#From_The_Sage_Under_The_Heavens

#Sour_Sugar

What have you done?
What is this you have blown?
Is it that easy to say?
Is it that easy to walk away?
The sincerity of my heart you meddled with,
The chance of my lost gaurd, you seized.

What is this feeling? Goosebumps
Please hold me someone! It shocks,
The feeling of the dead while alive,
For your sake, in love I was selfish,
I left it for you only, to others I did not give.
In you, I hoped for a love that will flourish.

Now, I don't even know what flourish means.
You kept me close, with no intention to let me in.
You gave me keys, but there was no door to open,
It looked like safe haven with you, but I see no heaven.
You made me feel there was something,
But in your heart, that something was nothing.

You never told me, you never told me,
To stop trying, to stop fighting,
That in true detail, there was no 'us' to be.
You were not lucid, not clear,
So as I don't stop insisting and persisting.
I kept doing and trying; I felt like Upendi was near.

Now the thoughts of Upendi makes me shiver.
I never knew or felt from you any care.
Without no reciprocal, I showed all the care,
You didn't care, shout or even enquire,
Now it is as all I did was for nothing.
All you could say is that you never felt it was anything.

I have just one thing to tell you,
Indeed it hurts, after all I had to do,
But I am good and better; and oh! Free,
And your real self, I now clearly see.
Am not gonna hurt anyone cos of what you put me through,
But will make you miss it, and you will rue.