you,finished her school very young ,na so we talk to her,she go say,'this one ,I don't have feelings for,''that one he is not minding me'..bla bla bla..to make the short story long,my older sis works with the accountant general of the federation as the head,she is well over fourty today but guys have stopped coming!,she is still there with all the comforts she has,was with 'aunty'few days ago, age no be here o, she told me she gets depressed dail over how she has been,and how she has treated guys,..with all the cars and affluence,na only married guys dey show for her side!.her pastor even asked her to keep her cars at home and start trekking may be boys will show up,...for were !!??

Thanks sis,but pls is dis my situation normal?

Amelian:
Dear op, I understand what you are going. Through but pls do not allow desperation push you to marry someone you have no feelings for. Be patient, continue to work on your qualities, Be the best you can be, pray and be optimistic . The right man meant for u will locate you and marry you as his beloved.
God's time is always the best.
.shalom

if u guys no d level of my seriousness walah iu wont take it as a joke. shams040 im not here to look for patner/husband but to find experience pple to diagnose what could be wrong with me or if it happens to most ladies before they settle down. Experience pple pls respond plsssss

I don't even know where to start or how to explain what my problem is, hopefully i get lucky for the 'problem' to be 'diagnosed'. I'm a 27yrs old lady, finished university very very early and i've been extremely lucky with almost everything in life, but to get a suitor and settle down na palava. Friends/family members keep saying I'm too choosy or not serious.

Honestly, I AM NOT choosy. When the one thing i fast/pray for is for God to link me with the bone of my bone very soon, I even gave up my travelling plans in order to increase my chances of finding a future patner (i know you can meet ur patner anywhere, but na just to shut up people wey don tink say i no dey serious), a close friend even suggested i pend my 'work-from-home business', look for job so i can be leaving the house, and i got lucky within a month or two of dusting my CV i got a fantastic high paid job with no connection (honestly i've always been so lucky when i ask God for anything but i have no idea why he is delaying this). I just dont know how to explain it, the ones i like doesnt like me and the ones i dont have single feelings for will do anything to wife me. I'm not desperate or something, i just want to reach out if I'm the only one having this problem.

There was even a time i made up my mind to accept an ex proposal even tho i have no single feeling for him, i kept hoping/fasting/praying for a miracle to happen so i can at least like him (even if its 20%) bcus hes just too PERFECT, but it didn't just happen. My type of man doesnt need to be extremely rich, tall, handsome like most ladies dream man. He should just be neat, God fearing and have something upstairs biko (i love intelligent guys). Back to the main reason why i created this post; Married women/mature lady out there, has this ever happen to you? I really envy people that love their partners and they are loved back equally. Married women, please, I'm waiting to hear from you.

And for most people that will think I'm looking for a rich guy, believe me i once met a guy that was willing to sponsor my M.Sc in UK if i can be his Mrs, but i will never engage in anything that will bring curse on my head. So my problem is not even money. I'm so sick and tired

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