The controversial mother of fourteen known as Octomon after giving birth to octuplets as a result of in vitro fertiliztion, has told how she was forced to ‘kill off’ her ‘vile’ Octomom persona in a bid to save her life and focus on raising her children.

Natalie Suleman – formerly known as Nadya – revealed to DailyMail.com how she is deeply ashamed of the ‘dehumanizing and exploitative’ work she did as a celebrity porn star and stripper to make ends meet.

And she became so disgusted with herself that she ended up ‘numbing’ the pain with prescription drug Xanax.

The 41-year-old believes she would have died of an overdose if she hadn’t quit that line of work in 2013 and left her Octomom days behind her.

She now wants to set the record straight about her past and show the world how her octuplets – now seven-years-old – are well-adjusted and thriving.

Suleman became reviled in 2009 when it emerged she sought out IVF treatment to become pregnant with eight – despite already being a mother of six and being unemployed.

However, she now reveals for the first time how she only ever wanted one more child – and was encouraged to have 12 embryos implanted by doctors who feared most wouldn’t survive.

The result was the birth of eight children: Jonah, Nariyah, Josiah, Maliyah, Isaiah, Noah, Jeremiah and Makai.

Suleman hit the headlines in 2009 when pictures of her pregnant belly circulated online. But the unemployed mother quickly found herself a target for vicious critics
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Suleman hit the headlines in 2009 when pictures of her pregnant belly circulated online. But the unemployed mother quickly found herself a target for vicious critics

Struggling to make ends meet and look after her 14 kids, Suleman ended up making a porn movie and doing bikini shoots – anything to stop her family from ended up on the streets.

Her short stint as a porn actress even won her four Adult Video Network (AVN) awards.

But the work left her feeling empty and disgusted with herself.

‘Everything I ever did was for money to put food on the table,’ she said.

‘Everyone thinks I had all these donations and help but I didn’t – I did everything on my own and paid everything out of my own pocket so I was Octomom for four years.

‘The last two years of it were so dark. I descended down a very dark and destructive path.’

Suleman said the financial pressure she was under led her to make ‘toxic’ choices, because there were no positive opportunities available to her under the ‘Octomom’ label.

‘I fully exploited and dehumanized myself with the porn and the stripping. I was so desperate we were on the verge of homelessness, so rather than put my kids in front of the camera I decided to put myself out there..

‘The consequence of exploiting myself was deep toxic shame and self disgust. To continue I had to numb and that’s when I started with the prescription drugs.

The mum of 14 says she tries to lead a natural, vegan lifestyle and so taking Xanax went against that creed – but that she couldn’t do an interview or go on camera without it.

She started taking the drug daily – although she says she never took more than prescribed.

‘I wasn’t able to exploit myself and do what I was doing without it, which became a problem – it wasn’t healthy.’

Suleman turned to adult movies in order to make ends meet - something she says she now bitterly regrets. 'To continue I had to numb and that's when I started with the prescription drugs,' she recalled
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Suleman turned to adult movies in order to make ends meet – something she says she now bitterly regrets. ‘To continue I had to numb and that’s when I started with the prescription drugs,’ she recalled

Suleman even had plastic surgery to keep the money coming in. But she denies ever spending welfare money on operations.

‘I admit I’ve had plastic surgery but not half of what the media have said I had,’ she confessed.

‘I had a breast augmentation after breastfeeding three kids, which I paid for myself as I was working.

‘I had a tummy tuck after the octuplets after a media outlet promised me $100,000 to pose nude.

‘I have had no work on my face but I admit that in 2008 I injected my lips and it looked horrible. I was so embarrassed and ashamed. In 2009 I did it again because a media outlet paid me.

‘I was so embarrassed I denied it, but it feels so freeing to finally tell the truth. I don’t want my girls to go down the path of plastic surgery and wanting to change themselves.’

After several tumultuous years, Suleman said she made the decision to ‘kill’ the Octomom character in March 2013 in a bid to save her life.

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