First of all am 17 No girlfriend and I've never F"""ked my entire life. Not that f"""ing my problem.

My problem is that I have never felt loved in my entire life and it irritates me.

I grew up alone staying my grandpa (may his soul rest in peace) it felt really terrible cos I never had the chance to be a child and am really freaked out when I see kid playing and shouting around And I just order them to get a seat(currently am staying with my aunt she has 2 kids) all my life my mom wasn't there neither was my dad. My mom and dad were never married and I was the result of a one night pleasure they had .

My dad is Dead and my mom married to another man who I don't even know him well but I try to act cool whenever am around them . my mom doesn't care if am alive but she wants me to go to school get a degree and all that stuff but I don't really buy into that. She doesn't care a bit cos if she does she would be telling things that I should hear directly from her and not from other people.


At first during 2008or 09 when she got married I thought I'll have a family and be able to brag about it in school just like my mates but no she left me for her husband forgetting about me . I always stayed for months without seeing or hearing from her as if she didn't exist.

With tears in my eyes I wish I could turn back time and stop my irresponsible parents from having an affair that led to a child they couldn't take care of.



Why am posting this is because I don't want the world to have irresponsible parents like mine . #ALWAYSSTAYSTRONG

Considering your first Paragraph, I think you need to heed to your last paragraph.

Stay strong, and let your ordeals motivate you

I find your story a little hard to believe. Although I know the usuals

from ur first paragraph I think say Toto be ur problem
are u sure ur step dad knows anything about u..
ur mom have a lot to answer, she's hiding de truth from him

In d voice of Chi gurl
Issa lie
Not believe able

lilianofentse:
I find your story a little hard to believe. Although I know the usuals

do you want year to year info?

Pubichairs:
from ur first paragraph I think say Toto be ur problem

are u sure ur step dad knows anything about u..

ur mom have a lot to answer, she's hiding de truth from him

Nah ain't interested . Step dad knows me but almost nothing about me. the truth is I don't even know myself

lilianofentse:
I find your story a little hard to believe. Although I know the usuals

I can hook you up with my mom on fb just beat around the bush with her and you'll see. I don't know but I heard that she contested councilor elections in her community (marital)

Pubichairs:
from ur first paragraph I think say Toto be ur problem

are u sure ur step dad knows anything about u..

ur mom have a lot to answer, she's hiding de truth from him

I don't even have a picture of my mom and i. And this is one of the reasons I don't keep pictures Even of my best buddies, cos for me memories are mad in your heart

MasonKendall:
I can hook you up with my mom on fb just beat around the bush with her and you'll see. I don't know but I heard that she contested councilor elections in her community (marital)

ok. I'll pm you

Two stories in one book, first story has nothing to do with the 2nd and the 2nd has nothing to do with first story.

lilianofentse:
ok. I'll pm you

no am using my buddy's gmail

Bro, if you can, get counseling, find someone to talk to so you can let go of all the bitterness that your upbringing put in your heart.... Focus on YOU, and cherish what you have and/or who you are today, without expecting anything from anyone. There are many people who could love you today, but your heart is so damaged by what has happened to you in the past, let alone how negatively you view yourself, that you couldn't let anyone in (to love you).

Always remember that you are intelligent, healthy, with a functioning brain, able bodied thus the sky is the limit for you... And you instead should be proud of who you became and what is in store for the future. Only YOU can make it a bright future.

Love will come in due time, just try to stay positive and focus on being a great person.

If not for your second paragraph you would have received a lot of bashings...

Everybody have their own problems.

Your mum has her problems and she must have reasoned that moving with you to her husband's house was not going to help her case.

You should actually blame your father and your current step father more for the alienation that you feel.

Your father could have married your mum and given you a home, but he did not. Your step have could have told your mum to bring you home, but refused to do that. He is the head of the home and your mum cannot take your to his house without his consent.

Just focus on developing yourself and being a man who can take care of himself.
Go to school get a degree and live your life. Life can be difficult a times when you do not have a father figure to look up to. But you can come out fine if you decide to be level headed and plan your life well.

MasonKendall:
Nah ain't interested . Step dad knows me but almost nothing about me. the truth is I don't even know myself

my point from de second statement, so ur mom needs to tell him about her past