Kasimaramma2:
This is from my cousin who doesnt use an internet enabled fone. I gave her the phone to type this:
good evening,i thank those that would have time to read my post because it is long. Kasi told me that sometimes you pple here use to insult those that bring topic,please domnt insult ,me because a prob shared is a prob solved.
My first bf left me because false rumours spread.my second bf left me because he said i like attention.my third bf i met online left me for another girl because i was immature by then and lied.my fourth bf was also online,he left me because of my imperfection.my fifth too left me because of my imperfections.my 6th was in for a one night stand and left me.my 7th left me for my own friend,i cried my eyes out.my 8th left me because we quarreled too much.my 9th left me because i used to shout.
This is just the few escapades i mentioned. I would not be doing myself any favour by lying on a facelesas forum,it wouldnt add money to my account. So it is not cooked up.
All this heartbreaks had a great traumatic effect on me as i have a low esteem of myself, i always live in fear. Any guy that approaches me, i get scared and i get tired of a relationship easily: after two weeks in a relationship,i get tired.
I am physically attractive, i am quiet intelligent and industrous so i have many admirers but each time i fall in love, my whole life would be filled with FEAR and UNCERTAINTIES and TIREDNESS of the relationship that is barely a week.

Recently, a guy approached me, he chased me for long and i finally accepted. He is from diffrent religion with me, and he is from a state people fear alot. I sent his sister to act as a friend in my house and when she came, my parents were so angry that i befriended a girl from that state and religion and dont wanna ever see her in our house. Imagine what would happen if they know i am dating someone from that state and a different religion, they would drop dead. But the boys parent like me alot, they dont care of my religion,his mother is fond of me, and i feel free with his parents. The relationship is one month old and i feel TiRED already
My problems are: how do i heal from the past trauma?how do i get self esteem ?how do i stay in a relationship for a month without feeling tired? Would my parents ever like my bf?would my bf turn out to be like the others that have hurt me before or not?

Kasimaramma2:

in your mind you created a joke,try better