When i look back my thoughts get blurry....
U weren't around during my childhood or maybe i just didn't knw hw much u meant......
Countless apologies delivered at my doorstep, practically fed up of the word ''sorry''....
I contemplated suicide upon my wife and kids demise but u gave me strength....
I found solace in you,i found victory be it temporary,i found in u a hiding place....
You all can judge me if u wish,u're not in these shoes better still u dnt share my face.....
I toss and turn every night with just my pillow to hold.....
I walk around the house '' where are my kids"?i used to call them my precious gold...
I'll never be that man before the accident thats because i've found an old friend who now is a new buddy..old friend scotch