THE BROKEN GIRL

It's a cool evening. The Sun has set. She almost walked past him absent-mindedly. He signals to her and she stops. They talk a little and then she goes away, forgetting she ever saw him.

And then she gets home and gets busy. Suddenly, she remembers. His face crept into her mind and positioned itself right there.
Unable to push out his face, she sends him a message. He responds and they get talking .

She likes him she realises, and alas! He liked her too. She's blushing. Her dark smooth warm skin is on fire; she is appalled.
She has never felt this way before. Could this be love at first sight,or something else?. She doesn't know,but she is determined to find out.

They keep talking and get closer. He calls her. Her heart pounds whenever she is about to see him. She's always overconscious.

She never trusts a guy so easily,no, not after being dumped and broken by one previously. But she trusts him, and that's funny. It feels like he trusts her too.

She thinks she's in love. And he must feel the same way too. But she's afraid. Afraid of being broken again, but,whatever this was that she was feeling, it was pushing the fear away .

She goes deeper in her conversations with him, trying to find out more about him...
Her heart tells her to stop. But she didn't listen. She threw away caution to the wind and let's herself feel again.

There is no fear in love she tells herself, but perfect love casts away fear.

He must love her,he had to. She saw it in his eyes whenever he looked at her.

She can't hold it anymore. She tells him how she feels,expecting to get the same reply.
She's finally ready,ready for commitment,to give her all just to make it work. For nothing could pull them apart,except of course their own personal decisions.

But he doesn't love her,he tells her. He likes her as a friend.

Pain rippled through her heart like a knife. No, he must be wrong she thinks, maybe he is trying to hide his feelings. But then,who was she to tell a man how he feels?

She had to accept it. All her life she felt rejected,worthless and unlockable. When she met him,she thought her story would change, that he would convince her that she was lovable.

But she was disappointed. She was so sure she saw love in his eyes. Or maybe,that's how his eyes were .

She could wait for him to be ready,if only he told her he loved her. But he didn't . How could she wait for him to love her when she knew fully that he wouldn't?

Now,she's alone and broken. She's trying to sort out her hurt emotions. She's confused and empty.

Need to be strong she tells herself. But she need time to heal. Time away from the man she loved.
Yet,she can't do it. Can't stay away from him.

Can't let him think she only began talking to him just because she wanted a partner .

She feels even more Terrible.

And now, no matter how hard she tries not to let her feelings show, she has all the signs.

The signs of a broken girl.

PENNED AND SIGNED- TIAMIYU MODUPE OLASHENI.