First and foremost if anyone met me in real life they would never believe i did all these things, and i truly am a very nice person it was just madness that made me to do the following.. I reiterate i am NOT a bad person, i had a mental break down during this time and i snapped.. If someone told someone i knew in real life that I did the following honestly no one would believe it.

Anyways, please don't judge I'm consumed with guilt..

I was bullied by a girl when I was a teen so age 18 I sent her a message saying her dead father would be ashamed of her

I had a mental health problem and because of the bullying I experienced with my life I associated a insta famous model with my bullies and I wanted to bully her because I did not like her lifestyle and I wanted to bully her as I felt it was my time to bully after being bullied all my life so I cyber bullied her for years and in one of those bullying episodes I told her that her father will die young

I had an argument with a boy and in the argument I told him that it is good his dad died because at least he doesn't have to see what a mess his son is

When rihannas grandmother died, because I hated rihanna I sent her a message on twitter laughing at it and I said she doesn't have to see her ugly face anymore

And I felt like mocking a few others who lost parents but I did not.

In an argument I told the person close to me (person x) that I wish they will get a heart attack and die (many times I said this)

I also used to make fake accounts and abuse people who wronged me

Fast forward a few years later (person x) who is very close to me gets a heart attack suffers and dies

By this time we had restored our relationship but I feel so bad.

Is it karma? Did I cause this?

And why did my bullies not suffer? I gave my 100% to God and my life is a mess which led me to do those awful things in frustration whereas they never even cared about God and they progressed and did so well.

Help.me.

Brb.

So God don't count me too among those that adviced you,after your " SWEAR" killed somebody.

Brb again.